I totally made some dramz on FB regarding the MIL last night...I'm so sick of the b!tch calling my son "my boy, aren't you MY boy," so I decided to make a status update regarding it. Was NOT well recieved by DH. He asked me to delete it. Doesn't change the fact that I hate MIL and will do everything I can to keep her from seeing DS, and will try my best to make sure she NEVER sees him when I am not present.
She was a shitty grandparent to her first grandchild and I can't understand why she is suddenly trying so hard with my son. I wish she was just move the fvck away! I am intentionally being a *** at this point. The fact that she saw my son in the NICU before I did doesn't help. I can't get over it. So until that time...I'm going to continue trying to keep her away from my son. It is the only thing that makes me feel better.
Probably not the best FFFC but...DH makes me feel guilty about it.
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It sounds bad I think, but sometimes I feel really selfish of Jax, like he "belongs" to me more than to DH.
I feel the exact same way. I'm the one who does pretty much everything for DD. DH hasn't handled night feedings even once, and MAYBE changes 2 diapers a week. MAYBE. I handle her when she's cranky, I put her to bed, I nurse her/feed her, play with her, do her laundry, pretty much everything. SO. She's mine. PERIOD.
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It sounds bad I think, but sometimes I feel really selfish of Jax, like he "belongs" to me more than to DH.
I have to admit to feeling the same way about DS. My DH is an awesome dad and does everything he can to help out with the kiddo, but I still feel like I have more of a claim on DS! I think it's only natural, considering that we moms go through so much more to have our babies than our spouses do. Plus, we had ten months of having our babies to ourselves while we were pregnant.
And WTH does FFFC stand for? Something Friday Fvcking Confession???
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Here's mine....It would be much more juicy if you worked with me. Most people at my small office do not realize that the area vice president for our large company is my mother. This is with the exception of my supervisors (who have worked with my mom and known my since I was 5). My mom oversees our 12 midwest branches, so even though she has an office in the back of our branch, she isn't there much.
Anyways at our branch there are two people who I can not stand. We are talking rude, unprofessional, drama starting beeches. Well this week they tried starting drama with the wrong person, and in two days time I used all my pull to get my mom, our GM, pharmacy manager, and reimbursement manager all on board to let them go! Ba Bye! And in my defense, they are awful employees despite my not liking them and our branch will be much better off.
My younger sister is flying up tomorrow and I'm not really looking forward to her meeting the baby. I love her but I love her in that you are 500 miles away sort of way. She's the youngest and sooo self centered and I just want to spend the weekend with DS and not deal with any drama.
There are some days I really wish I was an only child.
I guess I will throw one more out since it's 3am an I am pretty much alone on the bump.
My H and I are both kinda goofy people. We are definitely the joksters of our two large famiies. We both crack each others, so at least we think eachother are funny. Then I come here, and make what we (yes, sometimes I showH what I put on the bump) think is a funny comment and I get nothing. Saddens me. Guess my humor doesn't translate well or I really am not funny. Either way I will still just carry on.
So, I will be waitressing again about 10 hours a week for some extra $$ - working those 2 days will bring in about an extra 150-200$ a week. FI and I are trying to pay off all/most of our cc's/debt before the wedding.
It worked out bc he works 3rd shift and will be home with L - that was the only way I agreed to this since I would never allow the chance for MIL to be alone with her but part of me is just as nervous to leave him with L.. I know hes her dad and they need alone time but this will include him putting her to sleep which can be a difficult task.. I'm just worried and part of me doesnt care about the $$ or the disappearing debt, I just want to be home with L all the time.
I guess this goes back to auchick's feeling of "they're only mine"
I am afraid to have #2 since I had such a wonderful pregnancy/delivery/recovery with L.. I feel like the next one will be horrific and my body will be ruined (I barely gained weight with L and wound up with zero stretch marks and am back to pre-pg size/weight/clothes)
I know I shouldnt be worrying about this, but I am.
Another reason I am afraid of #2 is that I love L so much, will I be able to love #2 as much? I know I willl love #2 in different ways but L's my first babygirl and I feel like if I had 10 children all put together they couldnt live up to the kind of love I have for L.
1) DH and I had sex one time during my pregnancy and zero times since. He's afraid that "we'd have another bambino on the way." When I see BFPs or those who have to POAS, I get a little jealous because everyone else around here is having sex.
2) My thought, especially in regards to yesterday's mid-afternoon drama, is it really irks me when I see incoherent posts (ones that you have to reread a billion times to figure what the hell they're saying). When I see them, I think to myself, "Dear God, our educational system has done a disservice to society."
a) Do they not read aloud or edit their posts as they type? For most people, their wriitten is better than their verbal.
b) Not only will I have to educate their children but also have decipher their [the parents] notes, etc.
We got DD's newborn pics back from the photographer last night. Part of me wants to show them to everyone we know because I'm so proud of her, but another part wants to hide them because I look like a big fatty in the ones where you can see me.
It pisses me off when DH wants a thank you for doing his job as a parent. Wednesday night he was up when DS woke up and wanted a bottle, so he fed him. Yesterday morning he says to me, "You didnt thank me for getting up with him last night." Im supposed to thank you for doing your job? Okay well then where is my thank you for changing diapers, feeding, entertaining, etc DS then? Im owed a few if we are playing this game.
I can't stand when people say "FML" or "Eff my life" (Not just here, but on FB and IRL). I know that they're probably just frustrated or venting, but it just makes me want to scream because usually the person saying it has a lot going for them and should just appreciate what they have.
We went up to NY for a week to see family. We have had a ton of issues with MIL and we ultimately decided that we were not going to see her while we were there. And DH actually stuck to it. I expected him to cave in and want to take DD to see her. I am thrilled that we didn;t have to see her and that she actually had to live with the consequences of her actions and how she treats people! She is not good enough for my child
1. I should be cleaning/packing for the beach. I have nothing done or ready to go. Whoops.
2. It took DH leaving for a month for me to want to have sex with him. We've done it once since DS was born. Once. I feel awful about it but he has to understand that I need more help from him or I'm never going to want it, especially when school starts up again in August.
3. We're going to see MIL next month and I'm feeling very spiteful. You guys have seen some of the things she says to me, not to mention the endless comments about what I "should" do with DS. I have every intention of not giving her any alone time with him. The same goes for my slacker, moocher BIL. "Don't worry runnergirl, when he comes to visit he'll only have eyes for grandma. Mommy who?" Eff that, lady! ?
Another reason I am afraid of #2 is that I love L so much, will I be able to love #2 as much? I know I willl love #2 in different ways but L's my first babygirl and I feel like if I had 10 children all put together they couldnt live up to the kind of love I have for L.
Another reason I am afraid of #2 is that I love L so much, will I be able to love #2 as much? I know I willl love #2 in different ways but L's my first babygirl and I feel like if I had 10 children all put together they couldnt live up to the kind of love I have for L.
I wondered this all through my pregnancy with DD. I really didn't think I could love her as much as I love DS. I worried that she wouldn't get the love she deserves, but it turns out I adore her just as much as DS. It just happens. It's amazing.
I am SO glad to see at least 3 posters move from 0-6 to 6-12 in the past few weeks. And as of late, I know I'm not alone.
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Now I'm curious!
I can't think of any good FFFC's this week. I feel like I should come up with something revealing as this is my last week on 0-6. Hmmmmm... I'll report back if I have enough balls to get juicy for ya!
2. I just found out I have skin cancer on my breast and they are afraid that it has infiltrated the breast tissue. I can't get it out of my mind that perhaps I am supposed to be dead. I had a resident try to kill me, got HELLP syndrome and almost died, and now this. Final Destination anyone?
3. I watched 16 & Pregnant's season finale last night and cried for hours. I begged the girl on TV not to give up her baby. There was nothing wrong with the adoptive couple; in fact, they seemed fantastic. But I couldn't help myself. I grabbed a very sleepy Lily from the cosleeper and let her sleep on me the whole rest of the night. I am glad the girl made the right choice, but it made me such a nervous wreck I couldn't let Lily out of my sight.
When I found out I was pregnant, DH freaked out (I did too)... it was a complete surprise (we were going to wait another 5 years or so) and he didn't want to tell anyone. When we finally had to tell because I was starting to show, he sent out an email to his parents and family saying something like- "K is pregnant. We didn't want this, but it happened, so now you know." It took him until the 20 week ultrasound (when we found out the baby was a boy) to even be able to talk about it with me. Those first few months were awful.
Fast forward to now- B is almost 6 months old... DH keeps saying things like "Don't you want a brother or sister, B?" and saying, "Oh, it's okay, we don't have to use a condom"... He's seriously trying to get me pregnant again (we've always talked about wanting 4-5 kids) this soon! I love it- it's absolutely hilarious. It's amazing how quickly this little guy has changed both of us.
Sometimes I want to get sick so I have to be in the hospital for a few days. Nothing serious but enough where I have to stay over night for a few days so I can get some sleep. I also want DH to see how hard it is to take care of two. I know it's wrong but I'm tired.
1.) I love my LO but I haven't had this huge surge of motherly love/bonding that everyone talks about and that makes me really sad. It's not like he's not wanted, I mean we planned for him and were so excited when I got pregnant but, ugh, I dunno.
2.) I am so digusted by my body now that I have had a baby. Nothing at all fits right and I just feel so loose and wobbly. I look at myself in the mirror multiple times a day and just get so unhappy. Dh is really understanding and keeps trying to explain that I have just had a baby and my body needs to recover but I fear he'll never look at me the same way again.
I hate that DH gets to be at home all day with DS while I have to be at work. I know I need to work because DH is laid off but I think it is so unfair that he is home when it is all I want to spend every waking hour with the boy. On the same note it drives me crazy that he is home all day and does nothing around the house then wonders why I dont want to have sex after working all day coming home taking over ds and having to clean the house
1.) I love my LO but I haven't had this huge surge of motherly love/bonding that everyone talks about and that makes me really sad. It's not like he's not wanted, I mean we planned for him and were so excited when I got pregnant but, ugh, I dunno.
Don't worry, it will come. Right now you are hormonal, exhausted and recovering from childbirth. Its okay to not feel all sunshine and hearts. Once your LO starts sleeping more and interacting with you more, you will feel it, I promise!
DD #1 passed away in January 2011 at 14 days old due to congenital heart disease
DD#2 lost in January 2012 at 23 weeks due to anhydramnios caused by a placental abruption
I think I might be pregnant again. We had 1 slip up without a condom. I just feel different.
And while most of me would be absolutely devistated with that news, i would have 2 under 14 months (oh dear god) part of me would be happy for a do-over.
I had a terrible pregnancy with O. I lost 26lbs, had placenta previa, 14 ultrasounds because of severe bleeding, hospital stays, etc. I want a do over because i absolutely HATED being pregnant with O and i feel so guilty about that.
Jack used to sleep 10 hrs in a stretch, and since we had to break the swaddle he's been waking up every 2 hrs. At 3 am this morning I loudly told him to STFU and go back to sleep. Yep, I told my 3 month old to STFU.
Also, I don't understand why people go in to having a child and say "I'm not going to BF". Unless there are medical issues why you can't, aren't you even just curious about it? I don't care how you feed your child, but I can't see knowing you don't want to do something without even giving it a shot.
1.) I love my LO but I haven't had this huge surge of motherly love/bonding that everyone talks about and that makes me really sad. It's not like he's not wanted, I mean we planned for him and were so excited when I got pregnant but, ugh, I dunno.
Don't worry, it will come. Right now you are hormonal, exhausted and recovering from childbirth. Its okay to not feel all sunshine and hearts. Once your LO starts sleeping more and interacting with you more, you will feel it, I promise!
It pisses me off when DH wants a thank you for doing his job as a parent. Wednesday night he was up when DS woke up and wanted a bottle, so he fed him. Yesterday morning he says to me, "You didnt thank me for getting up with him last night." Im supposed to thank you for doing your job? Okay well then where is my thank you for changing diapers, feeding, entertaining, etc DS then? Im owed a few if we are playing this game.
This!! DS must be going through a growth spurt because he was up every two hours last night to eat. Well, at 6:30am, he was fed and awake and I gave him to FI. FI gets up for work at 7:15. I did not feel guilty waking him up 45 minutes earlier! Then instead of leaving the bedroom so I can sleep, he puts DS in bed with us and lets him fuss. A$$, I want to get some SLEEP. He finally goes to the living room and gets DS to go back to sleep, then expects me to treat him like he's a god. Hello! You're 50% of the parenting team. End vent. I have to say, FI is only bad at night. During the evening and the day he's totally hands on.
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My sister lost custody of my nephew last march b/c she let some guy hit him, they locked him in a closet, terrible stuff. Well, my mom is adpoting him because my sister gave up her rights and ran off to California with the same guy. My mom has had my nephew since last May. When I got pregnant in June I was so incredibly bitter towards the entire situation. I feel like my son doesn't get his 'mimi and papa" time like my nephew did because now my mom is raising a 5 year old. I don't hold it against my nephew, but it makes me want to throat punch my sister off a bridge. Fast forward to this weekend, my parents are coming up to help us get our house ready to sell, and I really want my mom to see DS with MIL so she can kind of see what she is missing. I'm embarassed and bitter by feeling that way. It makes me feel so yuck.
I cried in the dressing room at Kohls yesterday. I couldn't stand to wear maternity pants anymore but the thought of buying up 2 sizes broke my heart. I bought up two sizes because they were on clearance.
Now that DS is napping better and is able to entertain himself more I totally have time to do stuff around the house....but I still have yet to do anything.
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Re: FFFC
I totally made some dramz on FB regarding the MIL last night...I'm so sick of the b!tch calling my son "my boy, aren't you MY boy," so I decided to make a status update regarding it. Was NOT well recieved by DH. He asked me to delete it. Doesn't change the fact that I hate MIL and will do everything I can to keep her from seeing DS, and will try my best to make sure she NEVER sees him when I am not present.
She was a shitty grandparent to her first grandchild and I can't understand why she is suddenly trying so hard with my son. I wish she was just move the fvck away! I am intentionally being a *** at this point. The fact that she saw my son in the NICU before I did doesn't help. I can't get over it. So until that time...I'm going to continue trying to keep her away from my son. It is the only thing that makes me feel better.
Probably not the best FFFC but...DH makes me feel guilty about it.
I feel the exact same way. I'm the one who does pretty much everything for DD. DH hasn't handled night feedings even once, and MAYBE changes 2 diapers a week. MAYBE. I handle her when she's cranky, I put her to bed, I nurse her/feed her, play with her, do her laundry, pretty much everything. SO. She's mine. PERIOD.
Here's my FFFC...
I'm drunk! Like Estella is with Gma and Gpa for the night... drunk! hahaha! Finally... woohoo!
PS... I miss her like crazy!! =(
I have to admit to feeling the same way about DS. My DH is an awesome dad and does everything he can to help out with the kiddo, but I still feel like I have more of a claim on DS! I think it's only natural, considering that we moms go through so much more to have our babies than our spouses do. Plus, we had ten months of having our babies to ourselves while we were pregnant.
And WTH does FFFC stand for? Something Friday Fvcking Confession???
My younger sister is flying up tomorrow and I'm not really looking forward to her meeting the baby. I love her but I love her in that you are 500 miles away sort of way. She's the youngest and sooo self centered and I just want to spend the weekend with DS and not deal with any drama.
There are some days I really wish I was an only child.
Missed m/c 10/25/10 @ 11.5 weeks
So, I will be waitressing again about 10 hours a week for some extra $$ - working those 2 days will bring in about an extra 150-200$ a week. FI and I are trying to pay off all/most of our cc's/debt before the wedding.
It worked out bc he works 3rd shift and will be home with L - that was the only way I agreed to this since I would never allow the chance for MIL to be alone with her but part of me is just as nervous to leave him with L.. I know hes her dad and they need alone time but this will include him putting her to sleep which can be a difficult task.. I'm just worried and part of me doesnt care about the $$ or the disappearing debt, I just want to be home with L all the time.
I guess this goes back to auchick's feeling of "they're only mine"
I thought of another one.
I am afraid to have #2 since I had such a wonderful pregnancy/delivery/recovery with L.. I feel like the next one will be horrific and my body will be ruined (I barely gained weight with L and wound up with zero stretch marks and am back to pre-pg size/weight/clothes)
I know I shouldnt be worrying about this, but I am.
Another reason I am afraid of #2 is that I love L so much, will I be able to love #2 as much? I know I willl love #2 in different ways but L's my first babygirl and I feel like if I had 10 children all put together they couldnt live up to the kind of love I have for L.
1) DH and I had sex one time during my pregnancy and zero times since. He's afraid that "we'd have another bambino on the way." When I see BFPs or those who have to POAS, I get a little jealous because everyone else around here is having sex.
2) My thought, especially in regards to yesterday's mid-afternoon drama, is it really irks me when I see incoherent posts (ones that you have to reread a billion times to figure what the hell they're saying). When I see them, I think to myself, "Dear God, our educational system has done a disservice to society."
a) Do they not read aloud or edit their posts as they type? For most people, their wriitten is better than their verbal.
b) Not only will I have to educate their children but also have decipher their [the parents] notes, etc.
Sorry- vent over.
my angel babies: 6/10 (chem. pg), 9/10 @ 10 weeks
1. I should be cleaning/packing for the beach. I have nothing done or ready to go. Whoops.
2. It took DH leaving for a month for me to want to have sex with him. We've done it once since DS was born. Once. I feel awful about it but he has to understand that I need more help from him or I'm never going to want it, especially when school starts up again in August.
3. We're going to see MIL next month and I'm feeling very spiteful. You guys have seen some of the things she says to me, not to mention the endless comments about what I "should" do with DS. I have every intention of not giving her any alone time with him. The same goes for my slacker, moocher BIL. "Don't worry runnergirl, when he comes to visit he'll only have eyes for grandma. Mommy who?" Eff that, lady! ?
This exactly!!
And I also feel like she's "mine."
I wondered this all through my pregnancy with DD. I really didn't think I could love her as much as I love DS. I worried that she wouldn't get the love she deserves, but it turns out I adore her just as much as DS. It just happens. It's amazing.
Now I'm curious!
I can't think of any good FFFC's this week. I feel like I should come up with something revealing as this is my last week on 0-6. Hmmmmm... I'll report back if I have enough balls to get juicy for ya!
Braydon 1.23.09
1. My DH is lazy. I hope it gets better soon.
2. I just found out I have skin cancer on my breast and they are afraid that it has infiltrated the breast tissue. I can't get it out of my mind that perhaps I am supposed to be dead. I had a resident try to kill me, got HELLP syndrome and almost died, and now this. Final Destination anyone?
3. I watched 16 & Pregnant's season finale last night and cried for hours. I begged the girl on TV not to give up her baby. There was nothing wrong with the adoptive couple; in fact, they seemed fantastic. But I couldn't help myself. I grabbed a very sleepy Lily from the cosleeper and let her sleep on me the whole rest of the night. I am glad the girl made the right choice, but it made me such a nervous wreck I couldn't let Lily out of my sight.
Sigh. Too much stress right now.
Here's mine:
When I found out I was pregnant, DH freaked out (I did too)... it was a complete surprise (we were going to wait another 5 years or so) and he didn't want to tell anyone. When we finally had to tell because I was starting to show, he sent out an email to his parents and family saying something like- "K is pregnant. We didn't want this, but it happened, so now you know." It took him until the 20 week ultrasound (when we found out the baby was a boy) to even be able to talk about it with me. Those first few months were awful.
Fast forward to now- B is almost 6 months old... DH keeps saying things like "Don't you want a brother or sister, B?" and saying, "Oh, it's okay, we don't have to use a condom"... He's seriously trying to get me pregnant again (we've always talked about wanting 4-5 kids) this soon! I love it- it's absolutely hilarious. It's amazing how quickly this little guy has changed both of us.
Max born July 25
Big sisters Alex and Layla
1.) I love my LO but I haven't had this huge surge of motherly love/bonding that everyone talks about and that makes me really sad. It's not like he's not wanted, I mean we planned for him and were so excited when I got pregnant but, ugh, I dunno.
2.) I am so digusted by my body now that I have had a baby. Nothing at all fits right and I just feel so loose and wobbly. I look at myself in the mirror multiple times a day and just get so unhappy. Dh is really understanding and keeps trying to explain that I have just had a baby and my body needs to recover but I fear he'll never look at me the same way again.
Don't worry, it will come. Right now you are hormonal, exhausted and recovering from childbirth. Its okay to not feel all sunshine and hearts. Once your LO starts sleeping more and interacting with you more, you will feel it, I promise!
DD #1 passed away in January 2011 at 14 days old due to congenital heart disease
DD#2 lost in January 2012 at 23 weeks due to anhydramnios caused by a placental abruption
I think I might be pregnant again. We had 1 slip up without a condom. I just feel different.
And while most of me would be absolutely devistated with that news, i would have 2 under 14 months (oh dear god) part of me would be happy for a do-over.
I had a terrible pregnancy with O. I lost 26lbs, had placenta previa, 14 ultrasounds because of severe bleeding, hospital stays, etc. I want a do over because i absolutely HATED being pregnant with O and i feel so guilty about that.
Jack used to sleep 10 hrs in a stretch, and since we had to break the swaddle he's been waking up every 2 hrs. At 3 am this morning I loudly told him to STFU and go back to sleep. Yep, I told my 3 month old to STFU.
Also, I don't understand why people go in to having a child and say "I'm not going to BF". Unless there are medical issues why you can't, aren't you even just curious about it? I don't care how you feed your child, but I can't see knowing you don't want to do something without even giving it a shot.
This!! DS must be going through a growth spurt because he was up every two hours last night to eat. Well, at 6:30am, he was fed and awake and I gave him to FI. FI gets up for work at 7:15. I did not feel guilty waking him up 45 minutes earlier! Then instead of leaving the bedroom so I can sleep, he puts DS in bed with us and lets him fuss. A$$, I want to get some SLEEP. He finally goes to the living room and gets DS to go back to sleep, then expects me to treat him like he's a god. Hello! You're 50% of the parenting team. End vent. I have to say, FI is only bad at night. During the evening and the day he's totally hands on.
My FFFC isn't juicy, but more bitter.
My sister lost custody of my nephew last march b/c she let some guy hit him, they locked him in a closet, terrible stuff. Well, my mom is adpoting him because my sister gave up her rights and ran off to California with the same guy. My mom has had my nephew since last May. When I got pregnant in June I was so incredibly bitter towards the entire situation. I feel like my son doesn't get his 'mimi and papa" time like my nephew did because now my mom is raising a 5 year old. I don't hold it against my nephew, but it makes me want to throat punch my sister off a bridge.
Fast forward to this weekend, my parents are coming up to help us get our house ready to sell, and I really want my mom to see DS with MIL so she can kind of see what she is missing. I'm embarassed and bitter by feeling that way. It makes me feel so yuck.
I have nothing but I have to say that I agree with this...only sucks for me cause I am moving too.