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Today my IF makes me feel...

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Re: Today my IF makes me feel...

  • Frustrated and impatient.
    PCOS, lupus anticoagulant, MTHFR (A1298C, one copy) 2 IUIs & 1 IVF = BFN FET#1 = It's a girl! Born 7.1.10 FET#2 = c/p FET#3 = Twin girls! Born on 3.16.12 at 33w2d due to severe pre-E. After 4 weeks in the NICU they are home! Lilypie Third Birthday tickers
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  • gidgegidge member
    jealous and scared
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  • Sad and jealous and scared and all of the above!
  • afraid to hope and dream
    TTC #1 since 12/07 SA 9/08=borderline normal HSG 1/09 found R tube blocked Multiple IUIs both with oral and injectible drugs from 2/09-2/11 Started domestic adoption process in 5/10, homestudy complete 9/10 Failed adoption after home with baby for 2 weeks 11/10 Blessed through the miracle of private adoption with a son, born 6/6/11 (his grandma's bday) 7lbs 9oz 20.5 inches long! So worth the wait!
  • petrified.  and that I am a big whiner.
  • excited and powerful.
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  • scared and jealous.
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    DD #1 {04-19-2004}
    Secondary IF: Severe MFI (low testosterone, low count, low morph, & very low motility) & Annovulation
    After 22 months IUI # 3 Clomid + Follistim = BFP
    DD #2 {12-31-2009}
    2 more years of failed IF treatments and a failed adoption TTC #3
    TTC Journey Over~ Not By Choice
  • like Charlie Brown with the football (check out my quiz results on FB) - every time I develop hope that THIS will be the time that I kick IF, the ball gets pulled out from under me.
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  • empty, sad, scared & broke
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  • confused and befuddled.
    SAIF/PAIF absolutely ALWAYS welcome to respond!
  • like crap. Broken, defeated, sad, angry, helpless....
  • hopeless
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  • impatient and frustrated.
  • Where do I start, sad, frustrated, jealous, angry!
    Forever in our hearts
    ~12/05 * 7/06 * 12/06 * 4/07 * 10/08~
    "When the world says, "Give up" hope whispers, "Try one more time"
    After 4yrs, 5 IUI's, 2 IVF's, 2 FET's, PGD, and 5 losses our little miracle is finally here!

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  • Angry, frustrated, inpatient, jealous, depressed, out-of-control. 
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  • anxious
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  • Defective. Oh, and stupid for worrying so much about getting pregnant during college.

    Dx: PCOS and short luteal phase
    18 cycles (3 with our RE) - Metformin + Clomid + HCG booster did the trick!
    BFP #1 6/22/09 EDD: 3/2/10 DS born: 3/8/10

    TTC #2 since Dec 2011
    BFP #2 7/8/12 EDD: 3/18/12 M/C @ 9w1d: 8/16/12

  • inconsolable and despondent.
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  • Resentful and bitter.  I wish I could just be sad about it but IF is bringing out a very ugly and unappealing side of me.

    Good post.  I love questions where I see the range of emotions of how people deal with IF.

    TTC since 3-08 IVF # 1 Dec 2011 BFP DD born at 31 weeks 6-24-12

    FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN

    FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN

    No more frosties

    IVF #2. September 2014

    PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts

    SET November 9, 2014
    Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN

    Not sure where to go from here.

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  • For once, hopeful. I just have a good feeling about this cycle (or at least when bad thoughts pop into my head I do everything in my power to get them out!). I made a commitment to myself to not stress out or be negative this cycle. I'm 6dp3dt today.
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  • powerless
    TTC since 12/ 06: H/Azoospermia Ivf#1 BFP m/c 5w3d FET#1 c/p FET# 2 BFN IVF#2 BFFN IVF#3 March/April
  • heartbroken and discouraged.
    TTC with unexplained IF since 8/2007 6 losses, one beautiful perfect boy in our arms Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
  • afraid and jealous
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  • Fat.

    After 2 rounds of IVF & 2 rounds of FET, we were blessed with identical twin girls!
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    Fat.

    this

  • hopeless and sad 
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  • like time is passing by slower for me than everyone else

    scared

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  • bitter is a good word....but not alone thanks to you ladies!  (((HUGS)))
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  • so alone,  sad, depressed, hopeless, and frustrated.  :(
    Jenny-34, DH-39, Furdog-Nissa
    TTC#1 since Aug '05, CP: 10/05, 8/12; BO: 1/13;
    IUI #8: BFP, beta 1, 6/4/13: 267, beta 2, 6/6/13: 765; First US 6/18/13-Twins!!!
    Due February 13, 2014 with two BOYS! 
    Henry Leo, 4# 13oz, 18.75 inches and Samuel Thomas, 6#, 18.5 inches arrived via c-section January 30th!  

     
  • depressed... empty....
    PCOS, Tubal Factor
    2 Ectopic Losses = 2 surgeries = 1 unusable tube
    IVF #1 June 2009 = SUCCESS! EDD 3/7/1
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  • The first thought I had before reading all the responses: like a loser. And someone who should have quit BCP about a decade ago.
  • bitter and mad at the world.

    Got an invite to a somewhat friend's baby shower. The one who it took 9 months to get pregnant so she thought that ought to be enough to claim the infertile flag. There's nothing wrong with her or her DH, they just weren't timing it right.

    She was also the one that got upset when I said something about being on fertility medication ... because she would gladly take the drugs/treatments if she could get pregnant. Her winning solution ... just get really drunk before you have sex.

    Ugh. I could go on. I'm thinking I'll be booked on that day and won't be going to that shower.

  • definitely jealous...and like i've been cheated because my body doesn't do the things it's supposed to.
  • Exhausted.  And empty.
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  • insignificant and unworthy.
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  • sad, anxious, desperate

  • jealous and impatient
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