Please excuse my Debbie Downer vent...
We came back from vacation on Saturday night. In general, it was a pretty fun trip except:
Lainie was covered in what we thought were bug bites. She didn't seem to mind them, probably because she was in our pool from morning until night. But when we came home they were worse. Went to the pedi yesterday and those bug bites are actually chicken pox. My poor girl! She is covered not only with pox, but also with bug bites which have caused another reactionary skin condition that is painful. Just to make it better, she is at the start of an ear infection and has a possible UTI, probably from the pool. She is feeling awful to say the least.
While we were gone, the BIL of one of my BFFs passed away. She had just flown to Maui and got the news when they landed so they flew back home. I know the whole family and was so sad to hear that I missed the memorial services. He was 49 years old, had a massive heart attack several weeks back, and leaves behind three kids under 18.
While we were away, the father of another BFF was hospitalized three different times. He is back in as of yesterday and not expected to make it.
And because all of this isn't enough to digest...I had a miscarriage while we were in Mexico. It was very early on and I knew it was coming, but to say I am heartbroken is a complete and total understatement. I conceived once again through IUI, and it was our last chance.
To have all of this going on right now, with the anniversary of Audrey's passing coming this week, is just completely overwhelming.
Thanks for letting me get all of this off my chest. I know I am strong enough to get through it, but it sure helps to know I have all of you here to help me along the way. I am grateful beyond words for your support and friendship.
Lara
Re: When it rains, it pours (long)
(big hugs) to you and Lainie.
We are all here for you, Lara. I can't even imagine how you must feel. My thoughts have been and will continue to be with you and your family.
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Lara, I am so so so sorry for all that you and your family are going through right now. It just isn't fair. I'm so sorry
Big hugs to you...you will all be in my daily thoughts. 
Also, I'm actually planning to be with a friend at the zoo and/or FTT on Friday...if I remember correctly, Audrey has a brick there, right? I'd love it if you'd PM or email me direction how to find it so I could see it and pay my respects to your sweet little angel. Big hugs!!
Huge hugs Lara. I can not even fathom what you are going through. I'm so so sorry for your losses. I hope Lanie is on the mend soon and that life cuts you a break...you deserve some happiness.
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I wish I could help make things hurt less. I'm sending you my love.
Rox
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