Bad Thoughts, Anxious is it PPD

leahstarrh

My baby was born only 4 days ago. We are home now and I am so scared and nervous all the time. The other day she choked on some spit up and couldn't breathe for like a second, we used a bulb syringe and got out all the mucus and she was just fine and has been just fine since then. I cried and cried it scared me so much. Then I thought of what if something happens and I can't help her? Since then this seems to be all that I can think about. Sometimes I just look at her beautiful little face and want to cry I love her so much and I don't know what I would do without her.

I am a FTM so I know that a certain level of anxiousness and being scared is normal. But I had another emotional crying episode tonight and I'm starting to worry it may be some PPD creeping in. The thought of PPD happening is scaring me even more...

Any thoughts or anyone experience this? What helped ease your fears?

Pink253

Im so sorry your dealing with this. ALthough i've never had PPD (anxiety at other times though) i know exactly how you feel.  My LO has had acid reflux since he was born and it used to really scare me when he would start gagging on his =own throw

leahstarrh

Thanks this makes me feel better. I think we are getting our stride. Now I understand why my mom worried so much!

Starfish+77

My DD is 15 weeks and had several choking incidents due to reflux early on too.  I was so stressed.  I was a mess and like PP, barely slept.  It's under control now with meds and she hasn't had a choking incident in several weeks.