Weird Mother's Day

AprilDrew04

I had a really nice Mother's Day.  Went to church with DH and DD and then to visit my mom with DD.  Even got to see my niece and SIL, who I haven't seen in a while.  

Anyway, the thing that made it weird was that I should be thrilled to even be celebrating Mother's Day, but I felt sad too.  At church there are several new babies, and a mother of 3 who is pregnant.  What really hit me was seeing a couple whose daughter is slightly older than DD walk in with a new baby.  They aren't always at church, so I didn't know they were having another.  Well it made me feel really sad, like I wanted to cry - in church.

I've been doing pretty well and wasn't expecting the feelings.  Anyone else have a sorta weird or off Mother's Day?  What did you do to celebrate? 

mlamping

Totally can relate! I hope next holiday next year you have an additional LO

tryingyetagain

I have moments like that too.  I'm so sorry, and it's painful to feel that way on Mother's Day, but I understand completely.  It's just another reminder of how much you want to experience motherhood again. 

For the most part, we had a really nice day, but for some reason I had a breakdown after DS went to bed.  It just hit me all over again how unfair the ectopic was.  Having to terminate a pregnancy that was so wanted really messed me up.  It was a weird way to end Mother's Day, and I wish I could just get past all of this!

MJC1116

I felt the exact same way, especially at church on Saturday night. Then on Sunday, my husband graduated from his MBA program, and I had similar feelings. IF has turned me into a really judgmental person. I look at pregnant women or women with infants and I think "SHE can get pregnant, and I can't?!" I know that's such a terrible thing to think and feel. It makes me feel jealous but then ashamed for even feeling that way.

My husband keeps reminding me that it always seems so easy when you are a stranger looking in, but the reality is many women struggle from IF. Maybe that woman's miracle was a result of years of trying. I don't know. I try not to judge, but it's really hard when you are surrounded by bumps.

Good luck to you and I pray that all of us have our special surprises before next mother's day!! 

slstine19

I broke down also.  But my reason is that I am soooo thankful to have my son.  He is the light of my life.  I love being a mom and he is wonderful.  Yes, I would definitely like another.  I had to laugh at myself because I was that way last year also.  I wonder how many years this reaction will last???

MJC1116

April, I just noticed your ticker...was your DD born 2-2-10? Mine was born 2-5-10

AprilDrew04

MJC1116:

 IF has turned me into a really judgmental person. I look at pregnant women or women with infants and I think "SHE can get pregnant, and I can't?!" I know that's such a terrible thing to think and feel. It makes me feel jealous but then ashamed for even feeling that way.

Exactly!  I feel the same way about what IF has done to me.  I get judgmental and bitter about other people with multiple children, and then feel bad for even feeling that way.  I hate that my want to love another little person, makes me not a nice a person as I would like to be.

AprilDrew04

MJC1116:

April, I just noticed your ticker...was your DD born 2-2-10? Mine was born 2-5-10

2-24-10, but I also noticed how close in age they were.  Too bad we don't live close to each other, we could get together for a play-date. 

We are also going to be trying IUI in June.   

MJC1116

I am embarrassed by my horrible attempt at math! :P

 I know!! That would be so great to have a RL friend with a DD same age and going through IUI at the same time! I'm in CA.. where are you? Who knows? Maybe we will get lucky and have happy results when at the same time, too  Lots of luck! 

AprilDrew04

I'm in Iowa.  That would be awesome!  Hoping for the best for both of us...here's to us being KU by the end of the summer.

mrsbnlmel

I also understand the weird feelings surrounding Mother's Day. I tried so hard to be happy. And when my son brought me his card and was so proud of himself, I was happy- really happy and really grateful to be his Mom.But I also can't help but think back to two years ago on that same day. We had just found out we were expecting #2. We were so thrilled only to end up in beta hell for weeks before losing the pregnancy. It's a wonderful day but also such a harsh reminder of what we still don't have 2 years later.