I get so mad but then I think, "hello, he's just a baby. It's not like he does it on purpose!" and then I just want to slap myself for being an idiot. Last night, I didn't even get irritated or think, "why are you up?" I just went with the flow. I wish I had more nights like last night.
Re: I hate when I have nights that I get pissed @ C for waking up
Have you talked to someone about possible PPD? I had that problem---I was getting angry at Molly for little things.
Also, be glad you don't have my LO---she wakes every 2-3 hours!
That is rough. My LO likes to be up every 1-2hrs all night every night, so I definitely know what you mean. I was able to go with it these past few nights, and it really does make it so much easier.
But you will get annoyed, you will get pissed off...you can't be perfect. Your sleeping needs aren't being met, and you have the right to feel that way. Don't beat yourself up about it. It just means you're human.
No, and I have been thinking that I might have it. I mean, I don't think about how I wish he was never born. It's only bad at night (obviously, because I'm being denied my sleep) and during the day it's like my anger never even happened during the night. I am planning on talking to J about it tonight or sometime soon.
I am on Zoloft and it has helped 500000% I was having bad thoughts though too---maybe if you talk to your PCP he could give a lower dosage to help soothe your "anxiety". Mine has helped my anger so much. I can't even begin to describe the difference.