I have read your posts, ladies. It seems my kind of IF is different than most of yours. I will never have a BFP. So can I take a minute to explain my IF?
When I was sixteen, I went to the doctor because I had not had a period yet. That's right, sixteen and no period.
After many blood tests, examinations, MRIs and a sonogram, we found out I had no cervix, uterus or ovaries. My vaginal length was the same as a 2 year old females.
I had a blood test to find out if I was genetically male or female. I was SO embarrassed! BTW, I'm female I have the blood tests to prove it.
I had surgery to remove tissue that was probably the start of ovaries forming. They had stopped and then dropped. Had they been left, they would have turned cancerous later.
I also had to use dilators to increase vaginal length. If I hadn't, then I would have not had much of a sex life I was actually told that I would never orgasm!
I have been through hell and back with this. After a couple of years, I was even given a name for my diagnosis: Mayer Rokitansky Kuster Hauser Syndrome, or MRKH.
I know that I'll have to adopt. Science hasn't come far enough for me to have surgery with an artificial reproductive system.
And my vaginal length, I'm happy to say, is smaller than most, but more normal They thought I'd have to have a skin graft from my knee to almost my hip in order to create vaginal length.
I also have to take hormone pills to regulate my hormones, which caused me to go from 100% flat chested to a large B-small C cup in a very small amount of time. I also have breast pain constantly, even though we've changed the meds and dosages many times. It is so bad at times I can't even stand being hugged.
And that's my story I was once so sad and depressed I wanted to kill myself but after a lot of soul searching and praying, I'm here today and stronger than ever!
I just wanted to share my story with you ladies. Like I said, I'll never be pregnant. I know this And it sucks!
But, ya know, I don't get a period....so NA NA NA NA NA NA!
Seriously, tho? I'd like to experience that Just once...
My story is actually a lot more complicated, but that's the short version. Please, if you have any questions, PM me.