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So maybe we're not done yet

MrsRyan61804MrsRyan61804 member
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Its been a rough couple of days, I have not been able to drag myself out of bed in the last few days. I'm just so heart broken, I want to be alone, I just don't have it in me to face the world right now. Dh is so worried about me, I know i will be ok and snap out of this funk, I'm just not ready to put that fake smile back on my face right now.

I have been looking at some adoption websites and even talked to a few girls on the adoption board. Well wow, we thought this is hard! When people suggest that you adopt they obviously have no idea what goes into it! Not to mention we have emptied our bank account on IF procedures, and adoption is far from cheap. We're looking at somewhere between $20,000-50,000!!! I don't think I am ready to jump into that yet.

So where does this leave us? I think that has been the hardest part the last couple of days. I have no hope, I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I always thought if we were able to get pg then we would move onto adoption, but now I'm not sure that is a possibility either. 

Then today my Dh gets the mail, opens a letter from the RE. We have one embryo that made it to freeze!!! I'm not getting excited, the dr told us the day of the ET that it wasn't the best quality and wasn't even sure it would make it to freeze. I almost asked for them to transfer all three but I was so sure one or both of the other two would stick, and the last thing I wanted to do was risk losing all three. I am trying so hard to not get my hopes up, but there is some comfort in knowing that we have been given one last chance.

So maybe you girls are not rid of me yet! Thank you all so much for being there for me last week! 

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After 4yrs, 5 IUI's, 2 IVF's, 2 FET's, PGD, and 5 losses our little miracle is finally here!

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Re: So maybe we're not done yet

  • Kiki11Kiki11
    I've been thinking of you these past couple of days.  I'm so sorry that you're having to go through this.  Maybe that little embryo turned into a great embryo before they froze it- you never know!  I am keeping my fingers crossed that something works out for you.  (((hugs)))
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  • EDL52706EDL52706
    That is great news about the embryo--let's hope that the little embryo is the one you've been waiting for! :)
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  • Dragonfly1226Dragonfly1226 member
    I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. It doesn't seem fair at all. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope this little embryo that made it to freeze is the one. Please take care of yourself. ((((((hugs))))))
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  • krissyh21krissyh21 member

    I hope you don't mind me posting.

    I have been thinking about you, I was so sad to hear that this cycle did not work for you. I am glad you have that one that made it to freeze, maybe it is your little fighter! Good luck with everything (((hugs)))

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  • Jamers125Jamers125

    You have been in my thoughts, so this is good news! I'm glad you have another chance. Smile

    People never seem to understand that adoption can be just as hard, if not HARDER, than going through IF treatments. People who know I had a donor-IUI and then miscarried have asked, "Oh, so you're adopting now?" Um... no. I guess one failed IF treatment = you better adopt. Adoption has no guarantees either! It's all so sad and frustrating, but I try to hold on to hope that we WILL get there someday, somehow... not just me - all of us.

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  • harley12harley12
    That is great news. Hey, its worth a shot, right? It must be pretty good quality to have made it to freeze. Good luck!
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  • igh0318igh0318

    That's great!!  So glad to hear that you have a little fighter who made it to freeze.  I'm sending lots of positive thoughts your way.  Good luck!

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