I'm still reeling from the news from the embryologist this morning (f/u fert report basically said that embryos weren't progressing and that transfer tomorrow would likely be cancelled). DH and I talked about options this morning, and we seemed to agree that sperm donor was our preferred next step (assuming that IVF w/ ICSI round 2 wouldn't make sense). Then, we spent the rest of the afternoon avoiding the topic and instead with to a dog show... nice distraction for the day.
When we got home, my dad called to see how the whole process was going. The tears just came flooding out. I'm mad that it isn't working. I'm mad that DH's morphology is 0%. I'm mad that research scientists haven't found a way to fix male infertility. I'm mad that my mom is too far gone with alzheimer's to be able to talk to me about this. I'm mad that even though my ET will likely be cancelled tomorrow, I still had to give myself a PIO shot in the a$$ just in case... sigh...
Thank you to all of you for your messages of support... especially to those who gave me guidance on donor sperm (you know who you are!!).
DH and I talked a bit more tonight about it. We have decided to talk to his urologist and his other doctor (DH has a long-term condition that requires daily medication. Medication isn't known to have any side effects on male fertility, but doctor said that we can go off the medication for three months to see if there is an improvement).
I'm guessing that we wouldn't be able to start another round of IVF for at least two months in order to give my body time to cycle and heal, so we'll use that time to research donor sperm programs and process and seeing if his SA results improve. If his morphology improves, we'll go for the IVF w ICSI again. If it doesn't, we'll be searching through profiles of handsome, educated men of spanish descent with dark hair and dark eyes. Thanks for listening.
Re: Come Join My Pity Party
I am so sorry you are dealing with all of this. IF sucks. And, I hate that your mom can't be there for you right now.
I'm thinking about you.
(((HUGS)))
"God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength, but with the testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it" 1 Corinthians 10:13I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. Feel free to vent away and we are all here for you
((hugs))
I'm sorry that you're going through this, and that your mom can't help you right now. I am glad that you can talk to your father.
Many hugs your way.
This whole thing sucks and I'm sorry you're having to deal with it all.
I'm still hoping you get some good news tomorrow ((hugs))