I am definitely needing some help with depression (and even admitting that makes me want to cry, as I have many times today), but mainly I think so much about SIDS specifically that I'm almost convinced every time I put LO down that he is going to die in his sleep.
I got the Angelcare monitor (and have had a number of false alarms, likely due to a faulty sensor pad that they're replacing), and that helps a lot, but I obsess and I was just as bad during pregnancy. I have had anxiety issues my whole life, and it just occurred to me that maybe if I get help/medication, I will be able to function without feeling terrified every second of every day.
Does anyone else have these issues? Does anyone know what I can do to feel better faster? I feel like a horrible mother who doesn't want to engage with her child because I love him so much that if (and in my mind, when) I lose him I feel like I would die.