I have been on here posting...I guess you guys may not know me too well. I started on the mc board back in late feb/march after my mc on the 26th of Feb. (I don't think I'll ever forget that date) Then migrated over here when I felt ready to try again. I'm definitely a lurker, but I post on and off. The last time I posted a lot was back in May or so and left the board for awhile because I felt like I was doing "okay."
So now I am back because I basically had a breakdown a few weeks ago when I found out my little sis is pregnant. It's not that I am not happy for her, but with me inching closer to what my due date would have been (Oct 23, won't forget that one either) I am growing more anxious as I see people "pass me by." Its frustrating the conflicting emotions I am having with my sis. I want to be happy, because she inevitably will have my niece/nephew and I will love him. But I get so upset because I want to be pregnant/have a baby so badly....
So anyway...I'm back.
Re: So I guess you gals may not know...
I remember you. And I love your siggy pic. Im sorry you are going through all this right now. I hope you get pg soon, and can have a DC very close to age as your niece/nephew.
-m/c at 11w2d due to partial molar 2008 -m/c #2 2009
Beautiful daughter born February 2011
**Ultimate TTCALer 2009**
Welcome back here
Hope your stay is short and sweet!
It sucks when close family/friends are pregnant, and you're not. Salt in a wound.
And I like your siggy pic, it's cute!
I'm sorry for your loss as well - I had my first m/c right around the same time as yours - mine was March 6th and my due date was Oct 19th. I've since had another loss (end of July). My sister is pregnant with twins and will likely deliver on or around my original due date. She's due Nov 10th, but they'll want her to deliver by 38 weeks.
Honestly, I don't know what to tell you about your sis. I'm over the moon delighted for my sis, but it really hurts at the same time. I'm always going to look at her boys and think that we were so close to having wee ones about the same age. And coming up on my due date, well, it just hurts more. I thought for *sure* I'd be pregnant again by now - and I was - but it didn't last. I just don't understand it. And I don't feel like the people around me understand it either.
Sorry to spit this all out on your thread, I just really feel like I understand where you're coming from.
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This is exactly how I feel. I just went through the same thing with my sister. (see sig)