Ever since my youngest was born I have been getting panic attacks and have had awful anxiety. ( I am seeing a therapist and taking Zoloft) I have always been an axious person but it has been out of control lately. I am constantly in fear that something bad will happen. I fear for my health and the health of my boys. I obsess about it. I feel anxious all the time. I also have PPD and constantly feel like an emotional breakdown is on the brink. I love my boys and husband so much but feel like a different person. I have no motivation or energy and constantly am in a state of fear. I don't even like to leave my house. (medication has helped with this) Did any of you get anxiety after delivery as well? If you have suffered from panic attacks, you know how terrifying they are.
Re: PPA? any of you have this?
yes, I get it. Panic attacks suck ass. In a big way.
I definitely am dealing with it, and as I don't have any medical insurance I'm having trouble finding somewhere I can reasonably get help.
My anxiety is centered around LO and SIDS is generally the top of my list, so much so that every time LO falls asleep I think he won't wake up. It's hard because even though you can try to logic your way out of it, the thoughts make you tense, distant, irritable, short of breath, etc.
My anxiety started during pregnancy though, and has gotten worse almost every day (though admittedly I have the occasional day where it seems like things are okay, and I might be getting over it). Extreme anxiety is definitely an indicator of PPD, and in my opinion, the anxiety itself can lead to other feelings generally associated with PPD (like the guilt and the trouble connecting to your child and so on).
I hope you're able to get whatever help you need. I know it can be very scary, but you don't need to live your life feeling this way. Best of luck to you.
I have always been a *little* anxious but when I got pregnant, I got really anxious the first few months. I thought that there was something wrong with me (health-wise). I completely turned into a hypocondriac., I always thought I had lost the baby or that something was wrong. It was bad. It lasted until second tri then was gone.
Everything was fine until DS was 4 months old. I got hit with really bad PPA. And it was so dark and gloomy. I guess it was both anxiety and depression. I know some people say they are one in the same. I don't know. All I know is I was constantly panicked that something was wrong with me, that I has some disease or something. That was probably the darkest time in my life. And I feel like it had nothing to do with my child. I was/am/always have been happy to be a mom, felt bonded, completely adored him. And he was an easy baby and I have an amazing husband. who makes me very happy. The issue I had was coming from me and my issues.
Long story short, I was put on anti anxiety meds and have been so much better since then. I feel like my old self.