Hi Ladies -
I've been doing a bit of lurking over the past week or so, and have finally decided to join. My name is Brittany, and our son Nathan was born at 23.5 weeks due to Incompetent Cervix. This was our first pregnancy, and my husband and I were/are shocked as everything up until 23 weeks couldn't have been more perfect. At 23 weeks exactly I started having some bleeding, and within a few hours was admitted to the hospital, on bedrest, and hoping for a few more weeks to give our son a chance. After 4 days on bedrest my water broke, and our son was born 24 hours later. He lived for about an hour in the NICU.
This experience has been, and continues to be, the most up and down experience - more than I could have even imagined. We alternate from being so thankful to have had our son, and only wanting to remember him, my pregnancy and his birth in a positive light, to being so sad at the memories, and trying to figure out where to go from here. I am a planner, and am finding it extremely difficult to be in a place that feels like I'm stuck and out of control, and hope that I'll be able to find some help from this group!