I really did. I've been really OK yesterday and especially today. But then my brother just found out that they're having a boy - the u/s was today. And I'm sad all over again.

Anyways, I can't talk about it with my family, because I told them, and I really do mean it, that I want to hear about everything with SIL's pg, because I'm really happy for her!! But on my own, in this quiet moment, I'm really sad.
Re: Thought I was doing better...
I know exactly how you feel! I went through this a few months ago w/my SIL. I had an ectopic and then not even a month later she announced at a family party that she was 5 weeks pg (w/baby #2!). I was so excited for her but it brought back all of my feelings again all at once.
It's not easy but you already know you are strong and can work through it!! Hang in there!