My son was born almost 5 weeks ago. Our journey to have him was pretty rocky, as we lost our first two babies. My pregnancy was, understandably, unbelievably stressful as I was sure we would lose him as well. Looking back, I hardly enjoyed any of it and now miss that experience.
I love my son dearly and I fought for his survival for so long. However, now that he's here, I find myself grieving my old life with DH. I feel like my son deserves so much better. I'm constantly sure he's about to die. At the same time, I just desperately want my carefree life with DH back.
I'm 5 weeks out. Is this normal or should I make a call?
BPF 1. Baby Girl "Petri" 12/22/11 Said goodbye 12/27/11
BPF 2. Baby Boy "Roo" 1/20/12 Heartbeat 160b/m 2/15/12 Said goodbye 2/20/12
BPF 3. Rainbow Baby Boy "Creed" 4/28/12 Born healthy and alive 1/5/13
BFP 4. "Rainbow 2.0" 8/17/14 due 4/28/15
"Darling don't be afraid. I have loved you a thousand years. I love you a thousand more."