I think I am out - for good...

*sparky*

I don't know if I can handle the cycles of charting, TTCing and waiting, and getting a BFN anymore.  I am terrified of another MC.  This month looked really promising but AF showed again this morning, and I knew it was on the way.  Yesterday even people posting pictures on FB of their kids together made me want to cry.  I am 41 and just feel like my chances are slim anyway so torturing myself like this is just pointless.

We had talked about moving onto adoption after this cycle so it looks like that will be our path.  I may still come here from time to time because you have all been so good to "talk" to while going through this. 

QOTR

I'm sorry that you were disappointed again this month.   Good luck with your adoption journey and please do check in with us. 

Jacque Sills

Awe, Sparky.......I wish I could give you a Big Warm Hug!  I know exactly how you feel....I am 43 and have been very actively doing this charting/TTCing stuff for over 6 years with consistent disappointment.  I stopped counting, so I wouldn't get discouraged and try to keep my hope alive, but after this first and last IVF cycle that was a failure.  I know how hard it is to get up and dust your knees off and ask yourself, do I want to keep trying on something that just doesn't seem to happen for me?  I have been contemplating the same questions of when to stop and considering adoption and such.  I just know that I will have to keep trying naturally for a bit, while we looking into adoption or whatever God has for us.  I keep asking myself, where is my Mojo?  Lol....Hopefully, I will find it soon!  

Wishing you the best in your journey and do keep us updated on how things are going for you......Take care! 

kelley72

Sorry you are discouraged, I understand the emotional aspect of ttc, I will be 41 in two weeks and also had a miscarriage recently- it does take a toll.

 I hope your day passes smoothly and wish you happiness on your journey, what a beautiful option adoption is for some,I hope  you meet with success and happiness! 

on42

xoxo

jchow009

Best of luck to you and your husband!  I know it is a tough decision and I am sending hugs!

BeckyP005

I am so sorry. I wish you and YH all the best on your adoption journey. Big big hugs to you. I'm sure this wasn't an easy decision but a little boy/girl is waiting for you somewhere! Keep us updated if you feel up to it! Then again I'm always lurking on the adoption board

HeathernSteven

I am sorry, I wish you and your dh peace with your decisions, and i completely understand. Good luck!

MarylandWed

I am sorry! I was at a crossroads between ivf and adoption. We decided to try ivf but I really have come to be very excited for adoption if ivf doesn't work out. Maybe after some time has passed it will become a new and exciting experience for you since ttc has been so disappointing and unfair. I hope it's a quick well as quick as it can be and painless process for you and a much better experience than ttc has been. I hope one day soon you'll look at your child and know it was all worth it and happened as it was meant to. Remember many people can have bio children but not everyone gets to adopt. Good luck.

KateLouise

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I'm really sorry that you've had to reach this point, but I wish you and your DH peace on the journey ahead.

Please visit us whenever you feel like it. You are appreciated around here.