*** Confessions ***

mrs.kcanne

Confess away ladies!

mrs.kcanne

Mine:

*I'm a tad vain. And to that end, I'm disappointed that the baby weight hasn't slipped off as easily as some other ladies has.  The weight gain/loss polls responses seriously made me depressed. I gained 41 lbs (started at 126, ended at 167) and have only lost 13 lbs and I'm 2 weeks PP. It seems like everyone else had 20+ lbs melt away within 2 weeks. And that makes me sad.

* I got the proofs back from our newborn photo shots with Allie, and I'm disappointed in 99% of the ones with me in them. I still have pregnancy "fat face" in most of the pics, have double chin in lots of them and am pale as hell in them also. Makes me sad.  Allie looks great in them, which is what matters, but hell, I look like I ... just gave birth or something.

* I didn't mean to, but instead of getting up from the couch to change Allie myself when I know she has a wet/poppy diaper, I've started to look sweetly at my husband and ask him if he'll take her and do it. And he does. And I love him for it. But it makes me feel guilty. I try to remind myself that I'M the one getting up in the middle of the night to BF her though, while he sleeps away in the warm bed.

lilyvalley

*  Other people have said how they play with their babies.  Mine usually eats, sleeps and poops (or pees) then repeats.  Maybe I am not stimulating her enough.  She is kind of cranky when she is awake so I haven't been pushing playing.  I am a bad Mommy!

*  My DH is watching football and screaming at the TV while GiGi is sitting there in her swing.  Doesn't he understand that he is probably upsetting her?!  It is a freaking football game for Fs sake.

 *  I lost 10 lbs during my pregnancy and 10 lbs. after I gave birth but I have been eating like crap ever since and my jeans are starting to get tight again. 

 *  My house needs to be cleaned and I don't care.

*  I want 8 hours of non stop sleep.

 

abj22

DH keeps asking if I want help with things with DD (like feeding her or prepping her bottles) but I keep doing it all myself because I secretly like the way I do it better. I am such a control freak. I don't mind if he changes her though.

847Christine

* Lilly, I could have written almost the same confessions... 

* I too feel like I should be doing more w/Evie.  She doesn't seem as happy as she used to be.  I thought it was a growth spurt at first, but now this has gone on for almost 3 weeks.  I dunno...

* I am starting to have intense negative feelings toward DH.  Not only does he sit & watch the football game & completely ignore our child, but he gets noticeably irritated with her & says things like "aw, c'mon" in a mean tone when she doesn't immediately calm down.  I can't trust him alone with her.  I can't.  And I love her, but I need to feel like I can take a break sometimes.  I would freakin' LOVE to go get my hair cut before everyone sees me at Thanksgiving, but I doubt that's possible.

* More negative DH stuff - we've hardly had sex since we conceived DD almost a year ago.  I no longer want to talk about it b/c he simply doesn't seem to care.  I don't know if he just doesn't find me sexy anymore or what.  He says it's not that, he's just "tired".  From what I have no idea.  I'm the one losing sleep to care for our baby.  He sleeps through the night almost every night.  And I've been even more lenient w/him this weekend b/c he was feeling sick on Friday.  But I feel pretty crappy too.  And there's NO ONE to take care of me.  I am sincerely afraid that we're going to be in one of those sexless marriages that I always used to feel sorry for people in them.

AU_Dre

*Ditto the feelings that I don't play with/stimulate Harrison enough. I haven't quite found a way to play with him that pleases him. We have a play mat that our friends gave us, but I haven't quite found a way to use it to his liking.

I would love to buy him a new one, but know he probably wouldn't like it any better. It is more likely that I just want to buy baby stuff since I like it so much!

*DH is sick and I am dreading having sole baby duty all night again since DH is banished to the guest room. I am going to kill DH if he diesn't go to the doctor tomorrow.

* I should be cleaning right now since Harrison is sleeping, but I am nesting insead!

jennunc

*** so glad to know that I am not alone with feeling like I am not doing enough with my little one. It is so hard when you are tired and with him being so young, he is not really interested in playing.

 *** my DH is great with the housework/laundry, etc. but he is still kinda scared to be alone with the baby which is hard because I too need to get out of the house soon or I am going to scream.

 *** I am feeling kinda sad today and not sure why. Maybe just the baby blues. I hate it. I want to be happy.

Crazycrustacean

* I totally used dd needing a bath for my reason to come home from bil/sil's house.?

* DH & I came home hungry from "dinner" at their house and have proceeded to eat everything in sight.

* I look in the mirror & even though all the baby weight has come off, my body shape is still poochy. I also only see the weight loss in my face.?

* I really dislike that my ils have no issue with kissing dd on her face.

* I am not looking forward to xmas eve with my ils & my sil's family.

* I still hate the mil calls dd pussynew. DH said he will say something when he hears her say it. ?

books4brooke

* I feel like I am living on a different planet than almost everyone else in the world right now.

* I will never ever take my smile for granted again... even if I have a double chin in every photo I take.  

* I am going to try to take an extended leave of absence from work.  I need the time to get my life back together.  But I also have a tremendous amount of guilt.  I know that my principal had other choices for my job.  My friend really pushed to get me hired.  I know I am a great teacher.  But I also don't feel ok with having my kids having to transition constantly.  

* I worry that if I don't get a hold of my life and my stress I will ruin my marriage and my health.