My nightmare:(

fouadi

Well yesterday I went in for light bleeding and it turned into a nightmare. I was fully dilated and lost both boys. They were so perfect, I stayed at the doctors throughout the pregnancy, but they still missed it. I loved these boys, they were to young to keep alive, I held them yesterday for about 3 hours and today for 2hours I guess I move on to loss. I came from infertility, to multiples and go to loss. They don't know the cause but they say low lying placenta. I am still in shock, wanting to either feel them kick or take them home. The hospital was amazing with everything afterwards. I never thought I could deliver and hold them, but at least I know I am stronger than I thought. Now I get ready for a burial of my 2 perfect angels:( Hopefully I will be accepted around here.

princezjk

I am so sorry for your loss.  Sending you (((hugs))) and healing thoughts. 

PerkyErky

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I am sorry to welcome you to this board.

Heatherhah

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby boys. Of course you are welocme here even though I hate to have to welcome anyone here. We all j=know how you are feeling. We are all here for you!! Hugs!

Heather

OSUWifey09

***SIGGY WARNING***

 

 

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet boys. It's hard to welcome new people to our board, but this is a very supportive group of ladies, and I hope you do join us. We are here for you. *hugs*

Noethola

I echo Heather. We are sorry to welcome you, but you are absolutely accepted here. I am so very sorry for the loss of your boys. The next few weeks will be very hard. You will never forget or lose the grief, but you will start to handle it differently. Just be easy with yourself right now. Wish I could give you hugs!

meli1025

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby boys.  I wish I didn't have to welcome you here, but you are in a really good place for support.  So many ((hugs)). 

shandorfml2

I'm so sorry for the loss of your boys.... lots and lots of hugs

JessicaG220

I am so, so sorry about your boys.  This is a great group and we all understand your pain.  I hope you will find some comfort here.  Lots of hugs to you!

Dixon813

I am so sorry for your loss - sending you thoughts and prayers.

fouadi

Just feel so empty, I have no idea what to do without them. They were born breathing and beautiful. I feel I need them, I keep looking at there pics which may not be helping, but all I want to do is sleep. I want them so bad to kick, I know I cant have them but I spent a few years to get them. I feel I want to start working on having a baby really soon, I am missing something. I feel the only way to get it back is to start over asap. I wonder if I am alone in this feeling? I just want to talk to doctors just to get things going again. How many months do I have to wait? I am so sick about it.

fouadi

Thank you all so much!