I think it is time for me to make my grand into over here, in the hopes that you will have me. I have loved being a part of the IF board for the past several months, but I just don't feel like I fit in there as much anymore. I know you all get it. Here's my story...
I stumbled across the IF board back in June when we got our infertility diagnosis. Every little thing I researched led me right to the infertility boards, so I knew it was meant to be that I join. We were diagnosed with MFI due to Vericocele. Everything has always checked out clear with me, so we really thought we would have success. Little did we know!
I officially joined the board and started posting in September, when I went through my first IVF cycle. That cycle ended in a chemical. We went through a 2nd cycle in January that turned into an FET in Feb., due to overstimulation. That round also ended in a chemical. After that, my doc recommended we do 1 more round with PGS testing on our embryos, clearly thinking we had an issue with embryo quality. DH also went through with the vericocele surgery in the hopes this would help with the quality issue too down the line. We also were put through the whole RPL panel and did the karyotype testing. Everything came back normal, besides that I have the MTHFR gene. My doc said I have the good mild kind that has never even been shown to cause blood clots, but she put me on Lovenox this round just to be overcautious.
We went through our 3rd round this month and out of 6 embryos tested, 5 came back normal. We were thrilled and thought this round would for sure be it for us! Everything seemed picture perfect. Well, it was another BFN. It is even harder this round knowing we put in 2 perfectly normal healthy embryos. I can't help but feel that I killed them. It is so painful. We are at such a loss as to how this keeps happening. Clearly we do not have an issue with our embryo quality, but there is something wrong with me that has been completely overlooked. I am just so scared now that they might never find anything wrong with me to fix. My results showed a strong immune system, no infections, great blood flow...
I don't know where we go from here. I guess after our WTF, I am going to look into maybe scheduling with Dr. Kwak Kim and calling CCRM for a consultation. I hate living through this pain on a daily basis, but I am in no way ready to give up this fight.
I hope you ladies will be open to me joining you over here. I look forward to "seeing" some familiar faces and getting to know you all. TIA