Well, as my history dictates, nothing is ever black and white, nor easy.
After 48 hours on a rollercoaster... the ride has come to a complete stop.
Beta Wednesday was the most lame of numbers: 6.5. But had an elevated (for me) p4 of 15.5. I suspected it was around 12-13dpo. Late starter, slow grower... or just the booster?
Today's beta was 3.1, p4 8. I'm cramping and spotting.
At this point, I'm choosing to put my head in the sand, and say the betas picked up a trace of the booster ovidrel I did, a week and a half prior. I'm choosing this answer, because I don't have it in me to admit another pregnancy has failed. Anyone saying the number seven, will be shot, and I'll ask questions after.
I am angry.
I am sour.
And as much as I truely appreciate everyone's good wishes, huggz, and Teez&Peez that "next month is my month"... let's just skip that chit.
I'll happily accept a beverage of some sort, or a joke that'll make me chuckle. Or a horse, that I can get back on.
Davez and I are seriously considering an "IVF Vacation" in either Thailand, Prague or Panama this April. We're going to discuss this at length this weekend. We're OOP for 100% of everything at this point.
There's a pot of gold at the end of this rainbow somewhere...
and we all know you don't get rainbows without some rain.
Or a downpour.
Join us - Commit Random Acts of Kindness, and say
"I did it for Cricket"
Well shiit .. now I feel pressured to come up with something funny to make you laugh and I have nothing.
OK .. here goes:
Love ya T.
Wheee!
"When it comes to sleeping, whatever your baby does is normal. If one thing has damaged parents enjoyment of their babies, it's rigid expectations about how and when the baby should sleep." ~ James McKenna, Ph.D., Mother Baby Behavioral Sleep Center, University of Notre Dame
I've got a bottle of 14 year old irish whiskey that I brought home from Ireland that has been sitting around waiting for a moment to pour. This is that moment, pouring you a very large glass.
m/c August 2007 - Blighted Ovum
Sean - Our IUI/Injectable miracle born Oct. 5, 2008.
Liam - Our second miracle born July 16, 2010
::choke holds IF, throws on the ground and stomps on it:::
I won't say next time and I won't say look in the future. I am going to tell you to put your beautiful Ava to bed and get flat _ass drunk! You don't deserve this! FVCK IF and FVCK that monkey doctor!
Savannah .
Callista
Baby Trail Blog
"Someday we will look at our babies and know it will be worth it. If it was easy, we would not have had our babies, the babies we were meant to have." From Amy052006
Dx: PCOS/Amenorrhea/Anovulatory/lining problems.
Clomid = BFN's. Lots of cancelled cycles due to thin lining or cysts.
IUI#1= Follistim, estrace and endometrin = BFN
IUI#2= Repronex, follistim, viagra suppositories and endometrin= BFN.
IUI#3= Repronex, follistim, viagra suppositories, femtrace and endometrin= BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Isabella born in June via C-section!!!!! She is so incredible!
Went back to RE to TTC#2 and got a WONDERFUL surprise!! Baby #2 on their way!!
My Beautiful son Liam born Feb, 2011!!
TTC since 05
Dh diagnosed with azoospermia. Unsuccessful reconstructive surgery in 07-08.
IVF w/ ICSI #1: BFP! 1 strong heartbeat and 1 lost twin @ 2nd U/S...bittersweet
Dx: PCOS/Amenorrhea/Anovulatory/lining problems.
Clomid = BFN's. Lots of cancelled cycles due to thin lining or cysts.
IUI#1= Follistim, estrace and endometrin = BFN
IUI#2= Repronex, follistim, viagra suppositories and endometrin= BFN.
IUI#3= Repronex, follistim, viagra suppositories, femtrace and endometrin= BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Isabella born in June via C-section!!!!! She is so incredible!
Went back to RE to TTC#2 and got a WONDERFUL surprise!! Baby #2 on their way!!
My Beautiful son Liam born Feb, 2011!!
Wish I could think of a good joke, but it seems more appropriate to say I'm so sorry. The vacation sounds like a great idea. BTW, your siggy pic is priceless. Hang in there.
Re: Rain rain, go away.
F%$##.
I am so sorry.
I just made some guac and a beer would go perfect with it. So I am sending both your way!
This just sucks. I don't know what to say, but I will ask Barback to start serving up the booze.
I'm sorry.
I'll send you a vanilla and Coke!!!
Married 8.13.2005, M/C 12/8/06- 5 weeks, M/C 2/27/07- 7 weeks, M/C w/ D&C 8/10/09-6.5 weeks *Charles Lawrence born 5/2/08 @ 3:14am, 7lb 8oz, 20.5 inches. Clomid, Crinone and baby aspirin. *Alexandra Claire born 9/14/10 @ 9:52am 6lb 14oz, 20.5 inches. Femara, Crinone and baby aspirin.
i'm sorry.
i've got some of DH's homebrews in the fridge. you are more than welcome to a bunch.
(((((hugs))))
A horse walks into a bar and the bartender says, "he buddy, why such the long face?"
Get it? Okay, lame a$$ attempt at a joke. Start pouring the drinks. Maybe I'll be funnier then.
Sorry this is happening.
Well shiit .. now I feel pressured to come up with something funny to make you laugh and I have nothing.
OK .. here goes:
Love ya T.
"When it comes to sleeping, whatever your baby does is normal. If one thing has damaged parents enjoyment of their babies, it's rigid expectations about how and when the baby should sleep." ~ James McKenna, Ph.D., Mother Baby Behavioral Sleep Center, University of Notre Dame
I'm sorry. It just f-ing sucks!
Pouring a round of shots for anyone that wants to join....getting started early on this Friday afternoon.
Clomid M/C 8 weeks 2/08 *IVF #1-DD born 3/09
*Surprise BFP-T18 baby lost at 13w 1/10 *FET #1-DS born 2/11
That's hot.
sending you a variety of drinks and a tropical island on which to drink them.
HUGS sweetie.... that sucks...
I've got a bottle of 14 year old irish whiskey that I brought home from Ireland that has been sitting around waiting for a moment to pour. This is that moment, pouring you a very large glass.
m/c August 2007 - Blighted Ovum
Sean - Our IUI/Injectable miracle born Oct. 5, 2008.
Liam - Our second miracle born July 16, 2010
I've got two spoonz.
NO HUGS AND SAD FACES PLEASE!!
:::::::gulps down all the drinkies and wipes mouth:::::
Feeling better already. LucyPee... you bumped it up a notch. Rock on.
Barback - turn on the deep fryer and get out the mozz sticks...
We's having a Friday Happy Hour !!!
Drinks on Doc Monkey (I lifted his credit card when he was looking at himself in the mirror a couple cycles back....)
I'm all over happy hour! Can Barback also throw some jalepeno poppers in to that bad boy??
That's all I've got now. Hugs and good thoughts will have to wait.
I'm so sorry.
Our Thanksgiving Day baby 11/22/07
Pregnant with #2 with LPD, uterine polyp/hysteroscopy, DOR (AMH = 0.17), 2 c/ps
Our early Christmas present 12/9/10
Fist off I think Ava is crying because of the thinG in her hair!!!!!!!!
EFFinG suX....someone must want you on a pLane!!!!! StaRt pLannin!!!!!
ps I'll still take AVA!
droP her on the WaY oVa!!!!!!!!
FVCKKKK UUUUUUU IF!!!!
::choke holds IF, throws on the ground and stomps on it:::
I won't say next time and I won't say look in the future. I am going to tell you to put your beautiful Ava to bed and get flat _ass drunk! You don't deserve this! FVCK IF and FVCK that monkey doctor!
Savannah
.
Callista
Baby Trail Blog
"Someday we will look at our babies and know it will be worth it. If it was easy, we would not have had our babies, the babies we were meant to have." From Amy052006
sucksdonkeyballs!
(I'm sorry)
get pissed bombed and plan your IVF holiday. thailand would be A.W.E.S.O.M.E!
(oh poop.)
2 infertiles' journey to 2 pink lines (and a baby girl)
"our IF story"
Fuuck that, T! Just fuuck that! I am so fuucking pissed. I want to kick your ovaries around a bit. Show 'em who's boss. FFFFFFUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKK!
PS - Did I use the F-word enough!?
Damn. That just sucks.
I'm raising a shot glass of tequila to you.
Barback's brudder, Bareback, and a horse.
Niiiiiice. ;-)
Damn. Feck infertility.
You order whatever you want from the bar and I'm paying.
Seriously???
Gawd.....this sucks. I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say.
Hunker down and have a nice bottle of wine tonight and get your favorite carry-out.
I'm thinking of you......
Actually, now that you mention it, this is the picture I would have liked to have used...(remove the <<<s)
https://rodo<nline.typep<ad.com/ro<donline/images/2007/05/09/chad<horse.jpg
my friend sent me this... funny but also disturbing lol.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auSqLs8PpeY&feature=youtube_gdata
Because we're fancy like that.
Crap.
The tab is on me tonight.
TTC #1: IUI #2 = BFP , Betas 550 (16 dpiui), 1523 (18 dpiui)
Hypothyroid, LPD, FSH 13.0, TTC 2 yrs B4 BFP
TTC #2: FSH 23, AMA, IUI 1, 2, 3 = BFN, IVF #1 = MC
IVF #2 = BFP - Betas 194 (14dp2dt), 366 (16 dp2dt), 841 (18 dp2dt)
(vanished twin ~7 weeks)
Crap.
I'm an accountant...so generally not funny. This is one of the few jokes I know........
What do you call a cow with 3 legs?
Lean beef.
Sorry Davez :-(
Adorable pic of Ava though, I am still super jealous of your photog skillz. :-)