I'm usually a lurker, but have reached a point at which I have to get it out, even if only for myself. We had a fetal echo yesterday morning to confirm a CHD that is going to require open heart surgery with-in days of our sons birth, so that was hugely depressing, but we could get through it. Whats killing me is waiting for the results from an amnio last Friday. Apparently this CHD is associated with Downs and DiGeorge syndromes. It could be an isolated defect, but I'm scared to death to find out its not. We've been married forever but the pregnancy was a huge (wonderful) surprise and now something is threatening to change everything. DH and I have talked it to death and we still don't know what to think. Our families are so excited that we are finally starting a family, but we're not sure we're strong enough to handle everything if the news is bad. I want to believe that we are not selfish and would do anything for our son to have life, but at this point we are both second guessing. I haven't been able to get anything done for the last few days, today is the day we should get our FISH results, and the waiting is only making it worse.
So sorry for the long vent, but just can't stand talking about it to family and friends right now.