Two months but feels like forever

PerkyErky

Today is two months since we lost our daughter, Alice. It is also my brother and my husband's birthdays.  I have been on edge and feeling stressed out all day. I am short tempered and easily frustrated. I could not figure out why I was having such a hard day. Especially since it has been a long weekend for me (4 days) and a really good weekend overall.  Family and friends all came over to our house for a bbq and cake.  Once everyone left and I had a minute to sit and breathe I realized what today was.  It was like getting gut punched. No wonder I am having a hard day, my sub conscious knew. 

My heart is really hurting today. 

shandorfml2

For the first 2 months or so after losing Ana, Saturdays I'd always have a hard time. I had a bad day yesterday too. I decided to go into her room. Ugh haha maybe not the best idea! It's like time stopped....going in there reminded me of the weekend before she was born, when we finished her nursery. Everything in there is like time stopped. I aired out her room and looked at her stuff. Definitely cried for a bit. So horrible. Makes it more real I think. I understand what you mean....2 months (3 for me) seems like a lifetime....

Noethola

Milestones are very difficult to pass. Its hard to (and hard not to) count the weeks and months since we have lost our sweet babies. Time moves so slowly in ways, and yet going through something like this makes you feel like YEARS have been removed from your life. Big hugs to you!