My baby is 6 weeks old, and I have just not been feeling good. I am so anxious and scared about everything, from taking him out of the house, to making sure his bottles are clean. I feel like I am not bonding with him, and have no idea what to do with him all day long while DH is at work. I get anxious knowing it's all up to me. Even when DH comes home from work and takes over, I worry that he's not paying enough attention to DS (like he watches tv while feeding him instead of interacting) and that he doesn't put him to bed "right". I feel so low, like I don't enjoy anything anymore. Especially my baby. I just want to feel like myself again. I want to look at my baby and enjoy him. I want the feelings of sadness and guilt to go away.
I went to the Dr. yesterday. She put me on lexapro. I can't wait to start feeling better, but am worried that it won't work! What if I never feel better? My son is going to suffer b/c his mommy can't deal. How horrible! Thankfully my husband and my parents are very supportive, but he works and they live out of state. I feel like I need someone with me and the baby to help me and hate when my husband goes to work. What can I do?