First off, I've been lurking a bit. Hugs to those who need them. It seems we are in a drought.
I talked with my RE yesterday. We are going to culture my recurring fluid and I'm going to see a specialty gynecologist to see if maybe a laproscopy surgery would help to correct the problems from my c section.
My RE prefaced with the fact that this is a long shot and may tell us nothing and these procedures may not help. He said every doctor he has consulted with about me said a GC is my only option.
I am also seeking a second opinion to gain some peace with l this. I don't know if I'm up for another surgery.
My RE also said he can be as patient as I am and he will keep trying if I want to. But he said we'd have to take it one cycle at a time and if emotionally I can't handle it anymore, we would have to stop treatment.
I'm letting the idea of not having another baby live in my head and it hurts so much. But after a few weeks of reflectiveness, I'm not ready to give up. I need to feel like walking away is my choice, not my prognosis.
Thanks for reading and for all your prayers. This has been the hardest few weeks I've had maybe ever. And I know we have a long road ahead.
Re: Update on me
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
TTC #1 4/2009 - DD 2/5/10
TTC #2 since October 2011
2IF issues
Me: 42. DH: 46.
1st Pregnancy: MC, 11/19/00.
2nd Pregnancy: DS born 04/10/06.
3rd Pregnancy: CP, 03/11.
4th Pregnancy: MMC, D&C 11/30/11, Genetic testing revealed Trisomy 4.
5th Pregnancy: Ectopic, 2 doses of Methotrexate unsuccessful, surgery 4/10/12, right tube removed.
Tried Letrozole January 2013-July 2013 (including 2 IUIs), all BFN. After 2 1/2 years of trying for child #2, decided to "give up" after July cycle, based on AMA.
August 16, 2013: BFP our first month of "not trying!" Still in shock. Beta #1 (14dpo): 183. Beta #2 (17dpo): 611. Ultrasound 8/30/13: baby measured 6 weeks, 1 day, heart rate of 118 bpm!
Ultrasound 9/13/13: 8 weeks, heart rate of 176!
Baby is due 4/26/14
My thoughts and prayers are with you. I can only imagine what you have been going through... I can relate to the feelings you had when thinking about having an only child...I have had to face that possibility and it hurts so much to even think about walking away without another child.
Not sure if this helps, but I keep telling myself that God must have something wonderful planned for me, as he does for you.
TTC #2 since 6/2010
10/2012 DH diagnosed with Epilepsy
A few failed IUIs summer 2012 and 2013.
DH taking clomid and waiting to see if he needs another vericocele repair.
Hoping for a 2015 baby or babies.
Wishing, hoping, waiting.