Depressed

CeCe8579

I'm not sure what my body is doing. I stopped temping out of frustration and my RE is being less then cooperative! Sorry to post a pointless vent. I just needed to get it out!

ceebeetee

I had my m/c on 2/12 (just a day before yours from your siggy) and i feel the same way.  i am temping but its all over the place!  97.45 for three days, 97.85 one day, then back down to 97.33 then allll the way down to 97.17.  now back to 97.6.  WTH?  i know your temps can be out of whack for a while but geez.  i am pretty sure i havent ovulated due to my low temps (they always got into the low 98s after o) but who the heck knows.  i am just hoping i actually do ovulate sometime soon! i am supposed to go back for another hcg next week if i havent started my cycle, ugh.  hang in there. 

tryingyetagain

It's hard enough going through a mc, but when you don't feel like your body is moving forward, it just feels like salt in the wound.  I'm so sorry!  What is your RE doing (or not doing)?  Doctors make me crazy!

CeCe8579

Thanks ladies!

Cee, hugs!!!!!!

My RE wants to wait until what we think is another AF comes and then talk....Ugh!

CeCe8579

Also, with each m/c I feel more and more hopeless and like I can't do this any more!

tryingyetagain

Iloveshanej:

Also, with each m/c I feel more and more hopeless and like I can't do this any more!

I hear ya on that.  I've had four losses, and I don't think I could even feel good about a bfp at this point, until a baby is born and in my arms.  I know it's trite, but time really does help me get some perspective.  Once the grieving has lessened somewhat, I find that I do re-focus on what I really want.  DH hates to see me go through loss after loss, and I think he would gladly give up right now not to have to go through the risk of loss again.  But I keep asking myself, will I regret it in a few years (when it really is too late age-wise), if I give up.  For me, the answer is yes, so I keep plugging along.  I just know that I have to do what I can to either have another baby, or know that I did everything I could.  But that is just my situation.  You just have to figure out what you are willing to bear!  Just give yourself some time to get some distance from what you just went through.  It's so hard when it is fresh.  I hope that all doesn't sound too "advicey."

And I hate the RE "just wanting to talk" thing!  Ugh!

CeCe8579

Thank you! At this point, I can't give up. This is my 5th loss but only my 1st with SO. He wants a baby so bad and so do I so we'll keep going! The RE thing is so frustrating!