I know my story is not new or unique, I'm just still in the shock phase of how this could have happened. My husband and I got pregnant right away when we started trying in December, BFP 5 days before my missed period. I had symptoms, very sore heavy breasts, cravings for grapefruit juice, hormonal roller coaster of emotions. Sunday I felt very uncomfortable, very tired, sore back, cramps just generally not feeling great but I figured, I've had days like that before, I'm pregnant. The cramping had been a common thing throughout. Monday morning I woke up and had brown discharge when I went to the bathroom, still thinking that was normal, I called my Dr and they had me come in for blood work. I went to the lab and then went to work, but when I got to work, the bleeding had become bright red. I panicked, went home, and called again. The bleeding wasn't heavy, wasn't even getting in my underwear, just when I wiped, but the cramps were getting worse. They called and said my Hcg levels were lower than what they'd like, but that it was such a broad ball park and it was still high enough to do an ultrasound so I should come in Tuesday morning when my husband could come with. Around 630 the cramps got worse, and I lost the baby. I'm not going to get more graphic than that because no one needs to be reminded if this has happened to them.
The follow up has been almost as bad as the event itself. The ultrasound to confirm what I knew, the misoprostol to pass the remaining clot, the pain, telling my friends and family, and the confusion about what to do next. The OB says to wait 3 months, the nurse midwife came in right after and said 1 cycle. I'm 26 and ended up having a natural miscarriage so far, is it terrible to try when we're ready? I want to have a normal period before I would consider not using protection, but 3? How can I possibly wait that long? How do you cope? Do I listen to the CNM who was on and off the phone with me all day Monday, or the OB who I just met and talked to me for 7 minutes? Does it totally depend on you?
I don't want advice about how to mourn the loss, I feel like my husband and I need to deal with that in our own way, but how successful are people after this? How long did you wait? How long until you felt physically normal? I'm so lost right now.