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sand&starfish

Hi Ladies -

I've been doing a bit of lurking over the past week or so, and have finally decided to join. My name is Brittany, and our son Nathan was born at 23.5 weeks due to Incompetent Cervix. This was our first pregnancy, and my husband and I were/are shocked as everything up until 23 weeks couldn't have been more perfect. At 23 weeks exactly I started having some bleeding, and within a few hours was admitted to the hospital, on bedrest, and hoping for a few more weeks to give our son a chance. After 4 days on bedrest my water broke, and our son was born 24 hours later. He lived for about an hour in the NICU.

This experience has been, and continues to be, the most up and down experience - more than I could have even imagined. We alternate from being so thankful to have had our son, and only wanting to remember him, my pregnancy and his birth in a positive light, to being so sad at the memories, and trying to figure out where to go from here. I am a planner, and am finding it extremely difficult to be in a place that feels like I'm stuck and out of control, and hope that I'll be able to find some help from this group! 

 

HullGut

I'm so sorry that Nathan is no longer here with you. Grieving the loss of a baby is a crazy Roller coaster ride. I'm glad you posted here. 

OSUWifey09

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Nathan. I lost my son, Devon, back in August at 34 weeks, and it was the most up and down experience for me, too. Even after almost six months, it still continues to be a roller coaster. I'm also a planner, and I spent weeks just trying to figure out where my life would go after losing my son. 

Please be gentle on yourself, and take care of yourself. We are here as support, a shoulder to cry on and a place to vent. I hate to welcome you here, but this board has helped me so much since I lost Devon. I hope we can be the same for you. *hugs* 

jebretz

I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious son. I think everyone here will echo the feelings of not having control. I am also a planner and so am struggling with my life being so out off from my plan. Welcome.

jlcrhw

I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your son Nathan. I hope you find as much comfort here as I have. The ladies here are so wonderful.

Xath

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Nathan.  I think we can all empathize here with what you're going through.  

  

Williamandshawnna

Brittany,

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son Nathan. This is such a roller coaster ride of emotions. Please be gentle with yourself. You have come to the right place for help and support.

-Shawnna

thecuddleeffect

I'm so sorry for you loss of baby Nathan. Big hugs to you in this super difficult time

I lost my babies due to IC as well, please pm me if you ever want to chat. 

Carolee

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Nathan, and I'm sorry you're here, but welcome. I'm also a planner, and that was one of the hardest things for me...having absolutely no control over anything. I hope you find comfort here.

sand&starfish

Thanks everyone - I'm glad I found this board!

CarissaAndMike

So sorry to hear about your son.

MrsZ816

So sorry for your loss.  I don't have much advice to offer you since my loss was only about 10 days ago.  I can definitely agree that feeling so out of control is making everything so difficult.  I hope this board gives you a place to feel less alone and find some support, that is what it is doing for me so far.

Heatherhah

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Nathan. We are all here for you. Hugs!

PinkCamino

I am so sorry for the loss of your son Nathan ((HUGS))