I'm sure a lot of us (for the most part) can say "I hate him!!" but there's got to be days when you look back and miss those mornings that you got to cuddle for a few minutes or that time he tried to make you dinner..I've been having such a hard time lately. LO's dad left when I was 5 months along, I didn't even see it coming. My 11 yr old daughter was my backbone through the break up and I thank God she has been here for me. But I can't help but miss those times when I first began to fall in love with him. We're on talking terms again but it almost hurts more because there always seems to be a memory brought up and it sets me back 2 steps from the strength I grew that week. Its been over a year since we separated but I miss him dearly, miss the thoughts of how our future could be, miss his family...just miss BEING a family.
Re: Ever miss the relationship?
Thanks mama. I remember being pregnant holding onto that glimmer of hope that we might of worked things out by the time LO was born but I gave birth alone...I regret that he wasn't there
So I can relate to you as well. It's such a shame we have to go through this stuff, especially while pregnant.
Yes, I miss the relationship. The whole 2 months that it wasn't a disaster, haha.
I also went to the hospital alone and ended up with a c/s. So, that sucked. I'm slowly coming to terms with things never working out between us, though.
Yea it really sucks to have to have that glimmer of hope, even if you know it's never really going to happen...my emotions are not very logical these days. I give props to you for giving birth alone: you must be really strong! I'm scared of giving birth, and especially doing it alone. But, you have to do what you have to do. I agree it sucks we have to go through all this. I hope it gets better for you.
Sometimes I miss the "idea" of what could have been. But when I sit down and remember what actually happened....I take a deep breath and shake my head and wish him the best. I have faith I made the right decision and a better fish will come along. (For me this is not about BD, but the guy just prior)