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LCB34 · October 2009

Here we go:

I have a coworker that I cannot stand. I created fake meetings on my calendar for today b/c this coworker wants to set up a meeting with me but I just don't have the patience for him right now.

Tarahville · October 2009

In regards to looking 6 months pregnant - I stood in the mirror and smiled at the thought of actually getting there! It gave me goose bumps just thinking about it.

I'm breaking out like a teenage boy. I've never broke out like this when I've done stimms. They are every where - arms, legs, face and chest.

LCB - you crack my sh!t up!!!

LCB34 · October 2009

Tarahville:

I'm breaking out like a teenage boy. I've never broke out like this when I've done stimms. They are every where - arms, legs, face and chest.

I am covered in pimples - I am assuming it is the BCP. But seriously, the worst acne I have ever had. It is driving me crazy.

Hope40b · October 2009

I have a friend/coworker who told me 3 weeks ago that she is pregnant, and I have not brought up the pregnancy to her once since that day. I am really her only friend, and her husband is an a$$ who lives across the country, and her mom died 2 years ago, but I just can not bring myself to acknolwedge the pregnancy. She just got married in July, was not even trying when she got pregnant on the one weekend she went to visit him, has PCOS, and is turning 40 next month. I just can't deal with it.

Spartygirl14 · October 2009

Alright...I see a picture of my ex-boyfriend every so often on these boards. He's married to someone who posts on the boards. I dated him 10 years ago for like 3 months, but it was a little shocking to see his picture!

negrilbride07 · October 2009

I'm unable to muster up excitement over this cycle. My beta is next week and I feel very blah about it. I hate that IF steals my joy!

2becomes3 · October 2009

I confess that I signed up last year for a market research company in our area that sends out surveys randomly and then signs people up to test products (food, toiletries, etc). It's fun to do in my spare time, and you get paid!

My actual confession is that right now, the study I'm participating in is for...... vibrators Embarrassed

They gave me 2 of them, that I get to keep (um, gee thanks...glad you don't want them back!). I am to try them both twice and answer surveys about them. I'll get $40 for the surveys, and another $100 to participate in a 2hr focus group with the other women. Should be interesting to see the other women in there! What if I know someone!!! Ahhh!

Not bad for a part time job Wink

BenandDina · October 2009

Yikes...Spartygirl, that's scary! Small world.

I am super-annoyed at DH this morning. He peed all over the toilet seat and didn't clean it up, and then, I sat in his pee when I went into the master bathroom. Of course instead of discussing it like a rational human being and saying, "Honey, could you please wipe the seat when you sprinkle?" I went all passive-aggressive on him through breakfast.

gringa78 · October 2009

A friend of mine who has been very supportive through my IF process emailed me yesterday to tell me she's KU with #3. I wrote back with my congratulations but didn't ask her any questions re: due date, etc. I've decided that people can have their happiness all on their own without me having to contribute to it.

LCB34 · October 2009

I don't respond to posts that are from people who have never posted here before and are in a 2WW (specifically an IVF 2WW). I know it is rude and caddy of me - but it just seems like they are wanting cheerleaders to say things like "I just know this is it for you!" I don't know them so I have a hard time cheering them on.

princess48533 · October 2009

I have been debating all morning going to McDonalds for lunch instead of eating my Lean Cuisine. I have just been craving a cheeseburger and fries.

I'll only get a happy meal I swears Embarrassed

madelyn07 · October 2009

I'd give anything right now to be at work in sweats and a sweatshirt.

Normally I enjoy dressing up but for the past few weeks, everyday I dream about wearing comfy clothes to work. I think it is b/c my DH's team has early morning work outs so he goes to work in gym shorts/sweatshirt and I see that and get jealous.

Last night when I was in bed, right before he came to bed, he brought me a ton of new clothes that he got through work...shorts, tees, sports bras, long sleeved tees...that makes having to get dressed up in work clothes even harder!

svp1537 · October 2009

I work from home and have a pretty flexible schedule bc I am self employed, blah, blah, blah... my bf just found out she was pregnant last week, and since then I have been so busy with work, and working late, my life has just been crazy Wink

Yellow_Daisy · October 2009

I should be working but instead I am posting a confession about not working! He he!

It is 8:24am and I am already telling myself I don't need to go to the gym tonight because it is so rainy and cold outside, what that has to do with going to the gym I couldn't tell you. My fat @ss really needs me to go to the gym Big Smile .

RFBsbride · October 2009

Speaking of ex-boyfriends.... my ex is about to go to prison for 7 years for having an affair with two of his students last year. I'm still friends with the person that got the two of us together in the first place and I can't help but to ask him every time I talk to him how my ex is doing. I'm like obsessed with following the story online and knowing every detail. I mean, I was with this guy for 4 years. I thought for sure I was going to marry him, but we ended up going our separate ways. He got married and had 3 kids before having these torrid affairs and now every time I see his mug shot on the news or in an article, I get shivers. I feel so bad for his wife and especially his kids....and the fact that he got to have kids and I can't!!!

AlissaCell701 · October 2009

My tush is super itchy from my progestrone shots and it is driving me crazy while I am at work...

I also have done nothing this AM..It is terrible but I don't really feel guilty..

mikiesgirl70106 · October 2009

I have a co-worker that I can't stand either... So what I would like to do is go cough all over her things and give her my cold... But then that would end up causing me more work so I won't be doing that...

madelyn07 · October 2009

My appetite has been insane lately! I just can't get enough to eat.

I had cereal for breakfast this morning and right now I'm enjoying a Nutrigrain bar...and I can't wait until lunch time!

theworms · October 2009

madelyn07:

My appetite has been insane lately! I just can't get enough to eat.

ditto this

my ticker is a lie and I don't want to fix it but I will - I have gained 5lbs. since vacation and all i want to do is eat everything i see

LCB34 · October 2009

I am ditching my lean cuisine for a nice, big, taco salad for lunch!

AuburnBride06 · October 2009

I am grumpy, pretty much all the time while I'm at work. And I really don't care. It's not that I don't like my job, I do. But I can't stand my coworker and I don't do well with stupid questions. I want to be left alone, to do my job, without people bothering me.

It bugs me when people take IVF so lightly or "jump to it" (for lack of a better phrase). Especially when they have the funds to do it, without going into debt. Why? Because we could never, ever afford it. Loan or otherwise. And we may actually need it to have a live baby. But it could never be an option for us. (This in no way refers to ladies who need IVF or who have been at this whole IF bullshit forever...) An acquaintance of ours, when they found out what we have gone through, told us her sister tried for a year and finally decided to go right to IVF because they "waited so long". Yea.

I get sick of my SAHM friend saying how hard being a SAHM is. it's the "hardest job ever". Shut the F up and give me a break already. You dont even have to take a shower or leave your house, AND you get your baby.

Im not in a good mood today. Or yesterday for that matter. I just want to go home and clean our house and get ready for BIL and his girlfriend to come. On the bright side....I have another 4 day week, just like last week. I am taking this friday off as well as last friday. Big Smile

I am very, very scared to cycle again. I am very, very excited at the same time. I just don't want another loss. Today, I dont know how much more my heart can handle. I'll take a BFN, just not another loss, please.

LCB34 · October 2009

AuburnBride06:

It bugs me when people take IVF so lightly or "jump to it" (for lack of a better phrase). This bugs me too. I feel that sometimes people jump to IVF and skip IUIs b/c they don't want to wait any longer to have a baby. I didn't want to wait either but I didn't want to put my body through anymore than I needed to. IUIs do work - and I think this is often forgotten.

Especially when they have the funds to do it, without going into debt. I feel so depressed reading about people who have to wait so long to save money for IVF. It makes me feel bad that DH and I can pay cash. I literally feel guilty - like almost want to vom everywhere guilty.

2becomes3 · October 2009

I give the side eye to people that have "post wars" to up their post count. Just...why?

LCB34 · October 2009

It drives me crazy that so many people want to have a lap b/c they think they *may* have endo.

Why would you want surgery to look for something that you have no symptoms of? Also, if your RE hasn?t suggested it chances are you don?t need it. They are doctors and typically know when someone needs surgery.

Drives. me. insane.

mrslovebug · October 2009

I seriously slept for 12 hours last night, woke up once due to a clomid hot flash, and went back to bed. Then I overslept this morning. I wish I was still home.

theworms · October 2009

2becomes3:
I give the side eye to people that have "post wars" to up their post count. Just...why?

It is my way for getting back at the nest gods for all the stupid ***! they do. When they switched formats I lost all my posts (about a year and 1/2 worth) and had to start as a newbie when I should have been silver, I just want to get back to where I was. It is dumb but I want to be gold already.

k827 · October 2009

I told H that my hyster. and biop were really really bad this morning. For real the biop was terriable..put I totally played it up to be much much worse....I told him it was the worst part yet..(even though my hsg was pretty bad). Hes feeling really bad for me right now and I LOVE it...im officially evil.

AuburnBride06 · October 2009

LCB34:
AuburnBride06:

It bugs me when people take IVF so lightly or "jump to it" (for lack of a better phrase). This bugs me too. I feel that sometimes people jump to IVF and skip IUIs b/c they don't want to wait any longer to have a baby. I didn't want to wait either but I didn't want to put my body through anymore than I needed to. IUIs do work - and I think this is often forgotten.

Especially when they have the funds to do it, without going into debt. I feel so depressed reading about people who have to wait so long to save money for IVF. It makes me feel bad that DH and I can pay cash. I literally feel guilty - like almost want to vom everywhere guilty.

Don't feel bad!! You are so sweet and work really hard---therefore you totally deserve it!!! Smile

AuburnBride06 · October 2009

LCB34:
It drives me crazy that so many people want to have a lap b/c they think they *may* have endo.

Why would you want surgery to look for something that you have no symptoms of? Also, if your RE hasn?t suggested it chances are you don?t need it. They are doctors and typically know when someone needs surgery.

Drives. me. insane.

We think a lot alike! This bugs me too. I think sometimes, people can go from being their own advocate (which is wonderful!) to crossing over to playing the doctor. There IS a reason they went to school for so long! Wink

sliz · October 2009

LCB34:
AuburnBride06:

It bugs me when people take IVF so lightly or "jump to it" (for lack of a better phrase). This bugs me too. I feel that sometimes people jump to IVF and skip IUIs b/c they don't want to wait any longer to have a baby. I didn't want to wait either but I didn't want to put my body through anymore than I needed to. IUIs do work - and I think this is often forgotten.

Especially when they have the funds to do it, without going into debt. I feel so depressed reading about people who have to wait so long to save money for IVF. It makes me feel bad that DH and I can pay cash. I literally feel guilty - like almost want to vom everywhere guilty.

I think I am this person -

itsmyangel · October 2009

I know I'm late on posting here....but my confession for today is that we're not supposed to be spending any money but i foundsome cash in my wallet that i SHOULD have put in our account....but i went to mcdonalds for breakfast and subway for lunch instead......grr why can't i save money

OH yeah and i got called from the credit agency on my miscarriage bills today which totally pissed me off....i'm like "i'm sorry but i wil have it paid off....this if and misscarriage bills are killing me and we still have no baby to show for it....grr"

AuburnBride06 · October 2009

sliz:
LCB34:
AuburnBride06:

It bugs me when people take IVF so lightly or "jump to it" (for lack of a better phrase). This bugs me too. I feel that sometimes people jump to IVF and skip IUIs b/c they don't want to wait any longer to have a baby. I didn't want to wait either but I didn't want to put my body through anymore than I needed to. IUIs do work - and I think this is often forgotten.

Especially when they have the funds to do it, without going into debt. I feel so depressed reading about people who have to wait so long to save money for IVF. It makes me feel bad that DH and I can pay cash. I literally feel guilty - like almost want to vom everywhere guilty.

I think I am this person -

Oh no sweety, I wasn't referring to you. You've tried treatments that worked in the past and now haven't since you lost the babies. I don't blame you, if we had the $$$, we would have asked to do IVF a long time ago. The lady I was referring to tried naturally for a year and then found a dr. who would go straight to IVF, which I find incredibly bizarre. But I guess if I doctor will transfer 5-6 embryos they will let someone do IVF without any kind of prior Tx history.

sliz · October 2009

the NY times article yesterday really pissed me off on the risks of twin IF babies...if IVF/infertility coverage were universal then more couples would consider single embryo transfers and be willing to cancel risky cycles.....

I don't smoke - but i have to pay for the health problems of smokers

I don't drink - but i have to pay for drunks

i don't do drugs but if someone od's and ends up in the ER - i have to pay for that...

I'm not obese and chose to control my weight with diet & exercise - but i have to pay for people that choose to live a poor lifestyle and don't take responsibility for themselves..

we have to pay for all the welfare moms that have 10 kids by 10 different baby daddies...and i am pretty sure there are more premies out there born to junkies/teens etc that don't take care of their pregnancies than there are for educated women pursuing IF treatments - yet WE get nailed to the wall....if they are going to crucify us for responsibly wanting to have our children and want to regulate our access to IF treatment then there should be forced birth control for women who have multiple children and can't afford them....

sliz · October 2009

AuburnBride06:
sliz:
LCB34:
AuburnBride06:

It bugs me when people take IVF so lightly or "jump to it" (for lack of a better phrase). This bugs me too. I feel that sometimes people jump to IVF and skip IUIs b/c they don't want to wait any longer to have a baby. I didn't want to wait either but I didn't want to put my body through anymore than I needed to. IUIs do work - and I think this is often forgotten.

Especially when they have the funds to do it, without going into debt. I feel so depressed reading about people who have to wait so long to save money for IVF. It makes me feel bad that DH and I can pay cash. I literally feel guilty - like almost want to vom everywhere guilty.

I think I am this person -

Oh no sweety, I wasn't referring to you. You've tried treatments that worked in the past and now haven't since you lost the babies. I don't blame you, if we had the $$$, we would have asked to do IVF a long time ago. The lady I was referring to tried naturally for a year and then found a dr. who would go straight to IVF, which I find incredibly bizarre. But I guess if I doctor will transfer 5-6 embryos they will let someone do IVF without any kind of prior Tx history.

thanks - i know we are moving quickly but we have no IUI coverage so IVF is more cost-effective. Plus since we got pg with TI once before and DH has great sperm, an IUI would likely be burning money (whatever the problem is, iui probably won't fix it). I guess we could try a few more TI cycles - but it was either IVF now or probably IVF early next year anyway.

I do feel a little guilty for being able to pay out of pocket....i do not like that our savings will take such a ding - but on the other hand, there are other things that we do not have that let us be able to afford this - we don't go on expensive vacations (or really any vacations), I don't shop much, we don't have a big flat screen tv, I don't do manis/pedis/hair, we drive certified used cars (and we only bought the second when we thought we were having twins), we didn't even buy any furniture after moving into our new house (it was all hand me down or our grad school stuff), I wanted to make some changes to our house like put in granite countertops and i've put all of that off too...it sucs that we are putting everything off for children, but that is the most important thing for us...

MrsWoobie0328 · October 2009

k827:
I told H that my hyster. and biop were really really bad this morning. For real the biop was terriable..put I totally played it up to be much much worse....I told him it was the worst part yet..(even though my hsg was pretty bad). Hes feeling really bad for me right now and I LOVE it...im officially evil.

HA! I was the EXACT same way yesterday when I had my HSG. It was definitely painful, but I also took advantage of DH waiting on me hand and foot all day, when I really was feeling much better within a few hours...OOPS Wink

kjcullen · October 2009

I feel very disconnected from the thought of having a baby. I just can't imagine it. Sometimes it seems weird that that is the goal of all these treatments. It doesn't seem real.

Babies are something that happens to everybody else... I don't let my mind go there to protect myself

LCB34 · October 2009

I want to put a sticky post on the top of our board that reads:

"It takes about 36-48 hours to ovulate after you give yourself a trigger shot. Approximately 96% of women who get this shot ovulate. You may not see a temp shift - that is normal - throw away your BBT. It can take anywhere from 9-12+ days for the trigger to leave your system. Thanks and have a great day!"

sweetcaroline10 · October 2009

I was going to test before my beta tomorrow morning, but just read a story about someone who tested before the beta, got a +, and beta was a low number, it was a chemical pregnancy. Now I am terrified of testing beforehand.

LakeGenevaBride · October 2009

1. I have a coworker who just had a baby and I didn't even sign the congrats card from the department. In my defense, she started this job 10 months ago and from day 1 was like "we are going to try and start a family next month" and BAM, she's pregnant one month after starting a new job.

2. I laughed when I found out she didn't qualify for FMLA (you have to be at your job for a year).

2becomes3 · October 2009

theworms:

2becomes3:
I give the side eye to people that have "post wars" to up their post count. Just...why?

It is my way for getting back at the nest gods for all the stupid ***! they do. When they switched formats I lost all my posts (about a year and 1/2 worth) and had to start as a newbie when I should have been silver, I just want to get back to where I was. It is dumb but I want to be gold already.

fwiw, i never even notice anyone's status. we'll all love you just the same no matter what color you are!

sliz · October 2009

most of saif bugs me now....they are all about them and their babies - esp if they have had them already.....if I post on there with a q about treatments, dx or ivf, I rarely get a response - or it's just one or two people that respond...

they actually bug me more than fertile people....esp since some of the people on here cheered them on throughout.....

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