Late Term and Child Loss

Lost another rainbow

Miscarriage mentioned  

 

I know many of you saw my update on PgAL, but I just wanted to update here as well.

Sadly, I am going through my second miscarriage after loosing Stella.  This is four losses in a row.  I have a referral for a fertility specialist, and that is a very hard step to take, even though I know it is a step towards more help and support, it also feels like a last resort.  With such a complicated history, I am not sure what direction or treatment will even be beneficial to us.  

I can't help but think, if Stella was here I would not be going through this! (or maybe I would).  I just wish she was here, I miss her so much.  On top of this, my younger cousin is pregnant for the second time and is due about a month before I would have had this baby.  I had to take her off my news feed, because I can't stand to see the updates.  She constantly posts how much she wants another girl, and I secretly want her to have a boy so badly.  This is all so unfair.    

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BFP #1 Jan. 2011 - mmc Mar. 2011 
BFP #2 Aug. 2011 - My sleeping angel Stella, born April 21, 2012 
BFP #3 Nov. 2012 - mmc Dec. 2012
BFP #4 April 2013 - mc May 2013
BFP #5 Sept. 2013 - EDD 5.24.14

Re: Lost another rainbow

  • Oh Bay! I am so, so sorry hon that you are going through this. It is SO unfair! I actually had my first appointment with an RE yesterday and all I kept thinking was that I shouldn't be here. I should have my baby!!!

    (((HUGE HUGS)))

    BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08
    BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12

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    TTC #3 since May 2012

    BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
    BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13

    BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14

    No longer trying to conceive.

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  • Oh (((((BAY))))) I'm SO SORRY! This really is all so unfair. And I want to TP your cousin for you.
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    BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.

    BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.

    BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.

    BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section

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  • Bay- I am truly so so sorry for you. My heart aches for you so much. I hope you can find help from the specialist. I know they helped me get pregnant each time. Sometimes we just need a little extra help that our ob isn't doing for us. Thinking of you and all of your angels!! Just think Stella is keeping them safe with her until you meet them all again. Hugs to you! Heather
    DS- Brenden born 11/13/93 Missed miscarriage on March 6, 2007 @ 9 weeks D&C on March 8th 2007. Riley Annalise born 2/25/08 ( 3 weeks early weighing 8 lbs 12.8 oz.) Chemical pregnancy 3/2010. Sydney Adriana born sleeping on 9/30/11 weighing 10lbs 3 oz at 38wks 4 days. Trinity Alivia born via c section at 36 wks 4 days weighing 9 lbs. 5.7 oz. She is our amazing rainbow baby!!! Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie First Birthday tickers PGAL buddy drvst8
  • I am so sorry! Sending lots of love and hugs

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    I'm so, so sorry Bay. I hope that the specialist can give you some answers - thinking of you and your angels. Lots of hugs your way.
     

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  • Bay,

    I am so sorry. Like others have said sometimes we need a little extra help. Big HUGS. Sorry about the cousin issue.

    HUGS

    Shawnna

    TTC #1 since 10/2010 RE consult 6/2011 PCOS (known) MFI IVF #1 w/ICSI 2/2012 BFP TRIPLETS our angels grew wings at 19.5 weeks 6.25.12 IVF #2 2/2013 Sono shows tissue Hysteroscopy needed Changing RE www.chasingstarsisbettertogether.com Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers ~~~all welcome~~~
  • I am so sorry. I am praying for you!

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    BFP#2 10/18/13  Blighted ovum 11/25/13

    BFP #3 1/31/14 EDD 10/18/14 -- It's a GIRL!

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  • I am so very sorry Bay. I am in tears for you right now. This is just so awful and wrong.


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    Hoping to bring home #3 due 9/9/15
  • I am so very sorry.  Words cannot even begin to express how unfair this is.

    As you can see from my history in my signature, we share a similar history of recurrent loss. If you ever want to vent or just talk, please feel free to private message me.You are in my thoughts and prayers.  

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    I am so very sad to see this post. I'm sorry for the loss of this pregnancy and that you are going through this rollercoaster again. You will be in my t and p in the coming days. Big hugs!
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  • Oh Bay, I am so, so sorry to hear this. Huge hugs to you. 
  • Oh bay I am so very sorry that you are losing another LO. I wish I could hug you tight and cry with you. This is so very unfair. I hope the fertility specialist is able to help you bring home a baby in your arms.
    Lilypie - (qptF)


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  • I am so sorry! I hope that the fertility specialist can help. Loosing your rainbow's after Stella is horrible. I do not blame you for taking her off of your news feed. I had to take everyone who is pregnant or with babies at home off of mine... it kills me seeing other pregnant people who were or are due at the same time you would have been. Do not feel bad about how you want her to have a boy. You have every right to feel that way and I know you wouldn't be feeling that way if you were not hurting so bad. 

    Big Hugs 


    Julius Justin - 11/07/2002 - 10 lbs 22 in 
    Isabella Genavieve - 02/03/05 - 7 lbs 11 oz 22 in 
    Arianna Kaitlynn - 04/10/2013 - 4 lbs 15 oz 15 in

    BFP 08/10/13 
    TWINS!!!! 09/01/13
    Miscarriage at 12 weeks lost baby B 
    Arianna diagnosed with an Ompalocele at 13 weeks
    Arianna our Angel on 04/10/13 
    BFP 07/20/13
    Our Rainbow due 03/18/14 


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  • I am so so sorry!!! This is not fair and it sucks! I'm crying for you. BIG HUGS!

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  • Thank you all so much.  You are all such compassionate and caring people. I am so sad that any of us have to be here, but being here helps so much.

    I am hoping to move on quickly from this loss and work on healing emotionally and physically, and to try to enjoy some of the summer.

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    Oh Bay! I am so, so sorry hon that you are going through this. It is SO unfair! I actually had my first appointment with an RE yesterday and all I kept thinking was that I shouldn't be here. I should have my baby!!!

    (((HUGE HUGS))) 

    Tuscan, if you don't mind sharing, I would love to hear about you experience with the RE and what brought you to seek help?  Although, I think our situations may be somewhat different, I'd still like to hear how you are dealing with this. 

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    BFP #1 Jan. 2011 - mmc Mar. 2011 
    BFP #2 Aug. 2011 - My sleeping angel Stella, born April 21, 2012 
    BFP #3 Nov. 2012 - mmc Dec. 2012
    BFP #4 April 2013 - mc May 2013
    BFP #5 Sept. 2013 - EDD 5.24.14
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