Birthdays

Bayberry12

Today is my birthday and I wish is wasn't.

I have gotten cards and texts wishing me joy and happiness and a wonderful year ahead. I don't want to celebrate, how can I have a happy birthday when my joy gone. I just want to tell people to forget about all that happy birthday bs.

Today is just another reminder of how long my daughter has been gone, and how long we have been trying to start a family. We have been trying for 3 years and have had 3 losses.

I feel like time is running out, today I am 34 and its just a horrible reminder that I am getting older and my chances of having a child are slipping away.

I just needed to tell somebody how crappy I feel today, and I know you ladies will understand.

lolee465

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Bay, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I've skipped every holiday or event since we lost Jillian. I get what you mean when you say you don't want to celebrate

Noethola

Oh Bayberry, I am so very sorry again for your losses.

It is so hard to have moments of joy today, when I know it is a reminder of so many missed moments and hopes that have been dashed. Holidays and milestones can be so painful. Hold on to

Bayberry12

Thank you both so much. I am trying to keep it together, but feel I could beak down at any moment.
Just trying to focus on the now and not think too much.

Heatherhah

Happy birthday I totally understand how you are feeling I felt the same way when my birthday came around last year after losing Sydney. I am so sorry for the losses that you have had.

Here is some light I can shed for you. I got pregnant

Petunia844

Big huge hugs, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.  I hope and pray one year you will be able to find joy in birthdays and holidays again, but for now, you do what you have to do even if you just figure it's your birthday and you'll cry if you w

kikibelle

HUGS

angelsnight

I'm so sorry for your losses and sadness on your birthday. This was our second loss and May will be my 34th birthday as well and will mark two years since we started trying so I can relate. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

shandorfml2

Hope and love to you...

I'm worried about my bday, coming up in may. Just sad I won't have my baby with me

jbranden12

I am so sorry, my friend. It is hard to celebrate anything when you are hurting so bad for what should be your life.

weddedwife

I'm so sorry. Last year I turned 35, 3 months after losing Nathaniel. I didn't want to celebrate. It also marked 2 years since we'd been trying for another baby. I just felt so mad that I was having yet another bday when he wouldn't ever even get to have

Bayberry12

Thank you all so much for sharing your personal stories and experiences and for all hugs.
Even though I really didn't do anything yesterday the day was exhausting. But I made it through, and reading your stories did help me put something into pers

Poppy715

Bay I totally understand. My birthday is coming up and I'm dreading it. I want to fast forward and get it over with. it's hard to stay positive and be happy when the thing we wanted most is gone. I'm sorry you are having a rough day. (((HUGS)))