Miscarriage mentioned
I know many of you saw my update on PgAL, but I just wanted to update here as well.
Sadly, I am going through my second miscarriage after loosing Stella. This is four losses in a row. I have a referral for a fertility specialist, and that is a very hard step to take, even though I know it is a step towards more help and support, it also feels like a last resort. With such a complicated history, I am not sure what direction or treatment will even be beneficial to us.
I can't help but think, if Stella was here I would not be going through this! (or maybe I would). I just wish she was here, I miss her so much. On top of this, my younger cousin is pregnant for the second time and is due about a month before I would have had this baby. I had to take her off my news feed, because I can't stand to see the updates. She constantly posts how much she wants another girl, and I secretly want her to have a boy so badly. This is all so unfair.
Re: Lost another rainbow
Oh Bay! I am so, so sorry hon that you are going through this. It is SO unfair! I actually had my first appointment with an RE yesterday and all I kept thinking was that I shouldn't be here. I should have my baby!!!
(((HUGE HUGS)))
BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08

BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12
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BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13
BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14
No longer trying to conceive.
BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.
BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.
BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.
BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
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I'm so, so sorry Bay. I hope that the specialist can give you some answers - thinking of you and your angels. Lots of hugs your way.
Bay,
I am so sorry. Like others have said sometimes we need a little extra help. Big HUGS. Sorry about the cousin issue.
HUGS
Shawnna
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BFP#2 10/18/13 Blighted ovum 11/25/13
BFP #3 1/31/14 EDD 10/18/14 -- It's a GIRL!
I am so very sorry. Words cannot even begin to express how unfair this is.
As you can see from my history in my signature, we share a similar history of recurrent loss. If you ever want to vent or just talk, please feel free to private message me.You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so very sad to see this post. I'm sorry for the loss of this pregnancy and that you are going through this rollercoaster again. You will be in my t and p in the coming days. Big hugs!
I am so sorry! I hope that the fertility specialist can help. Loosing your rainbow's after Stella is horrible. I do not blame you for taking her off of your news feed. I had to take everyone who is pregnant or with babies at home off of mine... it kills me seeing other pregnant people who were or are due at the same time you would have been. Do not feel bad about how you want her to have a boy. You have every right to feel that way and I know you wouldn't be feeling that way if you were not hurting so bad.
Big Hugs
Thank you all so much. You are all such compassionate and caring people. I am so sad that any of us have to be here, but being here helps so much.
I am hoping to move on quickly from this loss and work on healing emotionally and physically, and to try to enjoy some of the summer.
Tuscan, if you don't mind sharing, I would love to hear about you experience with the RE and what brought you to seek help? Although, I think our situations may be somewhat different, I'd still like to hear how you are dealing with this.