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Did I really manage to forget?

GinaincaliGinaincali member
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Last night my husband and I got into a tiff.  It started off really stupid...believe it or not but it started off about Jon and Kate.  I'm a huge Kate fan especially now that Jon is running around like a little child, and well Bryan sees Jon's side.  So we disagreed about that.  Then last night at bed time he wanted me to cuddle with him before bed but I didn't want to.  So then we got into another tiff about me not cooking dinner the night before.  So silly these little arguements of ours.

Well in the midst of our arguement I am messing with the dresser drawer and open it and BAM there is Bryanna's box that has all her pictures, her little outfit that she wore in the hospital and her ashes.  And as soon as I saw it I could have fallen to my knees!  It knocked the wind out of me.  I started crying harder because my daughter was in a drawer!  I know she's in there!  I put her there because it was too hard for Bryan to see the box there!  How in the world did I forget!   

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  • Mrs.EmmaLouiseMrs.EmmaLouise member

    It always hits at the most random of times, doesnt it?  Im sorry you had a rough night  ((HUGS))

    p.s.- I love kate.

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  • Scout05Scout05 member
    I'm so sorry, how awful for you to be slapped in the face with that. Hugs.
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  • vkbaby09vkbaby09

    I'm so sorry that happened and you've been having a rough time.  I think it's just too hard to constantly consciously think about our babies that aren't with us anymore, so we push even something like where their remains are to the back of our head.  I think it's totally normal.  Sometimes when I go into the room that was to be Colin and Ian's nursery and has all their "stuff" including their ashes, it hits me like what happened with you and Bryanna's drawer. 

     There's also never going to be a good enough place to have their remains imo.  They should be alive and with us...

    (((big hugs)))

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  • grr_aarghgrr_aargh member

    I'm sorry.  That's really hard - especially in the middle of an argument.

    Hugs.

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  • travers081906travers081906
    I'm so sorry... ((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))
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  • goruncolegoruncole

    ((((Hugs))).   My heart broke in a million pieces when I read your post and how true it is.  Many, many hugs to you.

    Missing all our angels today and always, 

    Nicole

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