**Ticker warning**
Well it was 16 months yesterday that I delivered my beautiful baby Sydney Adriana. Where does the time go and how have I made it this far along without her beautiful face. I miss her so much and wish she was here to join in on our loving family. But god had other plans I still don't understand.
I did have my rainbow and she is wonderful and I cherish her so much but I still miss my sweet Sydney. She didn't replace her as others think I should be over the loss after this long. I wonder every day what she would be doing how she would look. It isn't fair babies have to die. No one but my loss mommies and dads get it. For that I am happy I would never wish the pain and sorrow that we feel on anyone ever.
I guess the reason for this post is to let the newer loss moms and dads know that after 16 months you can still survive. Now it is tough and some days are much easier than others but you will breathe again and you will look forward but in your own time. There is no time table for grief.
Thinking of my sweet Sydney today and every day!!!!
Heather
Re: 16 Months later
I often ask myself where did the time go? Last year was like a lifetime ago.
It's great to hear how well you are doing. Grief really is a journey and it does change over time. Thank you for sharing so much with us.
Due with baby boy # 2 in May 2016
DD #1 born January 2014
Heather,
Thank you so much for sharing this. It has been 7 months since our losses and you are right today is easier than a few months ago. And with the support of loss moms like you I know there are brighter days to come on this new journey.
HUGS
-Shawnna
All of this. Thank you for sharing Heather. Wishing you peace and love
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
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Jillian Rose- born 8/26/12 at 24 weeks. "It broke my heart to lose you but you didn't go alone, for a part of me went with you, the day God took you home"
I love you always, my beautiful girl.
Hysteroscopy 3/1/13 Dx: Unicornuate uterus
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BFP 3/18/13- Please be our Rainbow, we love you so much already.
6/4/13-Found out we're having a BOY!!
10/30/13-He's here!! Happy Birthday, Ryan! We love you so much! xo
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
I love my rainbow baby; she is precious and amazing. But I love my son too; they are separate and unique. I will never get to know him the way I am getting to know my daughter and it kills me.
Grief is such a strange process, and I agree that having a rainbow baby does not replace the child you lost, nor does it make it all better. It complicates things. So many mixed emotions.
Hugs to you all ladies, I have been MIA.