Update: Spoke with RE

KristyLynn26

So I was able to move my beta up to today because I wanted to stop the Crinone and get it over with. Just like expected it was a big fat zero! I broke down and cried at my doctors office (even though I swore I wouldn't do that) ARGH! 

Shorty after they called to tell me it was zero my doctor called back himself to talk. I seriously love my doctor but I told him I'm just tired. Its been a year of constant fertility drugs, office visits, and surgeries. He said he is just as frustrated and has no real answers as to why I can't get pregnant again. He said the next step is another Laproscopy

I had one three years ago with my OB right before I began seeing my RE when we were dealing with primary infertility and my OB found nothing. I know things can change in three years but I'm dreading it... yet I'm still going to do it. I guess I'm still not willing it give up deep down.

So I guess the plan is lap next then either injectables + IUI again for a round or two (that's all we have left under our insurance) or use our last round of IVF. This is literally all we have left. I even told my RE if this doesn't work we just don't have it to try anymore.

I feel broken and 2IF is definitely taking a harder toll on me than primary IF ever did. Any thoughts or prayers are much appreciated. Thank you again ladies for all of your support and just being here to let me vent and get everything off my chest.  It really does mean the world.  

huskermama

I'm so sorry....sometimes IF just doesn't seem fair! Hope things get better soon. Hugs!

SigmundsGirl

Big hugs to you. I am so sorry. Like you I had IF issues when trying to concieve DS, and this time around has been even harder emotionally. I figured it would be easy since we knew what was wrong and how to fix it. Yeah, if only it were that easy.

A year and a half later, we are in the same place we were when we started TTC #2, but we are older and more tired.

Saying prayers for you and your family.

mlamping

So sorry, that really sucks. I had that happen last month when my IVF failed. I am not looking forward to my FET this week. My ET is Saturday. I wish you all the luck, and send to you a big hug! 

 

Kaselleck

I'm so sorry. hugs. I agree that 2if is so much harder bc we think it will work because it did once before. IF sucks

MJC1116

I'm sending prayers your way that things become easier and less emotionally draining. It's not fair that you or any of us have to struggle so hard to get pregnant...the emotional part really seems to be the worst. Just know that you are not alone. I have definitely felt the despair you feel, crying at the worst times when you tell yourself not to, etc. You are very blessed to have a great doctor who sounds like he shares in your struggles. You are in good hands, I'm sure. Best of luck to you and I will definitely keep you in my prayers.

mama_cito95

IVF definitely sucks the life out of you. Hoping things turn around for you.  

tryingyetagain

I'm so sorry.  This all makes me feel broken too, and I hate it.  I hope you are feeling better about things soon, and that you get that super sticky bfp right after your lap is done.

Good luck to you!