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I feel like giving up....

ktwilleyktwilley member
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I just had my first Beta draw for what I think is my 24th cycle of TTC. I don't know if I can take another BFN. I know that I should be thinking positively, and I usually do, but this time for some reason I'm just so negative. Maybe it's the IF drugs??? Any one else ever felt like this, and if so, how did you get past it?
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  • mrslovebugmrslovebug
    I agree.  I think it is the IF drugs because sometimes I just feel so emotional.  I am usually a very positive person, but then again, IF is a very stressful and emotional thing to be going through.  I hope you feel better and hope you get a BFP soon!
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  • AuburnBride06AuburnBride06

    It's normal to feel negative. And I think it can sometimes even be healthy. I think it is part of the "grieving" process of IF. Being negative sometimes allows you to mourn the fact that you can't just walk by your husband and get pregnant. When something happens repeatedly, be it a BFN, a loss, whatever, it gets really hard to stay positive all the time, as it seems history repeats itself and makes you feel more and more discouraged and hopeless. I think it would be "not normal" to never get negative...probably be some serious repressed emotions going on.And all the hormonal shifts due to the meds definitely do not help.

    The important thing is that you realize it and at least want to be positive, at least that's how I look at it. For me, my negative days just push me further into the darkness, the bitterness, the anger. I don't like the person I am during those times, and neither does my DH. So I just pull myself together and tell myself that I will beat this, it is just a matter of when. You could alter the mantra I have in my siggy. Say to yourself, "my desire to have a child is greater than my fear of another BFN".

    {{{HUGS}}}

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  • mrslovebugmrslovebug
    imageAuburnBride06:

    It's normal to feel negative. And I think it can sometimes even be healthy. I think it is part of the "grieving" process of IF. Being negative sometimes allows you to mourn the fact that you can't just walk by your husband and get pregnant. When something happens repeatedly, be it a BFN, a loss, whatever, it gets really hard to stay positive all the time, as it seems history repeats itself and makes you feel more and more discouraged and hopeless. I think it would be "not normal" to never get negative...probably be some serious repressed emotions going on.And all the hormonal shifts due to the meds definitely do not help.

    The important thing is that you realize it and at least want to be positive, at least that's how I look at it. For me, my negative days just push me further into the darkness, the bitterness, the anger. I don't like the person I am during those times, and neither does my DH. So I just pull myself together and tell myself that I will beat this, it is just a matter of when. You could alter the mantra I have in my siggy. Say to yourself, "my desire to have a child is greater than my fear of another BFN".

    {{{HUGS}}}

    Auburn, I love your mantra.  What a great way to stay positive!

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  • BenandDinaBenandDina
    Definitely have felt this way, but the important thing is not to ignore or avoid these feelings, just to let yourself experience them and at the same time, to focus on the possibilities and hope and also to praise yourself for your courage and strength to this journey.  And, seek a ton of support - we're all here for you!
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