~*~September Sapphire Sweethearts~*~

twotexans

 (((Hugs))) to all our members, both new and old.  I hope this week is kind to you.

This is an open check-in for those with a loss of a LO and/or EDD in September. We have both ladies from 2011 and 2012.  If you are a recent 2013 loss, welcome.  We are so sorry for you loss.  If you want to join, please introduce yourself and give your EDD to be added to the list.

 

 

Members:
twotexans	9/7/12
hollandpandas	9/9/12
rlajambe	9/12/12
thatlauragirl	9/14/10; 9/30/12
JennOH85	9/15/12
uneek1323	9/16/12
maddielynn321	9/17/11
lovelainie	9/17/12
jrebele	daughter Sophia lost on 9/18/12
mouse1986	9/20/13
paisleybaby33	9/22/12
II3414	9/23/12
Ktrue85	9/23/12
alysiasienicki	9/24/12
andreagb	9/24/12
jenn0021	9/25/11
kiki4	9/28/12
oktobersky	9/28/12
starburst0928	DS lost at 41w 9/28/12
Graduates:
4LegsRBest	9/1/11
Mork	9/25/11; 9/1/12
PKaren	9/5/12
Sterling13	9/6/12
QuigleyCat1	9/7/12
Nikki0514	9/11/12
BritsyB8	9/12/12
elplocho	9/12/12
Lmb5109	9/12/12
OSUJayDee	9/12/12
JulieBeke	9/13/12
JessS29	9/15/12
FreyaWin2382	9/16/12
prplscrubs	9/16/12
daillm	9/20/12
nola78	9/20/12
behapy2day	9/21/12
misternmiss	9/21/12
NBBride05	9/21/12
OCIrishBruin	9/21/12
PetraStoneGirl	9/21/11
Albah	9/23/12
Skk1977	9/23/12
JonathansMommy	9/25/12
kpowers	9/26/12
mom22labs	9/26/12
amy7111	9/27/12
rayofsunshine	9/29/12
Heatherhah	DD born sleeping 9/30/11

 

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

GTKY:  What's your guilty pleasure?  Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud?  Trashy tabloids?

twotexans

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

Yesterday was my loss anniversary.  I underestimated how hard it would be.  I tucked away our old ultrasound photos though, and feel oddly relieved and saddened at the same time.   New RE consult is in about 2 weeks.

GTKY:  What's your guilty pleasure?  Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud?  Trashy tabloids? 

I'm a dark chocolate eating, red wine drinker that loves tabloids.  Preferably all at the same time!

jenn0021

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.
Nothing much new with me. At all really. Hmm... that's slightly disappointing. I am 3 weeks away from my loss milestone though and I'm really dreading it. I cannot believe it's been 2 years

GTKY: What's your guilty pleasure? Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud? Trashy tabloids?
I can't think of anything exciting to answer this. Man, I'm disappointing today.

twotexans

jenn0021:

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.
Nothing much new with me. At all really. Hmm... that's slightly disappointing. I am 3 weeks away from my loss milestone though and I'm really dreading it. I cannot believe it's been 2 years

GTKY: What's your guilty pleasure? Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud? Trashy tabloids?
I can't think of anything exciting to answer this. Man, I'm disappointing today.

I'm really hoping you get out of here soon.  You deserve a break.  (((((hugs)))))

I go through spells where I have a lot, or I have none.    

jenn0021

twotexans:

jenn0021:

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.
Nothing much new with me. At all really. Hmm... that's slightly disappointing. I am 3 weeks away from my loss milestone though and I'm really dreading it. I cannot believe it's been 2 years

GTKY: What's your guilty pleasure? Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud? Trashy tabloids?
I can't think of anything exciting to answer this. Man, I'm disappointing today.

I'm really hoping you get out of here soon.  You deserve a break.  (((((hugs)))))

I go through spells where I have a lot, or I have none.    

Thanks love. I'm just feeling left behind lately and it's wearing me down. I want to go back to my cheery self that I was in the fall.

twotexans

jenn0021:

Thanks love. I'm just feeling left behind lately and it's wearing me down. I want to go back to my cheery self that I was in the fall.

I get it.  I've been battling the blues lately too.  It sucks.  It sucks feeling like you are left behind.  I've felt that way often when dealing with IF.  We are here for you.  (((((((big squishy hugs))))))))

Hey, and congrats on the weight gain!

jenn0021

twotexans:

jenn0021:

Thanks love. I'm just feeling left behind lately and it's wearing me down. I want to go back to my cheery self that I was in the fall.

I get it.  I've been battling the blues lately too.  It sucks.  It sucks feeling like you are left behind.  I've felt that way often when dealing with IF.  We are here for you.  (((((((big squishy hugs))))))))

Hey, and congrats on the weight gain!

I know I'm not alone and that definitely helps. I love that I have so many supportive women I can turn to. It just sucks because right now I feel very lonely IRL. Everyone is having babies and it hurts. A lot.

And thank you. I was very excited about the weight gain and I hope it keeps going up.

How are you doing? I think it was a big step taking down the u/s pictures from your fridge. Are you still good with that decision? How are you holding up today?

Desmond&MollyJones*

I just started posting here a few days ago.

My EDD was 9/29/12.  I discovered I was pregnant in January, had a few U/S, including seeing the HB around week 8.  At my 12 week appt in the middle of March, the doctor could not find a HB, so she got me right in for an U/S where we discovered the baby died around 10.5 weeks.  I had a D&C the next day.

We had many other difficulties during 2012 that prevented us from being ready to try again.  But starting in December we were warming back up to the idea.  January 4th marked day 1 of our first cycle of trying again and today I'm on CD 27.

So that is my story.

I'm so sorry for everyone's losses.  Hope your stays are short!

Good luck to everyone. 

 

GTKY:  What's your guilty pleasure?  Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud?  Trashy tabloids? 

All of the above, plus reality TV. 

twotexans

Gotta run to a meeting.  I'll check back in and respond to everyone later this afternoon.  Love you all!

 

smscartozzi

Hi ladies!  I would love to join you all.  My EDD was 9/9/13.  On 1/23 I started bleeding and on 1/24 my fears were confirmed and I was starting a natural miscarriage.  Right now we are TTA until my after AF. I am trying to get back in the swing of all this stuff by temping and will start opks once I get a negative hpt.

Wishing everyone the best of luck in their journey and I am so sorry for your losses! 

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

My milestone is that today was my first day of not bleeding post m/c.  Oh, also yesterday we got our genetic testing back from the RE and things are looking better as it was a chromosomal issue that is not prone to recurrence. Fingers crossed.

GTKY: What's your guilty pleasure? Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud? Trashy tabloids?

My guilty pleasure is pizza, beer, lifetime movies and Cinnabon...preferably all in one night....in that order!!

lovelainie

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

 Nothing new around here. CD10, still waiting on DH's bonus, so we can pay off his vehicle so we have money to go back to the RE. We also had a humongous fight because DH thinks he'd rather buy a new (to us) vehicle than go back to the RE for 3 more cycles. 

I've got him talked out of it for now, but it's left me feeling kind of deflated. And maybe a little homicidal. 

So, instead of focusing on TTC, I'm busting my @ss on the elliptical every night, and trying to get my diet turned around to something more pcos/endo friendly. The diet part is HARD.  

GTKY:  What's your guilty pleasure?  Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud?  Trashy tabloids?

Candy? Also, in the mornings at work, when I'm still super sleepy (I have to be there at 5AM, which means I wake up at 3:30 every morning), I like to blast trash music--Seether, Nickelback, Eminem, and so on.  

twotexans

jenn0021:

twotexans:

jenn0021:

Thanks love. I'm just feeling left behind lately and it's wearing me down. I want to go back to my cheery self that I was in the fall.

I get it.  I've been battling the blues lately too.  It sucks.  It sucks feeling like you are left behind.  I've felt that way often when dealing with IF.  We are here for you.  (((((((big squishy hugs))))))))

Hey, and congrats on the weight gain!

I know I'm not alone and that definitely helps. I love that I have so many supportive women I can turn to. It just sucks because right now I feel very lonely IRL. Everyone is having babies and it hurts. A lot.

And thank you. I was very excited about the weight gain and I hope it keeps going up.

How are you doing? I think it was a big step taking down the u/s pictures from your fridge. Are you still good with that decision? How are you holding up today?

I understand.  I've been left in the dust by just about everyone I know IRL.  It sucks.  I'm here if you need to vent.  

I'm doing better today.  Yesterday was rough, but I'm still glad I took them down.  I know where they are if I ever want to look at them, but I'm happy I took the leap.  I had been thinking about it for awhile.

twotexans

Desmond&MollyJones*:

I just started posting here a few days ago.

My EDD was 9/29/12.  I discovered I was pregnant in January, had a few U/S, including seeing the HB around week 8.  At my 12 week appt in the middle of March, the doctor could not find a HB, so she got me right in for an U/S where we discovered the baby died around 10.5 weeks.  I had a D&C the next day.

We had many other difficulties during 2012 that prevented us from being ready to try again.  But starting in December we were warming back up to the idea.  January 4th marked day 1 of our first cycle of trying again and today I'm on CD 27.

So that is my story.

I'm so sorry for everyone's losses.  Hope your stays are short!

Good luck to everyone. 

 

GTKY:  What's your guilty pleasure?  Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud?  Trashy tabloids? 

All of the above, plus reality TV. 

I am so sorry for you loss, but welcome to the check-in.  I have added your information to the spreadsheet, so you will be included in next week's check-in.  I'm sorry that 2012 was such a tough year, but hopefully there will be brighter skies ahead of you.

I'm guilty of that too.  I have a bunch of guilty pleasures, and indulge in them often.   They help keep me sane and calm on the TTCAL rollercoaster.

twotexans

smscartozzi:

Hi ladies!  I would love to join you all.  My EDD was 9/9/13.  On 1/23 I started bleeding and on 1/24 my fears were confirmed and I was starting a natural miscarriage.  Right now we are TTA until my after AF. I am trying to get back in the swing of all this stuff by temping and will start opks once I get a negative hpt.

Wishing everyone the best of luck in their journey and I am so sorry for your losses! 

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

My milestone is that today was my first day of not bleeding post m/c.  Oh, also yesterday we got our genetic testing back from the RE and things are looking better as it was a chromosomal issue that is not prone to recurrence. Fingers crossed.

GTKY: What's your guilty pleasure? Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud? Trashy tabloids?

My guilty pleasure is pizza, beer, lifetime movies and Cinnabon...preferably all in one night....in that order!!

I am so very sorry for your loss, but welcome to the check-in.  I have added your info onto our spreadsheet, and you will be on the list next week.  I'll cross my fingers that testing reveals an issue that is not likely to repeat.  There are several of us in the check-in under the care of an RE too.

Can I come over when you have your next guilty pleasure night.  That sounds like my kind of party.   I absolutely love Cinnabon.  So yummy!

twotexans

lovelainie:

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

 Nothing new around here. CD10, still waiting on DH's bonus, so we can pay off his vehicle so we have money to go back to the RE. We also had a humongous fight because DH thinks he'd rather buy a new (to us) vehicle than go back to the RE for 3 more cycles. 

I've got him talked out of it for now, but it's left me feeling kind of deflated. And maybe a little homicidal. 

So, instead of focusing on TTC, I'm busting my @ss on the elliptical every night, and trying to get my diet turned around to something more pcos/endo friendly. The diet part is HARD.  

GTKY:  What's your guilty pleasure?  Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud?  Trashy tabloids?

Candy? Also, in the mornings at work, when I'm still super sleepy (I have to be there at 5AM, which means I wake up at 3:30 every morning), I like to blast trash music--Seether, Nickelback, Eminem, and so on.  

Come on bonus time!  I know the feeling.  I understand the DH frustration too.  J has talked about buying a new truck, buying me a new car, or buying a travel trailer at one point or another over the last year.  It drives me insane.  I just keep looking at it as treatment $$$.  I think he's cooled it now.   I feel your pain.

Way to go busting your buns!  What diet are you doing?  I struggle with the low GI diet.  I stick to it 75% of the time, but I need to be better about it.

I don't blame you for blaring the music that early.  I wound need a caffeine IV.  What do you do again?  I'm sure you've mentioned it before, but I am horrible about remembering things.

lovelainie

twotexans:

lovelainie:

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

 Nothing new around here. CD10, still waiting on DH's bonus, so we can pay off his vehicle so we have money to go back to the RE. We also had a humongous fight because DH thinks he'd rather buy a new (to us) vehicle than go back to the RE for 3 more cycles. 

I've got him talked out of it for now, but it's left me feeling kind of deflated. And maybe a little homicidal. 

So, instead of focusing on TTC, I'm busting my @ss on the elliptical every night, and trying to get my diet turned around to something more pcos/endo friendly. The diet part is HARD.  

GTKY:  What's your guilty pleasure?  Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud?  Trashy tabloids?

Candy? Also, in the mornings at work, when I'm still super sleepy (I have to be there at 5AM, which means I wake up at 3:30 every morning), I like to blast trash music--Seether, Nickelback, Eminem, and so on.  

Come on bonus time!  I know the feeling.  I understand the DH frustration too.  J has talked about buying a new truck, buying me a new car, or buying a travel trailer at one point or another over the last year.  It drives me insane.  I just keep looking at it as treatment $$$.  I think he's cooled it now.   I feel your pain.

Way to go busting your buns!  What diet are you doing?  I struggle with the low GI diet.  I stick to it 75% of the time, but I need to be better about it.

I don't blame you for blaring the music that early.  I wound need a caffeine IV.  What do you do again?  I'm sure you've mentioned it before, but I am horrible about remembering things.

Everything I've read about natural management of pcos and endometriosis says to avoid dairy and wheat, and for endometriosis they really push moving to only fresh food. So nothing canned or frozen, and ideally organic. I'm nowhere close to that, aside from already being mostly dairy free, but I'm trying to inch my way there.

As for my job, I'm a bookkeeper for a grocery store. I have to get there early enough to count everything from the day before, do all the deposits, order supplies, and get the store up and running. The nice thing about the ungodly early mornings, though, is that I'm out of there by two most days.

rlajambe

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

I'm the 2ww (I think).  I wasn't able to temp reliably as I lost my thermometer temporarily during the move.  (Don't worry we found it, it was packed with bedroom stuff)  That completely flucked up my chart. 

GTKY: What's your guilty pleasure? Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud? Trashy tabloids?

Ice cream is my Kryptonite.  When I'm having a bad day, it's my go to comfort food.

JennOH85

Hi ladies! 

TwoTexans: I've been thinking about since your post yesterday and am sending lots of ((hugs)) your way. I hope your upcoming consult with the new RE goes well!

Jenn0021: I'm sorry you're coming up on your 2-year loss anniversary. ((hugs)) I'll be sending peaceful vibes your way. It's so hard not get worn down. We're here for you. I hope you're back to your cheery self soon, too! 

Desmond: I'm sorry for your loss, but welcome.

SMS: I'm so sorry for your loss and that you're joining us too, but welcome.

Lainie: I'm sorry you and YH had such a big fight, especially an RE-related one. As if this situation didn't suck enough, right? But good for you for kicking @ss on the elliptical! The diet you're on does sound tough to maintain but like you'll be really pumping your body with lots of good stuff! 

Update:

It's CD24 and I'm not-so-patiently waiting for AF to show her ugly face so I can just end this cycle and move on. This week was bad news all around: Low P4, probably no ovulation, and now heading to an RE but I'm waiting for a referral from my OB/GYN whose office hasn't returned my calls since Tuesday. I hate everything right now. Things are not going well and my response has just been to get angry at the world and then sob into a glass of whiskey and/or wine. I've been dreading February and as my loss date approaches, I can feel myself start to panic.

GTKY:

My guilty pleasure is taking naps when I need to get work done. I might be a closet nap-aholic but I love sleeping. One of my first roommates used to worry about me because I slept so much, but what can I say? I'm a natural couch potato  

JennOH85

rlajambe:

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

I'm the 2ww (I think).  I wasn't able to temp reliably as I lost my thermometer temporarily during the move.  (Don't worry we found it, it was packed with bedroom stuff)  That completely flucked up my chart. 

GTKY: What's your guilty pleasure? Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud? Trashy tabloids?

Ice cream is my Kryptonite.  When I'm having a bad day, it's my go to comfort food.

I'm sorry your chart is flucked up this month but I'm glad you did find the thermometer!  

Also, I need to add ice cream to my guilty please list, too! 

twotexans

rlajambe:

Updates: Please update us on any testing, dr appts, milestones, etc.

I'm the 2ww (I think).  I wasn't able to temp reliably as I lost my thermometer temporarily during the move.  (Don't worry we found it, it was packed with bedroom stuff)  That completely flucked up my chart. 

GTKY: What's your guilty pleasure? Red wine? Chocolate? Really bad 80s rap music played way too loud? Trashy tabloids?

Ice cream is my Kryptonite.  When I'm having a bad day, it's my go to comfort food.

I hate when you lose the thermometer.  I one behind my bed.  I was convinced I had accidentally thrown it away.  Best of luck this month!!!

Mmmmm ice cream.  I love it too, but I can only eat it in small amounts.  That is probably a good thing. 

twotexans

JennOH85:

Update:

It's CD24 and I'm not-so-patiently waiting for AF to show her ugly face so I can just end this cycle and move on. This week was bad news all around: Low P4, probably no ovulation, and now heading to an RE but I'm waiting for a referral from my OB/GYN whose office hasn't returned my calls since Tuesday. I hate everything right now. Things are not going well and my response has just been to get angry at the world and then sob into a glass of whiskey and/or wine. I've been dreading February and as my loss date approaches, I can feel myself start to panic.

GTKY:

My guilty pleasure is taking naps when I need to get work done. I might be a closet nap-aholic but I love sleeping. One of my first roommates used to worry about me because I slept so much, but what can I say? I'm a natural couch potato  

I'm sorry your testing didn't yield better results.  I think moving to an RE is the right move.  I got much more thorough testing through my RE, and overall care.  (((((huge hugs))))) I understand the anxiety and panic that builds before that next milestone.  It's okay to scream and be mad at the world.   That was me yesterday.  Today was better though, and I have a feeling it will be similar for you.  I'm here if you need to b!tch about it all.

I used to love naps.  Seems like the older I get, the less I can nap.  There are some days that I would give my right hand for a good nap.