I got a little perspective and I am going to try to change my attitude.

MrsEzStar · October 2009

Yesterday I was such a dark place and I felt so sorry for myself. I'm tired of being angry. So Today I'm going to try to make a list of what I am thankful for. I'm going to try to focus on it all day. I don't know if this is going to help, but we'll see. I feel better just thinking about doing it. I know that I have been blessed in so many other ways. I realize everyone has their struggles in life and this one is mine.

Yesterday when I was at work, I was sitting feeling sorry for myself. My coworker (who is 5 months pregnant) sits right next to me and of course I was feeling jealous of her. She is super cute and seems to have this perfect life. We started talking and all of a sudden she was telling about how she had uterine cancer before and how she never thought she would be able to have kids and how this is her miracle baby. Then she told me about how the cancer has come back and how they are proabably going to have to remove her uterus as soon as the baby is born. I know she is scared and wondering if this going to affect her baby or her ability to raise him.

It made me realize that I can't be mad at God. We all have different struggles put in front of us and I need to get through mine, just like everyone else needs to get through theirs. So today I am going to focus the good things in my life. I'm going to make a list continually through the day in my downtime of how I am blessed.

I'll let you know if this helps.

someflower6 · October 2009

this is really an amazing post. i think sometimes it's ok to feel a little sorry for oneself... i mean, bad things happen and it sucks. wallowing is a part of the grieving process. but i also love what you say about wanting to move on and just be thankful for what's going right in your life. it's so easy to loose sight of that. and it's also easy to loose sight of the fact that life is hard for EVERYONE. i know i'm guilty of the whole "why did this happen to ME" kind of thing, and i completely forget about all the bad things that haven't happened to me... but very well could have, as they happen to other people all the time.

this is definitely a trying time for you, and it's ok if you can't always look on the bright side. but your attitude is inspiring, and i know as you grow from this and move on, your blessings will multiple.

LuckyH · October 2009

This is so true. You never know what is going on in someone's life. It's nice to have things put into perspective.

roxyttandme · October 2009

Thank you for posting this. Although it is hard to sometimes think of... there is always someone out there that has had it worse. There are always thing to be grateful for.