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DTNZ4EverDTNZ4Ever member
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I hate that during the 2ww that I check my possible due date. Fantasize about maternity leave, this hypothetical baby, the sibling relationship with DS. I hate that I do this just to be disappointed. Every month I saw I won't do it but I do. Makes me so mad!
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  • KC1212KC1212 member
    I do it too! I'm in the 2ww now so 13 days to go ugh.

    and the stockpile of hpt are already calling me...thinking how cool it would to test on our wedding anniversary the 21st and have some good news.

    pure torture.
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    Me: 27 DH: 33
    Married 6 years
    Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

    TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
    May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
    September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
    October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
    Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
    November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
    No longer benched per New RE/OB!
    Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
    Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
    March 2, 2014 First AF


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  • MJC1116MJC1116 member

    imageDTNZ4Ever:
    I hate that during the 2ww that I check my possible due date. Fantasize about maternity leave, this hypothetical baby, the sibling relationship with DS. I hate that I do this just to be disappointed. Every month I saw I won't do it but I do. Makes me so mad!

     

    Yep! I do it all.. even worse, I start looking at maternity clothes. It's a sickness for me, really. I wish I knew how to turn it off! This month I feel so optimistic about everything since we are doing an IUI cycle for the first time. Last night I even had a dream where I saw a positive hpt, something I haven't seen in dreams or reality in over 4 years. So now I'm afraid I'm setting myself up for the ultimate disappointment.

    At the very least, this "guilty pleasure" keeps me invested and somewhat optimistic about the whole sucky IF thing. The aftermath is painful, though. 

    DH & I: 29
    TTC #1 4/2009 -  DD 2/5/10
    TTC #2 since October 2011
    2IF issues
    7/2013 - IUI #1: 50 units Follistim +  Ovidrel  = BFN
    8/2013 - IUI #2: 50 units Follistim +  Ovidrel  = BFP! Beta #1 (12 dpiui) 8/21: 45  Beta #2 (16 dpiui) 8/26: 301 Beta #3 (21 dpiui) 8/30: 1,929. 1st Ultrasound 9/4 - One perfect sac. 2nd Ultrasound 9/13 - Heartbeat at 124 bpm! Anniversary  

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  • tryingyetagaintryingyetagain member

    I totally do the due date calculator pretty much the day I start my period, before I have even ovulated.  It is a sickness!  Maybe the month I don't do that, I will actually get a bfp!  I need to stop, and try that theory out!

    Me: 42. DH: 46.

    1st Pregnancy: MC, 11/19/00.

    2nd Pregnancy: DS born 04/10/06.

    3rd Pregnancy: CP, 03/11.

    4th Pregnancy: MMC, D&C 11/30/11, Genetic testing revealed Trisomy 4.

    5th Pregnancy: Ectopic, 2 doses of Methotrexate unsuccessful, surgery 4/10/12, right tube removed.

    Tried Letrozole January 2013-July 2013 (including 2 IUIs), all BFN.  After 2 1/2 years of trying for child #2, decided to "give up" after July cycle, based on AMA.

    August 16, 2013:  BFP our first month of "not trying!"  Still in shock.  Beta #1 (14dpo): 183.  Beta #2 (17dpo):  611.  Ultrasound 8/30/13: baby measured 6 weeks, 1 day, heart rate of 118 bpm! 
    Ultrasound 9/13/13:  8 weeks, heart rate of 176!
    Baby is due 4/26/14

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  • DTNZ4EverDTNZ4Ever member
    imageMJC1116:

    imageDTNZ4Ever:
    I hate that during the 2ww that I check my possible due date. Fantasize about maternity leave, this hypothetical baby, the sibling relationship with DS. I hate that I do this just to be disappointed. Every month I saw I won't do it but I do. Makes me so mad!

     

    Yep! I do it all.. even worse, I start looking at maternity clothes. It's a sickness for me, really. I wish I knew how to turn it off! This month I feel so optimistic about everything since we are doing an IUI cycle for the first time. Last night I even had a dream where I saw a positive hpt, something I haven't seen in dreams or reality in over 4 years. So now I'm afraid I'm setting myself up for the ultimate disappointment.

    At the very least, this "guilty pleasure" keeps me invested and somewhat optimistic about the whole sucky IF thing. The aftermath is painful, though. 



    I totally look at maternity clothes too. We have 2 wedding one in Nov and one in Dec. DH and DS are in the Nov wedding so I need a fancy dress so of course I was looking at maternity dresses. So mad at myself.
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