UPDATED: Discouraged (kind of long)

ttuprincess

So....RE called and told me to come in this afternoon so they could give me a progesterone shot to kick start this cycle since it has gone on forever.  They were looking at the biopsy for two things (1) am I ovulating on my own and (2) am I ovulating "in phase".  

Well, I ovulated on my own but it definitely wasn't in phase.  Based on the biopsy results, the bw they did this cycle, and my failure to start my cycle RE wants to move onto IUI next cycle.  They want to do injects + trigger + IUI

This was a huge blow to me since I had my hopes up after I ovulated on my own that we could just keep trying TI for a few cycles.  RE said we could do that but he sees very little chance of success and with the endo we are kind of on a ticking clock before we have to start worrying about that again.  

I asked about doing injects + trigger + TI.  RE said we could try that for one cycle but since we are OOP for fertility treatments he would suggest going straight to IUI. 

I am not a crier.  It is part of what makes me a good lawyer...I am prickly.  But, I cried the whole way home.  I am really struggling.  I think more so because I had my hopes up that we would be able to do this on our own and now we are moving to such a huge step.  I also feel so bad because the problem is all me....DH is "excellent".  

Thanks for reading.  I needed to get this off my chest and I knew you guys would understand.   

UPDATE: 

Thanks to all for the kind words.  You ladies are awesome.  DH and I had a long converation last night complete with lots of crying (by me).  We have a bunch of questions and are not really comfortable jumping into IUI just yet.  At the biopsy the RE had talked about maybe slowly easing me into clomid.  Not sure how we got from zero to 60 so fast but we want to slow down and discuss our options before we make any decisions.  If, in fact, IUI is the next step, we won't start this cycle as we want some time process and plan personally and financially. 

I called RE's office and talked to a different person that I spoke with yesterday and she was VERY understanding and kind.  She said RE, the main fertility nurse, and the lady I spoke with would discuss on Monday and call me so we can either schedule an appointment with both me and DH to come in and discuss or discuss on the telephone. 

I feel a lot better and DH and are both more comfortable taking a step back for a minute.  Although we are okay if we need to go straight to IUI but we want to have some time to really make sure we are comfortable with the decisions before we rush into anything. 

Meemeelee

I TOTALLY get it. I'm not that far along treatment-wise, but I understand the feeling. I get the crying. I also feel like its all "me" sometimes.

As someone who is completely stalled in regards to testing and treatment, be glad that you have the option to move forward! I know it's scary. And expensive. But if it works... none of that will matter in the end. Do what you feel is best for you. Hugs!!

RunCC37

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling down. <<<hugs>>> coming your way!

ricecakes1216

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this.

monimu13

So sorry you got that news today, I hope you find an option that you are comfortable with.

jfb29

HUGS!  I'm sorry you didn't get the results you were hoping for.  I hope your RE's plan works.  I'm not a crier either - I cried almost the entire week and Monday, so just know you aren't alone.  There is something about IF that just completely breaks my heart, but all you can do is let it out and get up and start walking again!

ttuprincess

Thanks for the kind words, ladies.  I have finally calmed down some.  

RoccoStar

Sometimes it feels like for every hopeful day there are so many discouraging ones.  Wishing you more hopeful days ahead

BethK22

I'm so sorry you are having a rough day. Sending you hugs.

mmhopeful

I'm sorry you were crying.  I AM a crier and frankly, reading your post made me tear up.  I know it's a big step, but it's the goal that matters most.  We have unexplained IF so I struggle with the "not knowing".....I can only imagine how you feel, but I try to remember "if God brings you to it, he'll bring you through it."   This is what is getting me through sometimes.  Night!