I am posting here because I know you ladies understand. Another friend announced their pregnancy to me today. It was done via email which I truly appreciated so I could process it. I am beyond excited of course but why does it still make me cry? I hate that it does because I really can't be happier for them. As you can see from my signature, I have had quite the journey so far over the course of about 3 years so you would think that I would be used to handling this news, My friends have been so incredibly supportive of me and everything that I have been through but I have a very difficult time processing their news and I feel really guilty about that. I was open and honest with my friend today via email and expressed how happy I am for them but that if I don't ask her tons of questions about it isn't personal, just something that I need to do for me.
I understand that it stings because it brings back memories of my pregnancies. However, I think it also stings because I wish I could be so naive again too. Another part of me feels that maybe I will never have a take-home rainbow baby which I know is a twisted way of looking at this. Uggghhh... I feel so selfish and guilty for crying over someone else's happy news.
Anyway, no real point here to this post but I figure you ladies would understand.