Anyone dealing with PTSD?

Bayberry12

I know with traumatic losses like loosing a child, some people are likely to develop PTSD. Today after talking about my stress and anxiety at acupuncture, and describing some pain I was having, I broke down and started crying. Right there in the office in front of a few people.

So the acupuncturist said its likely I'm dealing with PTSD and my body can't heal because my mind is still dealing with this trama.

Have any of you been diagnosed or been treated for this? How are you dealing with it?

starburst0928

I haven't been diagnosed, but my loss group leader said she thought she saw it in me, and that is was common after going through what we have gone through. 

I'm eager too see what others say because I haven't a clue what to do about it.

fluttergirlmoonchild79

I haven't been diagnosed with this but I often wonder if I have this myself. I should probably see someone about this.

lrichmond86

I haven't officially diagnosed with it either, but at a recent appointment with my high risk doc he implied that he thought I did because of some flashback type memories I've had during this pregnancy. I wouldn't be surprised if we all experienced this to some extent since our losses. What we went through was horrific and I think it will continue to impact us both physically and emotionally.

lolee465

This never really crossed my mind, but now that you mention it I just googled the symptoms and have kind of a lot of them. I think they're normal when we go through something so traumatic. I get very vivid flashbacks, and I get a physical response to them. I avoid people and anything that might trigger me. I've cried at every doctors appt I've had since my loss, and that includes just a dermatologist appt..I don't know why, I just can't handle being at the doctors. I would be curious to hear from anyone who is being treated for it. I have thought about going to a therapist, but that makes me so nervous. I taught myself (with youtube) how to crochet, and when I start to feel anxious I've taken out my project and started working on it. It does help me to focus on something else.

Bayberry12

I definitely have some of the symptoms; high anxiety, avoidance of a lot of situations, problems with friends and family, overwhelming emotions.

I can't talk about my daughter without crying.  I did go to therapy, but I hated going and felt like I was being bullied or pushed too hard by the therapist.  I stopped going.  I try to manage my stress by just doing little things to calm myself down.  

It's really hard to think that this is something we could be dealing with for a long time.  I just want to be normal and happy again. 

fluttergirlmoonchild79

Bayberry12:

I definitely have some of the symptoms; high anxiety, avoidance of a lot of situations, problems with friends and family, overwhelming emotions.

I can't talk about my daughter without crying.  I did go to therapy, but I hated going and felt like I was being bullied or pushed too hard by the therapist.  I stopped going.  I try to manage my stress by just doing little things to calm myself down.  

It's really hard to think that this is something we could be dealing with for a long time.  I just want to be normal and happy again. 

Hugs sweetie.  I often think the same thing.  I long to be normal and it makes me sad thinking that I never really will be again.  And when I realize that I'll be dealing with all of this for possibly 50+ years (I'm 33 right now) it makes me sick to my stomach.

AMothersLove92712

phancykat:

I was diagnosed with PTSD before my loss, do to other factors in my life, the loss only exacerbated it. I was seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist. I was medicated and did a lot of talk therapy. I feel it was very productive. The medication balanced me out, which I think helped me work through some of the stuff in therapy that was too overwhelming otherwise.

If you need help, get help. Don't be ashamed. You suffered a major trauma, it's ok to need and ask for help. 

 

ETA: If you felt bullied by your therapist, they weren't the right one for you. Try someone else, if they're not a good fit, try again. It may take you a couple tries to find the one that is right for you.  Feel free to PM me if you have any more questions. 

I also was diagnosed with PTSD in 2010 due to some things in my life. I also have PMDD, so I took YAZ/BYAZ and Fluoxitine. <-Which I wonder if that particular BC contributed to Lillian's abruption...but that's a different post.

Anyways, I went to a therepist who practices EMDR. Here's what came up on my google search, so you can do a bit of research. It doesn't work for all, and I've thought about doing it again since losing Lillian, but I've yet to talk to anyone or go to a support group and I'm not sure I want to try EMDR again, but for therapist reasons. I don't feel like we connected, but I do remember her saying she started the therapy because SHE lost her child, and liked it so much she became certified in the technique.

https://www1.search-results.com/web?l=dis&q=EMDR&o=APN10645&apn_dtid=^BND406^YY^US&shad=s_0041&apn_uid=8805040241324436&gct=ds&apn_ptnrs=AG6&lang=en&atb=sysid%3D406%3Aappid%3D394%3Auid%3D889ac6feedf0532e%3Auc%3D1354340151%3Asrc%3Dieb%3Ao%3DAPN10645