Late Term and Child Loss
whiteroses05
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Can I have a hug?
whiteroses05
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Warning:very detailed story never shared.
Last year around this time I was getting extremely excited bc my DH and I going to see if we were going to have a boy or girl. We had a whole day planned around it. Instead I am left with horrible memories and a decision to make. During the ultra sound the doctor discovered that our baby had an blatter obstrucion making the bladder inflate to the size of my hand and the baby no bigger than my plam of my hand. This is the part of the story I am afraid to tell many people and many people who are close to me dont even know. We left the ultra sound to see a specialist to do another ultra sound. It was the longest drive of my life only to end with worse news. The doctor turn to me to tell me that there was nothing he could do. I was past the point that they could help. I was told good luck but more than likely just have to let my baby pass away inside me before they could help. I looked my husband heartbroken and angry at the world. We went back the next day for a second oppinion. It wasnt any better than the first. There wasnt any fluid around the baby and the baby hadnt changed. There was still nothing they could do. They basically said i wasnt a viable pregnancy but without the fluid to see they couldnt prove it enough for the hospital to deliver. This left my DH and I with the hardest decision in the world. Do I carry our baby until I lost it or do we end the pregnancy? I never in my life thought I would have to make a decision like this or that this would even happen to us! My h and I love that baby! I had to make a decision as a mom and out of love for my child to not let him/her suffer anymore. To this day I second guess all my decisions. I will never know if I had a boy or girl. I will never get to know is he/she looked like me or my h. I will never get another chance to decide to hold him/her.
Today and always I miss my lo! A part of me wonders if my H will even realize what the next could weeks are. I dont want to bring it up bc I know he cares more weight around with him over it. I also know that he would put the breaks on with ttc again thinking that is what I need. However what I need is just a hug ! We have been through so much in the past two years.We lost first lo to be followed with another miscarriage. I am going to be forced to take a month off of ttc bc of progetrone testing. So here I am asking "Can I have a big hug?" I am sitting here waiting on AF to show up for another month so we can get started with testing. I really hope that you all can understand my story and why I took so long to tell it.
Many hugs to anyone who needs it! Sorry this turned into a book!
Last year around this time I was getting extremely excited bc my DH and I going to see if we were going to have a boy or girl. We had a whole day planned around it. Instead I am left with horrible memories and a decision to make. During the ultra sound the doctor discovered that our baby had an blatter obstrucion making the bladder inflate to the size of my hand and the baby no bigger than my plam of my hand. This is the part of the story I am afraid to tell many people and many people who are close to me dont even know. We left the ultra sound to see a specialist to do another ultra sound. It was the longest drive of my life only to end with worse news. The doctor turn to me to tell me that there was nothing he could do. I was past the point that they could help. I was told good luck but more than likely just have to let my baby pass away inside me before they could help. I looked my husband heartbroken and angry at the world. We went back the next day for a second oppinion. It wasnt any better than the first. There wasnt any fluid around the baby and the baby hadnt changed. There was still nothing they could do. They basically said i wasnt a viable pregnancy but without the fluid to see they couldnt prove it enough for the hospital to deliver. This left my DH and I with the hardest decision in the world. Do I carry our baby until I lost it or do we end the pregnancy? I never in my life thought I would have to make a decision like this or that this would even happen to us! My h and I love that baby! I had to make a decision as a mom and out of love for my child to not let him/her suffer anymore. To this day I second guess all my decisions. I will never know if I had a boy or girl. I will never get to know is he/she looked like me or my h. I will never get another chance to decide to hold him/her.
Today and always I miss my lo! A part of me wonders if my H will even realize what the next could weeks are. I dont want to bring it up bc I know he cares more weight around with him over it. I also know that he would put the breaks on with ttc again thinking that is what I need. However what I need is just a hug ! We have been through so much in the past two years.We lost first lo to be followed with another miscarriage. I am going to be forced to take a month off of ttc bc of progetrone testing. So here I am asking "Can I have a big hug?" I am sitting here waiting on AF to show up for another month so we can get started with testing. I really hope that you all can understand my story and why I took so long to tell it.
Many hugs to anyone who needs it! Sorry this turned into a book!
BFP#1 9/7/11 EDD 7/23/11 mc @21 weeks caused severe bladder obstruction on 3/14/12 
BFP #2 9/9/12 EDD 7/19/13 started to mc @ 8w1d on 12/7/12 ended up with d&c 12/18/12, stopped developing @5w5ds
Unexplained IF
BFP#3 3/3/14 After 1st iui and clomid cycle
beta 1: 137 beta 2: 268
Beta 3:1248 
****Hoping for a rainbow baby!!!****
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Re: Can I have a hug?
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BFP#1 9/7/11 EDD 7/23/11 mc @21 weeks caused severe bladder obstruction on 3/14/12
BFP #2 9/9/12 EDD 7/19/13 started to mc @ 8w1d on 12/7/12 ended up with d&c 12/18/12, stopped developing @5w5ds
Unexplained IF
BFP#3 3/3/14 After 1st iui and clomid cycle
beta 1: 137 beta 2: 268
Beta 3:1248
****Hoping for a rainbow baby!!!****
BFP#1 9/7/11 EDD 7/23/11 mc @21 weeks caused severe bladder obstruction on 3/14/12
BFP #2 9/9/12 EDD 7/19/13 started to mc @ 8w1d on 12/7/12 ended up with d&c 12/18/12, stopped developing @5w5ds
Unexplained IF
BFP#3 3/3/14 After 1st iui and clomid cycle
beta 1: 137 beta 2: 268
Beta 3:1248
****Hoping for a rainbow baby!!!****
BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.
BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.
BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.
BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section
BIG hugs to you. While I can't say for sure what I would do in that situation, I think I would make the same choice. Everyone is different, so it's not like my opinion matters---it's just a "solidarity" thing. I know how you feel just needing a hug. Sometimes my DH doesn't want to "upset" me, but I need to get it out. I need to be a little upset.
We're all here for you though...HUGS again.
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Due with baby boy # 2 in May 2016
DD #1 born January 2014
I am so very sorry that you had to make that decision. Me and my DH had a very similar decision to make. We went in for our 20wk ultrasound to find out that our baby did not have a left kidney or bladder and the right kidney was covered in cysts. They told us that our baby would not make it and we had to make a decision. I understand how hard this is. I will keep you in my prayers.
Sending you the worlds biggest (((Hug))).