Do you ever just want to scream at your body? I am so pissed at my body right now.
I am already at terms with the fact that it won't be creating eggs to make a genetic child. Fine, that's life. That's my "normal". Well as a follow-up to my blood draw post-miscarriage, we noticed my liver enzymes were elevated. An ultrasound showed nothing to worry about and I thought I was out of the woods. Until yesterday my PCP called with blood results and said I tested a "weak positive" for "smooth muscle antibodies" which could be indicative of autoimmune hepatitis. I had never heard of this, but upon reading about it, it's serious, it can require years of steroids to put it into remission and can even lead to requiring a liver transplant if it doesn't go into remission. Terrifying! I've never really felt like "why me" throughout all of our battle with IF but I'm really feeling very "why me" today. I have an appointment tomorrow morning and also Tuesday to check it out and I have a feeling they are going to want to do a liver biopsy. I am just sick of this stuff. I'd love T&Ps that somehow these antibodies mean something less scary and I am okay and life will go on as normal. I had to vent. Thanks for listening.