Not looking forward to today

amandager99

After having a terrible dream last night, I'm really not looking forward to today.  I have my postpartum follow up with my OB in an hour.  Hopefully DH will be able to join me and we can get some more answers.  After that we have another appointment to make arrangements for our son to be cremated and pick out an urn. 

The call I got on Tuesday knocked us both down, DH even stayed home from work yesterday.  Emotionally we are both feeling like any small steps we had made over the first 10 days were completely erased.  I feel like I just left the hospital, maybe even worse as now there are a hundred new thoughts and questions running through my mind.

Two things that make me feel a little better, I've found a grief counselor (therapist) I think I would like to start seeing.  I've also started a tumblr/blog (danielparkerbell.tumblr.com) to help me get things out in the meantime and not hold it in.  Posting there seems to give a bit of relief.  I was very active on Facebook before but I just can't do that right now, and I don't want to over load this forum or anyone here.

 

OSUWifey09

***SIGGY WARNING***

 

 

I hope you got some answers today at your appointment. You have been through so much lately; I hope you have some time in the near future to pull away, process what's gone on and just take a break. I'm so sorry you're going through everything you're going through. 

I'm glad you found a therapist; I hope he/she can help you process what's gone on. I also found that blogging has helped me, and it's made others more aware of late losses. I was brutally honest with my emotions, especially in the early days since my loss, and it helped to have an outlet for those emotions.

Sending lots of love and peace your way. 

Noethola

Blogging and journaling are very helpful. I hope that you continue to use it as you go through this lifelong process of grief.

Hopefully today your dr was able to be there for you and help you with next steps. It's great that you have found a counselor that you like. It is very important you find someone who you connect with. I hope you will find your sessions helpful. Lean on us when you need to.

 

shandorfml2

hope both your appointments went ok!