Pregnant after a Loss

Thank You (sorry so long).

Lovelies,

How can I ever thank you for the kindness you have shown DH and I after the passing of our sweet Julia? I know it's been awhile, but today was the first day I felt I could muster up the courage to log back on here. But I have certainly been thinking of you all. DH and I have been absolutely overwhelmed by your love, support, prayers, thoughts, and concerns. The contribution made in Julia's honor was so far above and beyone. The cards have given me so much comfort. It all means more than I could ever verbalize.

The day I came home from the hospital after having Julia, I broke completely down when I walked up my stairs and had to pass Julia's room in order to get to mine. Seing all her clothes, gifts, furniture, and everything we had prepared for her was like being stabbed a thousand times in the heart. I certainly didn't want to go through that again, so I've been holed up in my room since then. Until this weekend that is.

We had a snow storm here, and have been snowed it. DH went out on Friday to shovel the driveway and found the food in front of the garage. He has not stopped commenting on how thoughtful you all are. He has told his family, my family, and his friends all about my "Bumpies". I am so, so, so thankful for you ladies. I certainly haven't had the strength or will to cook, but I was getting tired of seeing DH eat cereal for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.

For me the food was more than just physical nourishment. For over a week, I (along with my family) have tried to convince myself to get up and at least move around the house a little bit. But I couldn't come up with a good enough reason to get out of bed. It seemed like such a waste of time to even go downstairs. It seemed pointless to eat. Most of all I didn't want to have to walk past Julia's room again. But when DH came running upstairs all excited, and shocked, and talking nonstop about all of the food someone had sent to us and begging me to come downstairs, I finally had a small reason to climb out of bed. He kept asking who could have been so thoughtful. Before I even went downstairs I told him I knew it had to be you ladies.

So I'm downstairs today, on the computer again, sitting on my couch feeling the sunshine through my window. My heart aches with a pain I can't describe, the tears seem as though they'll never stop flowing, and tomorrow is just too much trouble to think about right now. But today I got out of bed and came downstairs, and you ladies gave me the reason to do that. Thank you for that gift. I love you all so very much.

 

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Re: Thank You (sorry so long).

  • *big hugs*

    I've thought about you a thousand times.  I'm sitting here crying knowing that you are out of bed and making small steps.  I can't imagine what you've been through. 

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  • Mrs Tyson,

    Big Big ((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))) I have been thinking of you everyday. While it is under the worst circumstances, I was so glad to see your name on a post. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. I will never forget your baby Julia. Giving what I could to you and your DH was second nature, I know you would do the same to me. You have shown nothing but love to me and it only made sense that I do the same to you.

    Much Love.

    P.S. I hope you had enough freezer space for all that food! I guess you could always leave it outside in the the snow... :)

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  • :::sneaking in from TTCAL:::

    I'm so glad you posted this update hon.  You've been on my mind constantly.  Much love to you and your DH.  {{{hugs}}}

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  • ((big, BIG hugs))

    I am glad to hear that the food has helped a little bit. Just know that even if the food itself could talk it could never begin to explain how much we all love you and how much we have all been thinking of you during these past few weeks. We're all here for you when you need us and when you're ready.  Continued thoughts and prayers!  Left HugRight Hug

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  • Again, there is nothing possible to say to make that pain any easier. I am praying for you and husband. Please know you mean more to us than you can imagine. If you ever need anything, all you have to do is call on us!!!
  • You and your husband, and of course your sweet angel Julia, have been in my constant prayers and will continue to be there.  Take care of yourself and know that we are always, always here for you.  Julia will never be forgotten.  Sending the biggest hugs your way...
  • ::peeking in from ttcal::

    you have been in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Lots of Love to you and your DH.

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  • MrsT!!

    I hav not been able to stop thinking about you and your DH.  I cannot tell you how many prayers I have said in your name, hoping that this was all a bad dream.  I love you and I am so sorry that you have had your world turned upside down like this.   I am glad to hear you are taking baby steps.  Please know that this is not where our helping hand will stop... if you EVER need anything please don't hesitate to contact any one of us!

    We love you and your DH!!!

  • Jacelyn~

       I'm so glad that you were able to log on to let us know how you're doing. My heart still breaks for you daily. I continue to pray for your comfort, and your DH's as well. We'll all continue to be here for you as much as you want us to be. We've missed you and your sweetness, but of course, know that you need your time now.

    ((((Hugs))) from my heart to yours.
     

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  • I have been thinking about you constantly and am so happy to hear from you.  I cannot even fathom what you are going through but please know that you are in our thoughts everyday...and we are here for you.

    ((((HUGS))))

    DD1: 3/31/10 DD2: 9/7/11
  • So glad to see you stop in!  Your family has been in my thoughts lately and will continue to be.

     

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  • BIG HUGE ((HUGS))

    I think about you and your DH every day.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and I'm so glad the food brought you two some comfort.  One step at a time...

  • My heart breaks for you and I pray for you and your husband daily. Julia is so lucky to have such wonderful parents and she will never be forgotten. If you need anything please let me know.

    Love,

    Katie

    Mother to Samantha Marion. DOB 2/7/09. She became our angel on 2/12/09...too soon! Missing my baby. Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BabyFruit Ticker
  • We all love you and will continure to be here for as long as you need us!! I am so happy we brought a little bit of improvement to your days. I pray your strength to pick yourself up and move on continues each day!
    In memory of precious Julia, sweet baby James, and now Timmy who fought so hard.


    Natural miscarriage - April 2009 ~ We love you, 'Blueberry'
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  • Hey Mrs. T!

    I am so glad you were able to come downstairs today. I can only hope each day gets easier for you. I still don?t have words because I can not imagine what you are going through, but just know I have been constantly thinking about you and praying for you. We love you!

    Missed MC 1 - 11/21/2006 Missed MC 2 - 03/10/2008 BFP # 3 09/18/09 - Gabriel David born 05/11/2010 baby
  • Jacelyn, I have been thinking about you guys non-stop. My tears are flowing too and I just wish I could hug you. I am so glad that you popped in so we could all "personally" say something, but know, that even if you don't pop in again for a while, we will always be thinking about you and praying for you. We <3 you!
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  • OH Mrs. T.  You've been in my thoughts & prayers daily!  And will continue to be.  Keep your eyes open for small glimmers of hope.  I am glad you know how much we love you and are here to support you.  As I've said - I pray for peace for you both.
  • Huge hugs to you, Mrs. T. I've been thinking about you a ton.

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    03/09 Clomid Cycle #2 = BFN
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  • (((hugs)))
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  • You've been in my thoughts and prayers, and there'll you'll stay. Take care of yourself. {{hugs}}
  • Oh, how happy I was to see you post today!   I tearfully read your thank you both for the sorrow that I feel at your loss and the happiness of seeing your face and "hearing your bump voice" again  You and your family will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.  BIG HUGS
    bfp #1 12/25/08 mc 2/5/09 at 10w6d bfp #2 6/25/09 bfp #3 2/28/11 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BabyFruit Ticker
  • You and your family have been in my continued T&P.  I can only hope that each day is a little better.  Hugs to you....
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  • ((Huge hugs)) what an amazing post from an amazing woman. I am sitting at my desk are teary eyed. I am glad to hear from you and just wish there were more that I could do.
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  • You have been in my thoughts and prayers.  I can't imagine what you are going through, but thank you so much for letting us know how you're doing.  You'll stay in my thoughts and prayers.  (((Hugs)))
  • Super duper HUMUNGOUS hugs to you, lady.  I'm glad it helped.

    I've been thinking about you every single day.  You guys are in my continued prayers - it's good to hear from you.

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  • imageBa Lolly:

    *big hugs*

    I've thought about you a thousand times.  I'm sitting here crying knowing that you are out of bed and making small steps.  I can't imagine what you've been through. 

    This. Lovely, I wish I could drive to VA and just give you great big hugs!
    Oct 2008 m/c #1 5 weeks, May 2009 m/c #2 4w5d. BFP 6/23/09 EDD 3/8/10!
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  • I am a newbie here, but I just wanted to say how very sorry I am for you and your husband.  I cannot fathom the pain you are in, but every tiny step is still a step. Even though we have never met, you have been in my thoughts and prayers.  Lots of love.
  • I'm so sorry for what you're going through, Jacelyn.  I'm constantly thinking about you and I'm so glad you were able to come on to say hello.  I'm keeping you and your husband in my prayers.  We're always here for you and we love you.  Big huge ((HUGS)).
  • Thanks for the update. You've been on mind and I am so happy to hear from you. I can't even imagine the pain and sadness you and Mr. Tyson are experiencing right now but just know there are lots of ladies thinking of you, always, and we are here when you need us.
  • I can't even begin to tell you how happy I am to hear from you... sometimes a little sunshine is worth getting out of bed, even when nothing seems worth anything at all...

    My DH and I have been thinking about you and praying for you constantly... and will continue to do so.

    Many ((HUGS))

     

    BFP #1 4/2/09 EDD 12/6/09 -MC 4/12/09 BFP #2 6/2/09 EDD 2/14/10 -Ectopic in Tube, Surgery 6/23/09 BFP #3 10/15/09 EDD 6/27/10 -Daniel John 6/21/10 BFP #4 Oct 2010 Chemical Pregnancy BFP #5 8/19/11 Beta #1 82.8 Prog 17.25
  • I just wish I could come and give you a hug, if I wasn't in this hospital I would come and fine you, I know you live close to me. You have been truly in my thoughts and prayers. My DH and I say our prayers together at night and I have prayed for you and he now feels like he knows you. I am so truly sorry for your loss and I hope that all the prayers and love that we are sending can help lift you a little more each day.
  • I am just so sorry. Losing a child is the most indescribeable pain. I remember many,many days feeling just as you describe. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. PS- Be on the lookout for a package from Sufficient Grace Ministries. I had them send you something :)
  • ::big hugs:: 

    Your family continues to be in my thoughts and prayers.  

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  • Mrs. T,  I was so happy to see an update from you!  I have been praying for you and your family daily.  I cannot begin to imagine the pain you are going through and I am sure it will be a long process.  Take your time to work through it and know we are all here if you need anything and we love you!  I am so glad you and your husband are enjoying the food and you came downstairs and logged on.  Praises for small victories! 

    Many hugs and much love!

  • *big hugs*

    I haven't stopped praying for you, your DH and baby Julia.  Know that she will never be forgetten and you will continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. 

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  • I pray for your little angel Julia every night. I hope you continue to get little more strength everyday. Although I don't feel your pain, my heartaches for you and your family. Be strong Jacelyn! There are  people whom you have never met that love you and your angel. I wish I was there so I could give you a big hug. Thinking of you Tatiana
  • So glad to hear from you. I've been thinking about you tons. I'm so very sorry for your loss and can't even begin to imagine what you are going through, but your courage and strength are truly inspiring. If there is ever anything anyone here can do you for, please don't hesitate to ask. We are all here to pull you through this, so use us!

     Big hugs and lots of love.

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  • MrsT,

    I am so glad you were able to post something. I am glad the food basket helped you take the huge step to come out of bed for the first time. My heart is so broken for what you and your family has gone through. You, you family, and your angel will always be in my T&P.

    BFP #1: 10/17/08 EDD: 6/24/09-missed m/c; d&c on 12/8/08 BFP #2: 11/7/09 EDD: 7/15/10-Cabe born on 7/9/10 BFP #3: 10/7/11 EDD: 6/20/12 Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker Pregnancy Ticker A Butterfly lies beside us like a sunbeam and for a brief moment, its beauty and glory belong to our world. But then it flies on again. And though we wish it could have stayed we feel so lucky to have seen it. In loving memory of MrsTyson's precious Julia.
  • MrsT-

    Great big hugs to you, making it out of bed is an accomplishment in and of itself...

    Love Becky

  • Oh Mrs. T, it's so nice to see you.  Little steps are wonderful right now.  You are so very, very loved.  I hope you feel my love and prayers all the way from Oregon.

    ((((HUGS))))

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