I posted briefly yesterday about a dr appointment with a specialist. He confirmed that my uterine septum was completely unrelated to Ava's stillbirth, and that it was an unfortunate cord accident. He highly suggests having my septum corrected because of the high risk for miscarriage and fertility problems. On one hand, I want the best chance possible to conceive again and carry a baby full term. I don't think I can handle another loss. But on the other, I feel like Ava was conceived without problems and I could carry another baby since it was a freak occurrence. I'm scared of surgery. I scheduled it for next Wednesday. From everything I've read, it's a fairly common and routine procedure. I'm a wreck!
I feel like I'm outside myself watching someone else go through my life... When did life become so complicated? I wish we could all just have the sweet babies that we long for.