April

Poppy715

Usually at this time of year I'm thrilled. Spring is here and April means my birthday is fast approaching. This year I am dreading changing my calendar. I made it for H through Picabo. it's filled with pictures of us and our family. April was supposed to be the month when we grew to a family. The calendar has Addies ultrasound picture clear and bright. Our Facebook posts that say I'm going to be a Mommy and I'm going to be a Daddy. We posted at the same time so they showed in our news feeds right next to each other. I am dreading turning from March to April. I know I have to but it's still so hard. 

 Yesterday while we were grocery shopping we picked out a pinwheel for the cemetery. We also got a little butterfly garden ornament to decorate her headstone. We should have been picking out going home outfits. instead I'm decorating a headstone. It doesn't seem real or right. I often can't believe this is my real life. I feel I'm facing things well but I know the upcoming 2 weeks will be difficult. I'll be happy when it's over and I can breath a little easier. 

 ((Hugs)) to the other April mamas. T&P's for you in this difficult time. 

tuscanbride2007

(((HUGE HUGS))) sweetie!

Noethola

Big hugs to you!

angelsnight

(((hugs)))

shandorfml2

It's not fair. We're decorating our girl's headstone this month too. Totally not fair. Hang in there --hugs

BronwynJaede

Hugs to all of you.  I'm 11 days away from the first anniversary - it is such a rough month.

HullGut

Hugs to you, it's just not fair.