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TTC after 35
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It's Over.
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in TTC after 35
Hi.
I am sharing this here first.
I am done with fertility treatments.
After 3 IUI's
Three of my own IVF's
One fresh DE cycle
One frozen DE cycle
Lots of tears and heartache
Lots of mood swings
Lots of injections
It is over.
I am not electing to do the myomectomy.
I am almost fortyfive.
There is no guarantee on my last two cryopreserved blasts.
So, my beloved DH and I have made the agonizing decision to stop.
I want to sincerely thank each and every one of you, for your compassion, support, encouragement, and comfort in knowing that I was never alone in this roller coaster called unexplained infertility.
Best to you all.
Heather
I am sharing this here first.
I am done with fertility treatments.
After 3 IUI's
Three of my own IVF's
One fresh DE cycle
One frozen DE cycle
Lots of tears and heartache
Lots of mood swings
Lots of injections
It is over.
I am not electing to do the myomectomy.
I am almost fortyfive.
There is no guarantee on my last two cryopreserved blasts.
So, my beloved DH and I have made the agonizing decision to stop.
I want to sincerely thank each and every one of you, for your compassion, support, encouragement, and comfort in knowing that I was never alone in this roller coaster called unexplained infertility.
Best to you all.
Heather
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Re: It's Over.
My Ovulation Chart
Me: 41 DH: 46. We are TTC our 1st, started July '11,
3 cycles clomid with Ob,
1 cycle Tamoxifen with Ob,
Diagnosed PCOS 11/5/12
clomid, trigger & timed bd 12/12 BFN
1st clomid IUI 1/4/13 BFN.
2nd clomid IUI 2/13 cancelled didn't respond to clomid.
3/15/13 scheduled laparoscopy & on bcp.
May 10 IUI from injectibles - BFN
May 22 done with interventions it will either happen or it won't.
February 2014 No longer actively trying, but not preventing.
SURPISE BFP 4/2/2015!!!!!!!!!!
Miscarriage 4/23/15
Married August 2012. Me: 41 DH: 42
Daughter from previous marriage: 20
BFP 12/19/12: Ectopic discovered at 8 weeks, right tube removed 01/18/13
June 2013 Testing Results: Progesterone: 31.7, LH: 5, FSH: 5, Estradiol: 161
Clomid cycles Nov. 2013 and Jan, Feb, and March 2014
TTC journey over as of the end of October 2014
TTCAL BLOG
All ALers welcome!
Ticker
Heather, I'm so sorry that you are at this place. You have been through so much and have always remained so positive and supportive of everyone else throughout. I'm so sorry.
I am so sorry, but I understand your decision. I wish you nothing but luck and piece in your future. You were the first person I read a post from and you gave me so much hope. Thank you for all that and I hope you find some relaxation in the future.
HUGE HUGS!
Heather,
I am new on here. i hope you find peace and happiness. I am so sorry for what all you have gone through.
Me-39, HSG 2/13- clear. DS-IUI #1-3/13,300iu Menopur 12 days,3 days Cetrotide, Ovidrel Trigger-BFN. IUI #2 06/13, BFP EDD: 02/22/14 m/c (cp), IUI #3- BFP EDD: 5/17/14 m/c 09/13. Blood work/RPL panel- nk cell/MTHFR mutation- negative. Blood work all good. Unexplained reason for m/c. IUI #4 BFP m/c (cp) 10/13. IUI #5- 12/13 Cancelled. No response. (1)follicle. IUI #5.1- 2/14. IVF Bound
********************SAIF/ PAIF/ ALL ARE WELCOME***********************
Ticker warning
I am so sorry. You have been so strong and positive throughout this journey. I wish you peace.
I don't post over here very often but just wanted to say I am so very sorry that your journey has brought you to this point. I wish you peace as you move forward and nothing but happiness on the other side of this difficult transition. You are in my thoughts & prayers. (((((Huge hugs)))))
***SIGNATURE WARNING***
TTC #1
Me 42, DH 47
Dx = AMA/DOR, MFI
IVF/ICSI #1 = BFN
IVF/ICSI #2 = BFP; early loss
IVF/ICSI #3 (DE) = BFP; early loss
FET = BFN
IVF/ICSI #4 (DE w/ CCS) = BFP
Beta #1 @ 10dp6dt = 265; Beta #2 @ 14dp6dt = 1251.
1st U/S @ 6w2d showed one perfect little heartbeat!
2nd U/S @ 7w2d. HB 132 & everything measuring on track.
Our beautiful little girl arrived January 2015!
I think I can say that I am the only one on this board who knows what you are feeling right now. Walking away with empty arms is actually harder than continuing to pursue treatments. You will have hard days ahead as you will debate whether you made the right decision. I know this because I do it all the time. I'm hoping that at some point the good days outnumber the bad days. With Mother's Day approaching, it is hard to keep your head above water. I wish you peace as it would be wonderful to not feel this aching pain you have right now.
If you want to join me on the private childfree Facebook group, send me a PM. The group isn't big but it has been helpful to me to have a place to vent and to have a safe childfree zone.
Hugs (((()))))
TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
DE IVF #3 1/14 ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d
DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!
K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days
SAIF/PAIF Welcome
http://waitingforraintostop.wordpress.com
************** Siggy Warning************
Married August 2012 -- Me (40 yrs old) My husband (45 yrs. old)
RE referral from ObGYN in late Jan. 2013 -- Testing Confirms Unexplained IF
IUI #"s1 - 3 (Femara + IUI) April - June 2013 - all BFN
Decided to do IVF... Began stimming on September 10th! Egg Retrieval 9/20/13. 19 eggs: 6 to mature to freeze after 6 fertilized with ICSI
3 morula stage embryos transferred on 9/25/13.....Beta #1 on 10/4/13/ = 7.5 Beta #2 on 10/6/13 = negative
IVF#2 - Lupron plan (set to begin on 10/28/13) (Planning on thawing and fertilizing our 6 eggs with ICSI as well as all of the mature eggs they retrieve with this fresh cycle.)
Late October 2013 - ectopic pregnancy - methotrexate injection....benched 3 months
CD1 - 12/5/13...Lupron set to start on 12/26/13; CD1 - 1/2/14....Baseline 1/3/14....begin follistim tonight and continue with lupron. (Got my calendar today! IVF#2 is a go!)
ER = 1/14/14 (11 eggs....9 were mature. 9 fertilized. Of the 6 mature eggs we thawed, only 4 fertilized. At this time, we have 13 eggs fertilized and growing. Waiting for news about a 3-day or 5-day transfer.)
ET = 1/19/14 (5dt).....3 blastocysts transferred! (All nine embryos didn't make it to freeze. =( )
Beta #1 = 1/28/14 (2 weeks after ER) BFP! 209 (9dp5dt) EDD 10/7/14
Beta #2 - 1/30/14 (11 dp5dt) 302
Beta #3 - 2/3/14 (15 dp5dt) 1222
Ultrasound set for 2/17/14......TWINS! Twin A - HR 124 bpm; Twin B - HR 126 bpm
Final Ultrasound with RE 3/10/14 - Twin A - HR 176 bpm; Twin B - HR 177 bpm.
PAIF/SAIF Welcome!
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Heather,
My heart aches for you and what you and your DH are going through. I can't find the words to express what I want to say, I just know that I wish you much peace as you move forward and hope that you find much deserved happiness in your future.....
You will truly be missed here, you were such a wonderful source of support and brought much lightness and laughter in this dark place of IF.....
Sending you BigBig Hugs, again....you will be missed. Take care of yourself, girlfriend.
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Heather, I have followed your story for some time and just wanted to offer support for you during this time. please take care.
DS born via unplanned C-section at 40w6d
Ticker warning
Heather, I am so sorry that you find yourself at the crossroads of being unable to continue with treatments. IF is all consuming and it's not fair that you can walk valiantly through it and not walk out with the family that you are seeking. Big (((hugs)))
This truly breaks my heart. I really hoped things would work out for you. I am so sorry. Thank you for the support you gave me when I was on this board. I too hope you will find some peace. xoxo
Me:36 DH:38 TTC#1 since 4/2012
Me DX: Hashimotos,Hypothyroid, DOR, MTHFR, DH: normal
IUI #1-#4 BFNs and a few cancelled cycles in the mix.
- poor responder
***Suprise BFP on 6/13/13. Natural MC @6wks 3days
IVF#1 and 2- Cancelled due to no response on max stimms
FET 5/20- BFP
1st Beta- 641
2nd beta- 2166
Sono- TWINS!!!!
Two Boys! Born January 2015 @36 weeks. Healthy and no NICU! So blessed!
I totally understand.....I get it... we too have ended our journey. It makes me sad to know that other people are dealing with this horrible pain, it is relentless Peace to you and your husband.
5 cycles of Clomid with satisfactory response=BFN's
Fibroid removal Nov2010
IUI Clomid #1 Feb 2011...BFN..damn it!
IUI Inject's #2 Apr 2011...CANCELLED...low estradiol
IUI Inject's #3 June 2011...BFN
IUI Inject's #4 Sept2011...BFFN
Lap Dec 2011...severe endo..cyst removed..some remains...
IVF#1 Apr 2012 ....cancelled due to over suppression
IVF#2 July 2012....6 follies...only 1 retrieved....BFFN
surgery suggested to move ovary to an better placement but....we moved two time zones away and are financially and emotionally empty
BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010
BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011
BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013
BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy. Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)
BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014
Heather I'm so sorry to read this. You were always supportive to myself and others on this board and I'm so sorry your journey is ending this way. You will be in my thoughts during this very difficult time.
Me 38 MH 41 - TTC since June 2010 - dx with Severe MFI. Straight to IVF with ICSI. IVF #1 - ER 06/13/12 - 9 Eggs Retrieved - 4 ICSI'd - only 2 fert. 06/15/12 - 2DT - 3 cell & 6 cell with fragmentation. Beta 06/29/12 - IVF #1 = BFN. 07/20/12 - WTF Appt -Told by our RE to quit IVF. Second Opinion from RE is good. IVF#2 - November 2012. Estradiol Pills Started 11/6. Stims start 11/16. ER 11/26 - 7 eggs retrieved - all mature. 4 fertilized with ICSI. ET 11/29 Transferred 3 embryos. Beta is 12/10. 1st Beta 81 2nd Beta 160 and 3rd beta 360!!! First U/S 12/21/12 - We saw one beautiful gest. sac. 2nd U/S is 01/04/2013 - H/B 183 02/05/13 - NT Scan - everything looks good and IT'S A BOY! Aiden was born 08/20/2013.
IVF #2 is in progress. ER was 05/12/14 - 11 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized with ICSI. ET was 05/15/14 - we transferred 3 embryos as we did on the cycle my son was conceived. We were able to freeze 3 embryos. Beta is scheduled for 05/26/14. 1st beta - 111. 2nd beta - 159 didn't double
3rd beta Friday 5/30) - not a lot of hope left. Beta # 3 is 247 - probably ectopic. Beta # 4 is 813 - possibly vanishing multiple sydrome? 06/05/14 - 5w4days - first U/S - we see a gestational sac and yolk - still have hope! 06/17/14 - 7w1day - U/S and saw and heard the heartbeat - Finally! 06/27/14 - 8w4days - Baby and heartbeat look and sound great 
EDD 02/01/14 and It's a boy!
"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
Mothers Day will be true testament to my strength and resilience, this is the first one when reality is really slapping my face.
I want to thank each of you for all the care, kindness and support.
I truly mean this, you cannot imagine how the knowledge of feeling part of something like this site and knowing I'm not alone means the world to me.
Now I'm going to figure out how to PM and get on the Facebook page.
Best to you all!!!
1st BFP-8/17/12! Missed Miscarriage discovered @ 8 week US. D&C.
2nd BFP-2/13/13! Blighted Ovum discovered @ 8 week US. Natural miscarriage.
3rd BFP-5/22/13! By early June, progesterone plummeting. Another loss.
August 2013 - started Donor Egg process, but surprise BFP with my own eggs.
Dear Son born 5/28/14
Heather I am so sorry that you have come to this decision. It takes a very strong person to make that decision. I am getting to that point & I haven't even gone through anything you have been through - no IUI or IVF. RE said IUI would be a waste for us & that IVF with ICSI was our only option (we are not covered by insurance for this & the odds: a 15% chance of a BFP outcome does not sound too promising - DH said he would pay, but he is worried of a big heartache for me if it didn't work. I personally did not like the odds either & agreed, it was not worth the heartache).
I wish you peace on your journey. Sending {{{{hugs}}}} your way!
Do what we have been doing, vacationing. It gets your mind off the ttc journey.