Ever since losing Ava I just feel that I am more prone to tragedy and literally everything scares me. It's as if I'm just waiting for the next tragic event to occur. I did have some paranoia about tragedy before losing her but never this bad. If DH runs late and isn't answering his phone, I immediately think that he's been in an accident. If DH takes DS out on a bike ride, I am scared the entire time that they're going to get hit by a car. When I drop DS at daycare I get scared that one of those horrible school shootings will happen there. I'm just literally scared all the time and I don't know how to not live like this. I am the absolute worst passenger in the car too....I grip the door and overreact at the littlest things..it actually causes a lot of arguments when DH and I take road trips. Does anyone find that they are constantly in fear of another tragedy and if so, how do you cope? I've discussed this in therapy but I'm not getting any direction on how not to feel this way. She just basically says that my feelings are understandable. Will this ever go away? I hate that I'm always expecting the worst to occur.
BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.
BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.
BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.
BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section