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Beta Negative

Well ladies it was negative, I'm taking one for the team.  I don't even know what to say or do right now, I think we are both numb.  This was our last chance and it failed so we are going to regroup and try to figure out how to live life without children.  I'm sorry this isn't coming out very well, more jumbled than anything.  I wanted to get my post out there, I don't know where I'm going to go from here.  I wish all of you the best and will cherish this wonderful group of strong women, you all have a special place in my heart and always will. 
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  • Im so sorry...
    1-20-09 BFP third month of Follistim IUI 02-19-09 MC 06-24-09 MC July IUI Follistim Ganirelix Ovidrel Crinone=BFN Aug. IUI Follistim Ganirelix ovidrel Crinone=BFP= scared sh**less 10-12-09 MC = 1 ectopic 1 perfect Dec. IUI Gonal-F Ganirelix Ovidrel Crinone Lovenox 01-02-10 BFP=scared sh**less again 01-06-10 CP SAIF ALWAYS WELCOME : ) March 2010 - IVF in progress converted to IUI 03-30-10 BFN April 2010 - IVF - BFFN June 2010 - IVF - BFFN July IUI BFP! March 26 2011 Gracie is here! imageImage and video hosting by TinyPic imageImage and video hosting by TinyPic
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  • Oh no. ?I'm so sorry.
    Beautiful Miracle Baby lost at 21 weeks due to pre-term labor and incompetent cervix. FET#1 BFN, FET#2 BFP, early loss. FET#3 BFN. IVF#2 BFFN. FET #4 BFP after removing bilateral hydrosalpinx and 3 months of lupron depot. Sticky Bun is here!! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Kel - Im so sorry to hear that.  My heart breaks for you and your H.  Please take care of yourself.  IF and IVF suck! 

    Best of luck with whatever path you take - Im so sorry that this didnt work for you.  I will keep you in my prayers. 

  • I know there's not much anyone can say right now to make you feel better, but I am so very sorry to read this news. Please take care of yourself. 
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  • i'm so so sorry. i know that you guys will have a wonderful and fulfilling life with or without kids. (((HUGS)))
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  • oh no!  my heart goes out to you and your DH.  I am so sorry you are going through this.  I hope soon you and your DH can put together a great plan and find lots of happiness.  Please take care of each other.  I, along with all the other wonderful women on this board, are thinking of you. Am so sorry for your news

    Meg

    Me = 36 with PCOS and 1 tube removed for a cyst and adhesions
    DH = 35 with low morphology

    April '09 IVF (antagonist protocol) = 5R5M, none fertilized, cancelled at ET
    May/June '09 IVF/ICSI = 6R6M6F, 2ET on 6.18.09, 1 frostie, Beta on
    6.30.09 = 51 OMG!! Beta #2 = 167 Beta #3 = 2630!!!!! An uneventful pregnancy. 
    3.16.10 a healthy beautiful miracle boy born via unscheduled c-section

    Now on the quest for another, so our dear son is not alone.

    May/June '12 IVF/ICSI (antagonist protocol) =10R9M9F, 1ET = BFN, 2 frosties
    Aug '12 FET, 1ET= beta hell, 2 rounds of methotrexate, 4 months later Hcg < 2 
    Jan/Feb '13 IVF/ICSI (long lupron protocol) = 18R18M18F, 1ET = BFN, 10 frosties
    Apr '13 FET w 2ET (one from '09 and one newer) = (strep throat during 2ww) biochemical = BFN
    June '13 FET w 2ET = 1 baby boy lost at 10w, D/E with karyotyping, loss due to monosomy 21.
    Karyotyping of me and DH negative for a balance translocation.
    Dec '13 FET w 2ET, BFP!!!! 12/26 beta #1 10dp5dt = 781, beta 2 12dpt= 2234 could this be real?!
      Not giving up yet.
    5 frosties on ice.

    Truly realizing how much of a miracle my son is and praying this will be a sibling for him.
  • I am so sorry!  Please take care of yourself!
  • Oh Kelli, I'm so sorry.  This is just not fair!  You deserve a baby so much, I wish there was something I could do to make it happen for you.  You and DH will always be in my thoughts and prayers.
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  • I am so, so sorry!
    TTC #1 since June 2008 *SAIFW*

    TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs

  • This just is not fair. I am so sorry honey. I'm sending you lots of love and hugs and even though you're looking at living child free - please stick around.

    I know that you'd be missed and you're welcome here no matter what, sweetie.

    ((((((((((HUGE HUGS))))))))))))

  • OH NO! I am so sorry Kelly :(

     

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  • I am so sorry. I know how you feel as I have severe endo and ivf 1 and 2 both failed, I don't know your particular situation more than what your siggy says, but if you are thinking about treating your endo, I just want to let you know that I did lupron depot before ivf 3 and it finally worked. I know you said it was your last chance, but if you are at all thinking about treating the endo and perhaps somewhere down the road getting back on the rollercoaster, lupron depot may be a big help by calming down the endo and helping with implantation. HUGS to you!

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  • This is just so heartbreaking... I'm so very sorry. 

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  • I'm so sorry--I don't even know what else to say except you will be in my thoughts...
    2009: 1st IVF began 12/29, cancelled due to OHSS; 1st full IVF began 2/10 ER 2/27 ET 3/4 BFN 3/13; IVF #2 began 5/23 ER 6/4 ET 6/9 BFP 6/18 Lost our baby on 9/12. 2010: IVF #3 (w/PGD) began 2/1 ER: 2/15 ET: 2/20 BFN 3/1; Took a break for hernia surgery and recovery; IVF #4 (w/PGD) began 6/30 ER 7/13 ET 7/18 BFN 7/27; IVF #5 began 10/23 ER 11/5 ET 11/10 Low Pos 11/19 BFN 11/22; Took a break: got a 2nd opinion,changed insurance,chose a new RE,and recharged emotionally. 2011: "Back-to-Back" IUIs on 6/4, 6/6, and 6/7 BFN on 6/21. "Back-to-Back" IUIs on 7/3 & 7/5 BFN on 7/19. "Back-to-Back" IUIs on 7/30, 8/1 & 8/2...the journey continues into 2012 with three more IVFs and 6 more IUIs...now looking at IVF with donor egg Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Daisypath Anniversary tickers
  • I am so sorry.  ((HUGS)) 
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  • I am so sorry *hugs*
  • I'm so sorry. Nobody should have to go through this.
  • I'm incredibly sorry. It's so unfair. I'm wishing you the best on your journey, wherever it may take you.  ((((HUGS)))) 
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  • I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself.
  • I'm so incredibly sorry. ((HUGS))
  • Oh, I am so very sorry.  That just sucks.  My thoughts are with you and your DH. (((HUGS)))
  • I am so, so sorry.  Hugs to you.
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  • I'm so sorry (((HUGS)))
    Dx: High FSH, stage IV endo, homozygous C677T MTHFR and PAI-1
    Early loss 10/08
    Lap 1/09
    IVF #1 "natural IVF" - 1 egg retrieved, missed m/c
    Tried several mini-stim cycles with no response
    Switched clinics - dx'd as carrier for Fragile X
    IVF #2 MDL protocol Jan/Feb converted to IUI, BFN
    IVF #2 take 2: Antagonist, one embie, BFN
    IVF #3: Antagonist, no fertilization
    One last ditch effort at OE IVF (antagonist with Clomid) cancelled
    DE cycle #1 Jan/Feb 2011, BFP, ectopic
    DE cycle #2 June/July 2011 - BFP
    10/28/11 Baby girl lost at 17 weeks due to pre-term labor. We love and miss you.
    DE cycle #3 June/July 2012 - BFP, twins, both heartbeats stopped, D&C
    2 frosties but don't know what's next
    FET Dec 2012: BFP! Praying this one sticks for the long haul!
  • I am so so sorry. I was really hoping for you! My prayers are with you and your H.
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  • Kel, I have been waiting for your news all day, and this was NOT the news I had hoped to hear.  I know it's even less so for you and your hub.  I cannot tell you how very sorry I am to hear this disappointment.  While it doesn't take away what just happened, I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.  Take some time for yourself.  Though I'm lacking them in my own life, I always hope for miracles to happen for others.  Nobody deserves this kind of heartache, and I would be ecstatic if a miracle happened for you.  Oh, how I wish I could take all the pain away.  I'm so so sorry.
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  • I am so very sorry. I know nothing anyone can say can make you feel any better, I just want to let you know I'll be keeping you and your dh in my thoughts and prayers.

    ((hugs))

    Jenn

    My Blog: When Will Hope and Faith Pay Off

    "The Sisterhood of Infertility" Blog

    Cycle#18=BFP....M/C @ 7w2d...heartbroken
    IUI #1 (cycle 25) = Chem PG, IUI # 2 Cycle 32 = BFFN! SURPRISE--- We're PG!! Break Cycle BFP November 2009!!!! M/C # 2
    Sadly, a Mommy to 3 Angel Babies
    "A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality." John Lennon
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  • I am so unbelievably sorry to hear this.  I was hoping so much for good news for you today, especially with the stakes being so high.  Take all the time you need.  We'll be here for you when you're ready to talk. ((hugs))
  • I'm so sorry sweetie.  -hugs-
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  • Oh no, LuvBug, I am so so sorry. ((HUGS)), take some time for yourself and your H to grieve.  You are in my thoughts!
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    TTC Since Dec 2006
    *IVF #1 cancelled at ET*
    *IVF #2 OHSS, transfer cancelled*
    *FET #1 2 frosties, c/p*
    *Lap April 2010, removed endometrioma/endo implants*
    *Surprise BFP June 2010*
    *Beautiful daughter born 2/14/11!!*
    Thoughts from an Overwrought Mind
    SAIFW
  • I am so very sorry....sending you hugs. Take care of yourself.
  • I am so very, very sorry.
    Our miracle IVF baby - D 6/09 & J - Surprise! born 9/10!!!
  • i am so sorry to hear this news. i really wish i could reach through the screen and hug you.
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  • I am so sorry... I have been praying and thinking of you daily, since our transfers were so close to each other...  I wish there was more that I could say...
    PCOS, Tubal Factor
    2 Ectopic Losses = 2 surgeries = 1 unusable tube
    IVF #1 June 2009 = SUCCESS! EDD 3/7/1
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  • I am so so sorry to hear this. Hugs go out to you. You will certainly be in my thoughts and prayers as you try to process this and move forward. This is just not fair!
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    LBK: I don't know what to say.  My knee jerk reaction is to say "it's not over yet! it can't be!" but I also know that only you know when you are really done.  I hope you will change your mind, but will support you 1000% whatever path you choose.

    Keeping you in my thoughts and sending big old cyber hugs...

     

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  • OH NO! I am so sorry!!! GL and I wish you all the best!?
  • My heart breaks for you -- I am so sorry :( I wish you all the best as you figure out where you're going...
    We are adopting! Currently waiting for our domestic infant adoption match.

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  • I'm so sorry...I was so hoping for you. ((Hugs))
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    I'm so sorry.  Give yourself plenty of time to grieve and sort through all of the options.  While I understand that you may need a break from the board, I hope you continue to stick around here when you feel ready.  ((hugs))

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