I am not ready for this

RachelEric

I have to go back to work tomorrow.    DH has a half day of work tomorrow, so will be picking up DS around noon time from day care.  I am so sad, I don't want to leave LO.  I haven't been away from him for longer than an hour since he's been born.  It's going to be so hard going from being with him all day to just being with him for a few hours in the morning and evenings.  I'm also anxious about being able to pump enough milk at work.  Ack.  I'm going to be a wreck tomorrow.  I hope DH can come with me to drop off DS at daycare.  I have a feeling I'm not going to sleep well tonight, which will just make tomorrow even worse.  I don't want to do this...

angielayne926

Good luck tomorrow.  Take it easy on yourself. Call the daycare if you need to.  Snuggle LO as much as you can tonight and tomorrow morning.  Also, treat yourself to something after you drop him off....it will help a little!

StephRN23

Good luck! Everyone has survived and you will too. That's what I have to keep telling myself. I go back next week and I'm already having anxiety. Hope your day goes well!

jg1011

Im not going to sugar coat it---- it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. I felt like my heart was ripping out of my chest. However, once I got to about 10:30 I was distracted and busy. Before I could think about it again, it was lunchtime. I just really looked forward to 3:30. 

I did 3 days last week. I know tomorrow morning will be hard all over again after 2 days of being with him all day.

You can do this....and one day....may e it will be easier for all of us!

 

Jenner37

Good luck and as PP said treat yourself after the drop off! You will do great and will allow you to appreciate your time with him even more! 

Maebb

Good luck! My first day back was two weeks ago, and it's still hard. I probably look at pictures of him on my phone 20 times a day. I think I'll get some printed to put in my cube. But the good part is, your coworkers will probably be really nice to you, and they'll want to hear all about LO and see pictures. Also, my first week back, I was 30 minutes late for an event, and I was a hot mess. I apologized to my coworker who was organizing the event, and she was so incredibly gracious and kind and said that I was doing great for my first week back, and she has been there before and knows the transition is hard. Hopefully you'll get that kind of support. One more thing, I'm still working on getting organized and getting a system in the morning because it seems like whatever I do, something goes wrong and makes me late. He wants to eat more, pees on his clothes during a diaper change, etc. I know it will get better, but I think I'll start getting up a little earlier until I can get a smooth process in place. Again, good luck!

ironmom5

This is my 5th week back at work, and it's still tough some days. My first day back, I cried the whole drive to work and called the sitter 15 times.

A month in, though, and I have far more good days than bad. I know this sounds flameful, but I'm actually enjoying being back at work. I know S is being well taken care of at school, and I'm doing what is best for my family. I also get to wear real clothes, talk to grownups, and drink coffee while it's still hot. I even get to pee with the door closed. I need that me time to make the time with S less grating and exhausting.

Good luck, and it won't be hard forever.

LovinLife0710

ironmom5:

This is my 5th week back at work, and it's still tough some days. My first day back, I cried the whole drive to work and called the sitter 15 times. A month in, though, and I have far more good days than bad. I know this sounds flameful, but I'm actually enjoying being back at work. I know S is being well taken care of at school, and I'm doing what is best for my family. I also get to wear real clothes, talk to grownups, and drink coffee while it's still hot. I even get to pee with the door closed. I need that me time to make the time with S less grating and exhausting. Good luck, and it won't be hard forever.

THIS! DH is at home with Asa this month, so I know he is well taken care of, and getting back to a somewhat "normalcy" is nice. It's hard, but you can do it. And ironmom is right, it won't be hard forever.